CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

blessed, sensual, hopeful, willing, safe, thankful, sacred, serene, renewed, welcoming, peaceful, gleeful, better, vibrant, amorous, grateful, valuable, trusting, open, healthy, gifted, alive, recharged, loving of people and animals and plants and minerals and the world in general.

powerless

shy, not whole, insecure, estranged, uncertain, exhausted. Need sleep! Need more sleep! Must put self first!

Wow. Sometimes is surprising when go through all the magnets to see which ones "fit."
First stuff: happy about b'day, and L, and being a woman, and finding myself
Second stuff: food - and glad to know am powerless on own
Third stuff: shy because meeting L's friends tomorrow, one of whom is his best friend and former lover! Uncertain and shy about ability to socialize, especially when so tired.

5 good things about me
I am smart
I am hard-working
I am cute
I am able to relax and be carefree
I am able to help others feel that way too

CoDA

I feel:

Above all else:

Relieved
Dr. said I've got the L thing in perspective.
I know I will get through the conferences.
I am eating better and losing weight.
Relieved.
Relieved and very, very grateful!

5 good things about me.
I am open-minded
I am cute
I am funny
I am smart enough
I work hard

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Jittery
Grateful
Obsessed about food, about not obsessing about food, about J. and the loss, about L. and the fun diversion
Excited about French lessons, London soon, Jo's suggestions to treat myself more like company and my doing so
Nervous about being good enough to/for the children today
Confident that with preparation and prayer, it is all in God's hands and I will do the right things.

5 good things about me
I have integrity.
I can give Reiki.
I would never abuse that by giving without the adult's permission, or in the case of a child, without his parent's permission.
I am funny.
I appreciate life! Yay!

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Lots of things,
but among and sort of overwhelming them,
overwhelmed about the work around here I have to do today.
And the talk with J in about half an hour.
And the having to do the shopping with mother later. Don't know why, just afraid of my emotions and don't want to. (WILL, of course!)
And somewhat safe in the hands of God.
And scared inside somehow.
And all mixed about the divorce.
And afraid that L wants so much more than I do. But do NOT want to "use" him or be unfair to him. But am enjoying. And AM being honest...
Confused
Grateful

Next time do differently:
More for self.
Kinder, gentler to self.
Meet own needs.
NOT put someone else's needs above mine!

5 good things about me
sensuous
great hair
beautiful feet
more well-spoken irl again
becoming gentler - yay

CoDA Work Today

I feel: Omg I wonder what the hell will come up.
As I am shaky, cold, blurry-dizzy. Still! And weight is dropping off a little even though I AM eating.

Okay, here goes.

omg so many - it took so long
ok
here

I feel:

hateful, incompetent, burdened, apprehensive, shaky, discouraged, thankful, lost, unstable in terms of financial security,exhausted, terrified, terrible, limited, furious, empty of abilities to help self here, deflated, lousy because of all this crap, undervalued, uneasy, blue and have been crying a lot today, angry at that fuck, disturbed by the thought of losing so much when i've done more than i've even shared here - and been through more than i've even shared here - yet, bothered obviously, desolate, absurd for not having had it even cross my mind that maybe he was planning this and letting that clock tick for the last two years, belittle by being treated this way, low, desperate financially, ignored by the shit even though he was supposed to teach me this week how to do the bills online - although he has now said he will do it sat., perplexed by it all and how it could happen,

uncertain about my own future ***this one is VERY DANGEROUS for the child of a schizophrenic mother, who therefore grew up with a deep-rooted internal belief that her (my) actions COULD NOT affect her environment. and now, having spent decades on something, to possibly lose it all SO reinforces that. I'm SO SCARED!

helpless in a way, on my own at least - but not as much with the lawyer on board. God, I hope himself will see how generous I am prepared to be and just fucking SHUT THE FUCK UP AND ACCEPT IT AND GET THE FUCKING FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE!

opposite of energized - if there were a word, it would be de-energized
clueless as to what the fuck to do - glad don't have to know; lawyer does
hopeful, somewhere but little and buried deep inside, a little bit hopeful
irritated beyond fucking words
estranged from the man who used to put my needs first - he doesn't even exist anymore - at this point, i don't NEED a man to put my needs first - but i am sickthefuck of being abused and used
aggravateed, distrubed, unappreciated as who i am
ashamed of having been so trusting and naive
uncooperative, somewhat reflective, miserable
and yet a teeny tiny bit cheerful as of when i used the magnets - not this minute
PANICKY
envious of EVERYONE who has handles their life better than i

