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Lots to say, but don't even want to get into anything right now. Probably smarter to go and eat some green veggies . . .

But -

sadness,
sorrow,
regret,
guilt,
self-anger,
wishes to not be here,...
all of it notwithstanding,

the truth is,
I *have to* become a whole person.

Wish had long ago.

And must.

It is my only hope anway.

So note to self: when get so overwhelmingly sad, try to remember: it's all irrelevant in a way - you just must become a whole person, period.

I'm saying this badly, but there's a point in there somewhere.