I am good enough.
EVERYTHING about me is good enough!
I have fun!
I do interesting things!
I am a whole person!
People like me!
People love me!
God and the universe are taking perfect care of me!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
CoDA
I feel:
Healthy, because I am, that I know of
Hopeful, thank God
Optimistic - things will work out - and even moreso if I'm looking at them that way
Exhilarated about the changes I'm making
Better than before! Like months or certainly one year ago!
Supported by MA
Cheerful in some ways
Divine in the Hand of God
Blessed in many ways
Thrilled to enjoy days
Vital - like not a lot, but *enough* energy
Gratified by the changes that are occurring as a result of my work
Grateful in a million ways
Kind of - safe - God
Calm. This one is huge. C~~a~~l~~m
Open - who knows what's coming. And open to ideas as well
Upbeat. Wow.
Somewhat reflective
Delighted with some new things - like L and *French!*
Peaceful. Yea.
Alive. I am. And I am happy to be.
Inspired somewhat
Glorious, spiritually
Sacred. Because I am.
Fine.
Sane
Vibrant. Like, sort of able. (But not about food).
Renewed. By all this work.
Wise - inside
Satisfied - with THIS day
Empowered, by the things I've been doing.
Brave, in many ways
Somewhat UNemcumbered
Somewhat Welcoming
Humble. Powerless. Willing - Food
Entangled with him, about money : (
A little antisocial. Like I would like this whole day to myself
Envious of P's money. And even of M's financial situation
A bit awkward about doing anything outside with others, socially.
Neglected. By J.
Unstable a bit too.
Next time differently:
more meetings!
5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am cute
2. I have a lively smile
3. I appreciate many many of the "little" things
4. I am affectionate
5. I help children
Healthy, because I am, that I know of
Hopeful, thank God
Optimistic - things will work out - and even moreso if I'm looking at them that way
Exhilarated about the changes I'm making
Better than before! Like months or certainly one year ago!
Supported by MA
Cheerful in some ways
Divine in the Hand of God
Blessed in many ways
Thrilled to enjoy days
Vital - like not a lot, but *enough* energy
Gratified by the changes that are occurring as a result of my work
Grateful in a million ways
Kind of - safe - God
Calm. This one is huge. C~~a~~l~~m
Open - who knows what's coming. And open to ideas as well
Upbeat. Wow.
Somewhat reflective
Delighted with some new things - like L and *French!*
Peaceful. Yea.
Alive. I am. And I am happy to be.
Inspired somewhat
Glorious, spiritually
Sacred. Because I am.
Fine.
Sane
Vibrant. Like, sort of able. (But not about food).
Renewed. By all this work.
Wise - inside
Satisfied - with THIS day
Empowered, by the things I've been doing.
Brave, in many ways
Somewhat UNemcumbered
Somewhat Welcoming
Humble. Powerless. Willing - Food
Entangled with him, about money : (
A little antisocial. Like I would like this whole day to myself
Envious of P's money. And even of M's financial situation
A bit awkward about doing anything outside with others, socially.
Neglected. By J.
Unstable a bit too.
Next time differently:
more meetings!
5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am cute
2. I have a lively smile
3. I appreciate many many of the "little" things
4. I am affectionate
5. I help children
Readings
For Today:
"The faultfinder will find faults even in Paradise." Henry David Thoreau
"Do I recognize myself in that bleak portrait? Finding fault is a habit, like having to be right, or telling people what to do. It's possible to find fault even if the object of my displeasure were to become the exact opposite of what it is. As a faultfinder, I can be on the offensive and no one has a chance to criticize me. Finding fault is easy; a child can do it, particularly a tired, cross, frustrated child.
Chronic faultfinding is a flaw in my own makeup, and has nothing to do with people and things outside myself. It is a habit that needs the scrutiny of a personal inventory and a good step-five-airing.
For today: Growth in the OA program allows me to see with new eyes; feeling good about myself makes me less critical of myself and others.
--
Voices of Recovery:
"In OA we learn that our recovery comes to us through the principles of the program, not through personalities." O 12 & 12 p. 203
"We are taught, through loving acts of tact and kindness under difficult circumstances, that we are given far more than a normal body size as a result of taking OA's Twelve Steps and remaining abstinent.
Since recovery in OA is a transformational journey, conflict with others is inevitable, and often unavoidable. The shame and low self-esteem which prays on us afterwards is the voice of our disease, calling us back.
Today, I can view my differences with others, both personal and philosophical, as opportunities to identify and overcome my knee-jerk reactions to the world in which I live. I can tolerate the feelings and sidestep the temptation to abbreviate my discomfort by speaking or acting inappropriately, knowing that a short-term 'fix' won't work for someone like me.
I pray that I may always seek God's help to move towards the most harmonious relations with others, knowing that my abstinence may hinge on my reaction to life in this moment. The OA principles will always lead me in that direction.
--
In This Moment:
"In This Moment, I'm God's child.
"I'm beautiful as is. I don't need to change to please the world. I continue to grow, at my own pace, in peace and understanding. i am no longer lost as before. Now, I have a Fellowship which understands and cares about me. I can talk things over with my sponsor. I don't have to face my feelings alone. I have friends to talk to and do things with. And I have a Higher Power who never lets me down."
--
The Language of Letting Go
"Living in the Present
"the present moment is all we have. yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough.
We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make ourselves available to this moment, this day. It is by being fully present now that we reach the fullness of tomorrow.