Blessed. Still know I'm blessed in a million ways.

cheapened by that using piece of shit
amorous toward L
irritable (can you tell:)
somewhat brave
supported by the lawyer
free in a way, just not financially
sacred, I think, because God did make me, right?

i see that i chose the word renewed this am before i got through all these chosen words, with the major crying jag in between while trying to meditate, but i don't know why

ill - dizzy, blurry, wobbly

whole in a way. shitty, but whole.

stuck in his fucking web
and enraged
powerful with my lawyer on my side, a little

wounded - how could he have done ANY of this to me?
baffled about it all, especially the money stuff
hindered by my own fucking self and stupidity

PANICKY!!!!
Like, scared for my own sanity over all of this:(

Insecure, abused, unsafe

anxious, bewildered, shocked,
threatened, toppled, worried
frightened

swamped (report cards - during all this?!)

vulnerable, afraid

welcoming - of SOME things in future
and trying to live in this moment

distressed, broken

unloved, even by M - i mean, i know she loves me in a way, but she is also EVER conscious of keeping people around who can help her...

JITTERY - ***This is the most noticeable, biggest feeling. Amazingly, shakingly jittery!

fearful. So Fearful.

impotent
overwhelmed
intimidated by the son of a bitch

Welcomed by some people

Powerless in the most important and positive way. Giving it all to God. I mean, taking every action I can, but giving it all to God.

Sensual. Thank you, L. I feel like a woman again. I would never be so stupid as to sleep with someone or anything like that! I just like feeling desirable.

Secure in a little way, like the universe is taking care of me. I have my breath, I have my practice (Buddhism)

Willing to do whatever I have to do. And kind of believing I can, with the help of God.

Dreadful overall. Really nervous about this feeling for so many days.

And fortunate
And finally: Grateful. Yes grateful for so much.

--

Five Good Things about Me

1. I AM strong. I AM. (right?)
2. There is a man who finds me desirable right now.
3. I am a very spiritual person, and that's nice.
4. I don't eat animals or their parts
5. I am smart enough.

Phew.

CoDA

I feel:

Scared of the weather and the ride.
Nervous that he won't like me.
Nervous that I won't like him.
Really nervous that he'll, in his highly opinionated way, criticize me weight.

Guilty about not doing enough fun stuff with doggie.

Grateful that I am alive and as healthy as I am.

Feeling stronger than used to. By far. And very grateful for that.

Rushed.

Feeling that this should be a light little fun day - few hours - and will go quickly anyway, probably even too quickly.

Grateful for THN and meditationability

5 good things about me
1. I'm more confident than I used to be
2. I'm good enough at wording things for letters and report cards
3. I helped M. this morning
4. I am getting neater
5. I am not as dependent as I'd always thought!

CoDA

I feel:

guilty about doggie - not giving her enough time
excited about French, England, possible rain forest
girly - finally
rushed - so much to do and it's so late already - and this is supposed to be a day off!
stressed about report cards!
bad about mother - oy
relieved in a million ways
very grateful

5 good things about me

i am a decent person
i am well-spoken
i am at the top of my profession
i am empathetic
i am fun sometimes

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Vibrant, sacred - God, content with my life this day, alive, open to other people, capable of going to England!, upset in the apple-cart-upset way like unsettled because of the J. changed, safe - God, whole (!), healthy, cheerful, worthy (because we all are), forgiven by J, sane, OPTIMISTIC - ME!, calm in terms of looking forward to the rest of my day ahhhhh, unencumbered in some ways, proud of my accomplishments, loving to people, gifted in some ways, divine and blessed in a million ways, wise way inside, hopeful yay!, humble as in equal to all no more and no less, willing in all ways, empowered by all of this, better than wanting to throw self under moving car one year ago this very month!, so so fortunate from oranges to piano to breath..., loved by my mother, confident about my abilities to go to England by self and stay sane and even happy while there, needed by M and some others, rejected by J, slighted by J, disconnected from J, uncertain about future, mostly okay about that!, renewed yay renewed, brave about all the trip stuff, so grateful, rejuvenated by yesterday and especially O putting makeup on me at the place SO sweet and my new girlie stuff, awed by life and these changes and God's blessings, social while yesterday I was feeling kind of antisocial

