Feelings Work

I Feel:
Okay in some ways.
Very scared.
Like I'm inept.

I Think It Is Because:
I don't have experience with these things I have to do now. Lawyers, money, mother's health... dealing with aides...
I grew up in a way that causes someone to not trust self and abilities and effect on environment. Child of schizophrenic mother, damn for that.
I wish I had had the fucking sense to get long-term care insurance:(

Next Time I'll Do Differently:
Keep doing. Just keep doing! DON'T give in to the paralysis.
Stop putting self down. Can only do what can do. TODAY.
Accept help! Like from J, who is offering!
Don't snivel!

5 Good Things about Me:
1. I try. God knows, I do try.
2. I am fair - more than, in fact, to others.
3. I am a better person than I used to be when was more self-centered.
4. At this age I really WANT to give.
5. I can look pretty.

5 Good Things about Me

5 Good Things about Me:

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1. I like leading a clean life.
2. I have come to yet again!
3. I play piano.
4. I appreciate little things. VERY easy to buy a gift for, do a favor for, make feel good...
5. I am intelligent.

5 Good Things about Me

1. I am a good listener.

2. I am sexual.

3. I like to move my body (like walk/swim).

4. I am deeply spiritual.

5. I try. I try! I TRY ITRYitryitryitryitryitry!

5 Good Things about Me

Hmmmm.
Let's see now.

1. I can play piano


2. I do not eat animals.


3. I am kind - hearted.


4. I make people laugh hysterically!


5. I never ever give up. Not ever.

Feelings Work

I feel:
Shitty.
Down.
Not suicidally depressed though.

I think it is because:
I am sick.
And I have been avoiding too many things (and the two are not unrelated)

Next time I'll do differently:
A few minutes a day to keep up with things even.

5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am self-honest
2. I try
3. I am actually less morbid than I used to be!
4. I have a clear enough conscience to sleep at night.
5. I am smart.

5 Good Things about Me:



1. I don't kill
2. I don't break confidences.
3. I don't steal.
4. I don't eat animals.
5. I try to never exploit them. (clothes, eggs, honey, pearls, ... dairy, ... wool, leather, ...