Do differently:
Be still more careful about eating. Remember to turn it over every single day, to God

5 Good Things about Me:
1. Most all of principals have gotten who I am and respected me greatly and trusted me fully!
2. Many people do like and even love me
3. I look at myself openly and honestly and accept the bad stuff and have even begun to accept the good stuff too
4. I can have FUN!!!!
5. I am a very neat embroiderer

CoDA

I feel:

Healthy, because I am, that I know of
Hopeful, thank God
Optimistic - things will work out - and even moreso if I'm looking at them that way
Exhilarated about the changes I'm making
Better than before! Like months or certainly one year ago!
Supported by MA
Cheerful in some ways
Divine in the Hand of God
Blessed in many ways
Thrilled to enjoy days
Vital - like not a lot, but *enough* energy
Gratified by the changes that are occurring as a result of my work
Grateful in a million ways
Kind of - safe - God
Calm. This one is huge. C~~a~~l~~m
Open - who knows what's coming. And open to ideas as well
Upbeat. Wow.
Somewhat reflective
Delighted with some new things - like L and *French!*
Peaceful. Yea.
Alive. I am. And I am happy to be.
Inspired somewhat
Glorious, spiritually
Sacred. Because I am.
Fine.
Sane
Vibrant. Like, sort of able. (But not about food).
Renewed. By all this work.
Wise - inside
Satisfied - with THIS day
Empowered, by the things I've been doing.
Brave, in many ways
Somewhat UNemcumbered
Somewhat Welcoming

Humble. Powerless. Willing - Food

Entangled with him, about money : (
A little antisocial. Like I would like this whole day to myself
Envious of P's money. And even of M's financial situation
A bit awkward about doing anything outside with others, socially.
Neglected. By J.
Unstable a bit too.

Next time differently:
more meetings!

5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am cute
2. I have a lively smile
3. I appreciate many many of the "little" things
4. I am affectionate
5. I help children

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Thrilled, with the changes in me. The miracle.
Awed by the miracle.
Sane. Or at least leaning toward sane :)
Gifted - learning - piano - languages - handling things
Unencumbered! Me! In many ways!
Valued - by M, and O, and MA and ML and S and St and N and G and D and J and L and sponsor and K and students and many parents and my mother and God and myself. Finally myself.
Empowered - because the more I do, the more I know I am able to do. Just "do the next right thing."
Hopeful. Hopeful hopeful hopeful hopeful
Grateful - for so much
Satisfied - with my life *right now*
Affirmed - by M, by JJ , by EJ, by Biride, by God, by self
Delighted - with new things - date, museum, French, piano, doggie, enjoyment! Good foods...
Optimistic - Yay!
healthy - because I am
Whole - because I am. I. Am!
Reflective - but in a good way. A nice way.
Vibrant. Live!
Alive. Yay
Forgiving. He did the best he could too.
Sacred - God
Blessed - in countless ways, including ability to know it
Open - to whatever is to come. AND to living in the moment
Energized - for the things I have to do and the things I want to do
Cheerful - practicing it has made it so! (And, "Fake it til you make it" has worked for me!
Surprised - that my life could be so good with so much wrong - and my attitude could change - and I could and do really feel okay!
Vital. Yes! I am vital.
Fine. Thank God, I feel fine.
Brave. In so many ways. Doing the things. And facing the things.
Calm. Thank God, I feel calm. Oh, deep breath just now even typing that.
Heard. Somehow able to be myself and be heard and not so much caring who likes it and who doesn't! I exist!
Loved - by friends...
Proud - in a good way - of doing things
Worthy because God made us ALL - why would I not be worthy?
EFFECTIVE. After all that upbringing. All those years of feeling I have no impact, I find out that my actions ARE effective!
Free! And grateful for it!
Renewed. Why not?
Peacful. Thank God
Glorious. Wow.
Secure in a way. god
Upbeat

Powerless, willing and humble

And a little overwhelmed and uncomfortable too. A lot to do, not all of it comfortable.

But - I know I can.

Will do differently - report cards sooner this vaca.
Not rush or push self.

5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am there for my friends
2. I am funny
3. I am talented - acting
4. I can think on my feet in virtually or maybe totally any work situation
5. I have nice hair
6. I have nice eyes
7. I have sort of dimples
8. I have nice feet.
9. I have a nice smile.
10. And I use it.

Wow! That's 10 things!

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Oh. My. Gosh.
My little magnet board is overfilled.
I used every single one (there are over two hundred) and not one of the negative ones fit. It's like, "Is this me?" Well yes, it is!

Here we go.

I feel:

Calm, healthy, gifted, alive, unencumbered (me! again!), thankful, optimistic, gratified, affirmed, capable, sacred, worthy (as all of God's creations are), vibrant (me!), reflective (in a good way), welcomed (M, and even O, and others too), accepted, divine, sane - because I am, cheerful (me?!), fortunate (for a million reasons), energized a bit, needed (M), rejuvenated - or if it were a word just plain juvenated!, better - by far, somewhat secure (God), and glorious (God), whole - omg me - whole!, forgiving, empowered, grand even, valued (by some and even myself), amazed by all the good in my life and in me right now!, just plain old amazed by it all!, amorous in a way, renewed - a biggy, somewhat safe (God), GRATEFUL!, fine, alive, awed, hopeful, somewhat trusting - in the big picture, open!, even thrilled, loving of Mother Earth, other creatures, plants and minerals; inspired by Whitney Houston's funeral yesterday, brave because of all I'm doing and even have done in some of my past, wonderful, appreciated (M, L, MA) welcoming and powerless and humble (program and life), FREE, delighted (all these new things)
And generally FANTASTIC!

Okay there is one: a little bit mistreated (J)

I think it is because:
All I've been doing
L's acceptance of me as I am
M's love for me
God made me

5 good things about me:
I am intelligent
I am deeply spiritual
I *want* to share that gift with others
My body knows what's good for it/me
I am compassionate

CoDA Work This Morning

I feel:

Unsure - because my financial future, thanks to the stupid law, is at this point partly dependent on J's integrity
Rejected and jilted by J after we took vows
Unsure, and even a little worried about getting passport - ability to do so. And about above financial stuff
Entangled - with him
Exhausted - sort of in advance, because unsure regarding the things I have to do
Disconnected - from J and even his family a la my dream last night
A little bit shaky about it all
Bothered too

AND
Powerless and welcoming to caring for my body, with God's help

AND
Grateful - for so much
Optimistic - I just feel all will work out for me
Worthy - because God made me
Trusting - somehow I still am. I think J might well do the right thing
Sacred - God made me and is with me
Valued - at work, by principal, colleagues, and many parents
Glorious - I'm part of something bigger - and it is God and collectiveness with people and the universe
Blessed - to have so much
Fortunate - in a million ways - body, job, home, abilities, accomplishments, etc.
Renewed - to *do* my life. *Live* my life
Somewhat secure - despite it all
Somewhat energized - to have a great week off. And I don't have the amount of cleaning to do that I had in Dec.
Unencumbered in a way. Because so far in my life, I *do* manage to do what need

Calm - Amazingly, surprisingly, gratefully calm!

Fulfilled - inside ME! (I can hardly believe I'm able to feel/say these things!)

Healthy - just do
Alive - because am, and can feel it now
Better - than I was last year at same time!!!! And even two months ago!
Sane - because I am
Gifted - in some ways, like fast thinking, fast typing, empath, language, piano, open-mindedness, creativity, so attuned to other dimension like meditation and reiki - such a quick response - so in touch internally with what my body needs

Five good things about me:
1. I am brave
2. I am now positive. I am actually a positive person.
3. I made that change myself. It was hard and I did it.
4. I'm planning my own trip to England!
5. I'm doing French homework. Have found things enjoy! And am doing them!

CoDA

I feel:

Afraid about my mother and J's insistence we tell her.
Looking forward a little to the relief that might eventually bring me - like nothing else to be afraid of.

Afraid about money.
Hopeful that he'll accept my very generous offer, through which we could both be okay.

Glad vaca is coming.
Physically run-down and almost depleted.

Anxious about time this morning.
Grateful for friends.

Grateful for so much.

Hopeful.

5 good things about me:
K loves me
I am a child of God
I helped my friend a lot last night and today
People like to socialize with me
I am funny - people always say that

CoDA

I feel:

Relaxed, relieved, whole = self

Nervous, anxious, worried = money

Hopeful = God, Buddha, mindfulness practices

Excited = trip

Grateful = friends

Happy = can help M today when she needs

Sacred, prayerful = God, mindfulness, Reiki

5 good things about me:
1. I try to let me who've helped me, know how it and know how I appreciate it
2. I don't take advantage of others
3. I'm smart
4. I try hard, and when I don't know something, I try to figure it out
5. I'm an amazingly fast typist

CoDA

I am at break at work. I feel today:

A little empowered. If he needs to play games, I can too. I DON'T WANT TO!
A bit hopeful - that he won't and we don't have to.
(Talking finances above).

Nervous - because heartbreak, layered with mother stuff, layered with financial crap.

Very excited about the London trip!

Proud of myself.

Grateful for girlfriends, ***including YOU****

Grateful for you, male and female, that I am not alone in cyberspace, thank you thank you thank you!

5 good things about me

brave
never give up
funny
thoughtful of the children
good strong conscience

CoDA

I feel:

So much!
So many things!

Isolated, lonely - doing all the England stuff
Swamped - so much to do between self, programs, England, and work
Disturbed, uneasy, uncomfortable - J and all the stupid-ass state allowances of my money to him and I have so little and I'm not sure how much that he's allowed, he'll want to take - maybe all! : (
Frantic - too much to do and nervous and not fully trusting of self
Scared can't do all should/need to/want to
Unsure of self and ability to cope - and of J and how decent he will or won't be
Overwhelmed - too much to do, and have never done ANYTHING like it!
Encumbered - by my own fucking fears and lacks of experience and upbringing
Impotent - against the stupid state about the money and about my job stuff
Battered - by J. All those years of giving and now this
Intimidated by the state allowances (divorce-wise) and by our governor (education and teachers and his stupidity)
Worried about my future
Regretful about my past with J and about not facing my issues sooner
Envious of everyone who's better off
Anxious - about everything almost, sort of
Shaky - all of it - just shaky inside
Betrayed by the man I made and meant the vows to
Ignored by J
Furious at J and at the situation and at these parts of my upbringing
Unappreciated by J
Apprehensive about my future
Jilted by J
Exhausted, in a sort of depressed kind of way - like - I have energy at work (thank God) but it is ALL used up and I collapse at home + I almost need to, to avoid, or something
Numb - despite all these feelings, there is an area of me that is still numb. And although that is normally against my nature, I'm appreciating it. I can only take what I can take.
Afraid. Afraid. Can I do it kind of afraid.
Neglected - J - despite his good intentions, and I mean that
Rejected - J. And it FEELS LIKE every good man would reject me. Why not? But dr. says, and I quote, "So why would you accept his distorted opinion as being gospel?"
Empty and ostracized both: About navigating London alone. All alone. : (
Insecure. Because I do NOT have security. Despite 31 years of working to secure it. Fuck!
Blue. Obviously
Used. By J. To pull the plow. Even now when HE'S left ME!

Humble, Powerless - food

Affirmed - principal
Worthy - because I've done so much
Optimistic, in a way, about my life, my present day, and my future
Alive - I am alive, and I feel alive, and I'm glad for that
Brave - in some ways. I have always been
Thankful, Grateful - so much - I mean, 100 gratitudes a day
Blessed - in many ways - but that's NOT to say I'm chosen and some others aren't blessed - it just means I'm aware of my blessings
Trusting - in some ways of some people, even J to not take too much advantage
Forgiving - I know that like me, he has done, is doing, the best he can with what he has
Sacred - because God made me and loves me.

Next time differently:
Just keep growing
Eat less still

5 Good Things about Me
1. I try
2. I'm nice to the children
3. I take their education seriously
4. I'm honest
5. I'm funny

CoDA

I feel:
I literally cannot see straight. I am so afraid. Want to take a Valium, but then would have no chance of driving and would really be stuck here.

Scared, Jilted, Shaky, Threatened in a way (financial and mother), Intimidated, Frightened, Nervous, Worried, Uneasy, Disturbed,
Lost about What Can Do - Nothing, really, about this conversation with J
Bypassed by a good man to love me forever
Lonely,
Depressed
Envious of M for having so much more money - not mean don't want her to have! Just mean wish I had to. Not talking about wishing were rich. Just secure.
Ill - all this body stuff
Very fearful of alone
Helpless about my own financial future because it's so late and I only make what I make and he might be vicious. Oh, God, please. If he is nice, I will be more than fair! Please don't let him be out to screw me.
Plus, I don't want lawyers making extra money out of it for no reason.
Battered about by life. I know that compared to many others, I'm not. But I feel it.
Kind of numb to anything else

All because: 1 hours and 10 minutes til "The Talk."

And
Humble, powerless and Willing - food stuff

And
Empty in a good way. Like, there must be some saying something like: "A vase that is not empty cannot be filled" or something.

And
Sacred. God made me
Trusting somewhat but that could be stupid. I'm picturing he'll be great about the money. And I might be in for a big shock. I have been before, with him.
Optimistic because of the trusting
Healthy in a way (although ill in many too)

Next time differently:
I'll never get married again.
I MIGHT have relationship(s) but I do NOT believe in marriage for me anymore with anyone else.

5 good things about me:
I have a "keen sense of justice." My high school social studies teacher even wrote that to me, and said "and the world needs it."
I have played in many piano recitals.
I have bravery.
I have not given up.
Jo likes me, and she's a very special person, so I must be likeable.

CoDA

I feel:

Alive,
calm,
valued (Mer, MA...),
confident (first time ever),
renewed by all this - all these new feelings,
grateful for so much,
thankful to God and so many people. And even self.
inspired by God, by sponsors, by dr. etc.,
whole - WHOLE!,
optimistic - Oh my God, is this me?,
sane - because I am.,
relieved - SOOOO relieved,
relaxed (!),
better,
capable - work AND life,
fine,
grand,
energized,
triumphant against own self demons,
cheerful - me?,
blessed,
sacred,
trusting - in the big picture - about my life - nothing to worry about -,
accepted - by God - and self!,
recharged,
open,
welcomed - by God,
delighted - by L and more,
secure - in the important ways,
useful,
unencumbered. Unencumbered? Me? First time EVER.
And willing, humble and powerless (food, and these area ll good things)

Not even regretful - not resentful of self (for today:)

I think it is because:
All in those yesterday/today posts.
+ Thich Naht Hahn (and some explanations above)

***THIS IS THE FIRST TIME EVER, I'VE HAD ALL POSITIVES ON THE MAGNET BOARD!

5 good things about me:
I've never given up
I share it with others
I am funny
I am able to laugh through anything
I am smart

CoDA

I feel:

Many things. I have put them all on the magnet board, but don't have time to write them here.

Reasons:
M's problems and loss of support to me right now, and some of her dishonesties, MA's illness, J of course J J J, + L is too intelligent and well-spoken for me + I'm exhausted to the point of trouble thinking straight. Blessed and grateful and thankful and sacred = grats and God, and powerless humble and willing about food

Next time differently:
Continue to remember to pray
Continue to remember to give over my food and food choices to God. It's working and much easier than dieting.

5 good about me
honest
willing
hard-working
loyal
dedicated

CoDA Morning Work Today

I feel:

Abandoned by J, Clueless about how to handle things, Rejected by J, Shaky about my life, Uneasy about everything - everything, Apprehensive about my financial future, sort of Alienated, Kind of Lifeless between tired and caffeinated and scared and depressed, Defective because haven't been able to work out primary relationships, Bewildered about what the fuck to do, Absurd I feel like I am absurd, Ill in intestines, Distrustful of men and commitments in future, Disturbed in general, Overall dreadful because afraid of the future - when in the moment not as bad, Puzzled about suggestions from phone therapist, Uncomfortable physically and emotionally, Jilted by J even though we made a commitment, Anguished about where my life is and where it's going, Distant from all and even myself and somewhat Numb, Ignored (J),
and Wounded like a vulnerable bird whose wing is broken.
And broken, but remembering that maybe I had to be broken to be fixed, right?
And somewhat panicky about it all, future, each day, this day, etc.

And
Powerless, Willing, and Humble - OA

And
Sacred because God made me and is in my life, Alive somewhat - I mean I am, Grateful for so much like on grats list, Valued at work and by some friends, Blessed and Fortunate in so many ways (grats), Worthy in a way because God made me and since I believe all beings are worthy I must be too, Somewhat calm not sure why, Needed at work.

Next time differently:
Continue to eat a bit more greens and fruit daily

5 good things about me
I have helped M
I have helped MA
I helped C
I try. Every day I try.
I am still funny.