Have no fear, child, a voice whispers. Have no regrets. Relinquish your resentments. Let Me take your pain. All you have is the present moment. Be still. Be here. Trust.
All you have is now. It is enough.
Today, I will affirm that all is well around me, when all is well within."
==
"The faultfinder will find faults even in Paradise." Henry David Thoreau
"Do I recognize myself in that bleak portrait? Finding fault is a habit, like having to be right, or telling people what to do. It's possible to find fault even if the object of my displeasure were to become the exact opposite of what it is. As a faultfinder, I can be on the offensive and no one has a chance to criticize me. Finding fault is easy; a child can do it, particularly a tired, cross, frustrated child.
Chronic faultfinding is a flaw in my own makeup, and has nothing to do with people and things outside myself. It is a habit that needs the scrutiny of a personal inventory and a good step-five-airing.
For today: Growth in the OA program allows me to see with new eyes; feeling good about myself makes me less critical of myself and others.
--
Voices of Recovery:
"In OA we learn that our recovery comes to us through the principles of the program, not through personalities." O 12 & 12 p. 203
"We are taught, through loving acts of tact and kindness under difficult circumstances, that we are given far more than a normal body size as a result of taking OA's Twelve Steps and remaining abstinent.
Since recovery in OA is a transformational journey, conflict with others is inevitable, and often unavoidable. The shame and low self-esteem which prays on us afterwards is the voice of our disease, calling us back.
Today, I can view my differences with others, both personal and philosophical, as opportunities to identify and overcome my knee-jerk reactions to the world in which I live. I can tolerate the feelings and sidestep the temptation to abbreviate my discomfort by speaking or acting inappropriately, knowing that a short-term 'fix' won't work for someone like me.
I pray that I may always seek God's help to move towards the most harmonious relations with others, knowing that my abstinence may hinge on my reaction to life in this moment. The OA principles will always lead me in that direction.
--
In This Moment:
"In This Moment, I'm God's child.
"I'm beautiful as is. I don't need to change to please the world. I continue to grow, at my own pace, in peace and understanding. i am no longer lost as before. Now, I have a Fellowship which understands and cares about me. I can talk things over with my sponsor. I don't have to face my feelings alone. I have friends to talk to and do things with. And I have a Higher Power who never lets me down."
--
The Language of Letting Go
"Living in the Present
"the present moment is all we have. yes, we have plans and goals, a vision for tomorrow. But now is the only time we possess. And it is enough.
We can clear our mind of the residue of yesterday. We can clear our mind of fears of tomorrow. We can be present, now. We can make ourselves available to this moment, this day. It is by being fully present now that we reach the fullness of tomorrow.
Have no fear, child, a voice whispers. Have no regrets. Relinquish your resentments. Let Me take your pain. All you have is the present moment. Be still. Be here. Trust.
All you have is now. It is enough.
Today, I will affirm that all is well around me, when all is well within."
==
Grats
I am grateful:
1. That I *want * to give service to others.
2. That I have opportunities to, including to the children
3. And possible tutor kids
4. And possible Reiki clients
5. And friends
6. And people suffering in program
7. And out of program, like here
8. My throat and lungs and been, have felt, so clear for a while now! I wonder if some of it could be psychological!
9. They did say to me in program (OA), “We will love you until you can love yourself.” Wow.
10. Louise Hayes
11. Melodie Beattie
12. That I practiced this morning, and it was fun (Still Monday)
13. A whole day off today. Ummm
14. Maybe my courage getting through this is helping B and/or M. I think it is.
15. Indian food.
16. And that England will have it too, for me: )
17. My little, just-right amount of prescribed Paxil.
18. That I don’t do, like, a Paxil and a Xanax and a valium and wine or stuff like that.
19. I got the garbage out (it’s Tuesday now)
20. Gave doggie her morning treat
21. She’s waggly : )
22. I’m glad I woke up
23. I’m so so glad I’m appreciating life. A lot of the reality way, which I am getting from my much-loved sponsor who lives in a way that is such a fantastic example for me.
24. That M called me in need of going to the ENT. I would rather her not be sick, and I would rather not have to go, but I’m glad she has me to call.
25. And that of course I will do it.
26. That today I shall write out one week’s worth of food and just follow it. I am ready to do that again. I used to do it, and it worked quite well for me. Phew.
27. All the love J had for me
28. And the wonderful ways he treated me when he was treating me wonderfully
29. I’m not so worried about money now.
30. I will get my bag of paper work done this week. Phew.
31. I did a load of dishes and I’m happy I did.
32. That dishwasher detergent work right, so I’ll give it back to M and buy more.
33. That I HAVE a dishwasher. My grandmother didn’t even have a washing machine until later in life. She literally washed clothes on a board!
34. That I am here, this age, now. -- Wow that I could say that!
35. A deep breath just came.
36. Things I learned on Dr. Oz the last 2 shows I saw
37. Getting along nicely with J.
38. Vacation week. Vacation week vacation week vacation week.
39. And the next one – I’ll be in England!
40. Doggie is here.
41. I WILL do something for HER FUN today!
42. Access to healthy food.
43. Hot coffee this morning.
44. Inspirational people.
45. That Br called me back yesterday.
46. The exercise mat!
47. And that J brought it here for me
48. The exercise bands and DVD
49. The treadmill. What a luxury!
50. The balance thing too! I am so lucky
51. My little plants in the sunroom
52. My place is only about 1000 or 1100 square feet. But that is PLENTY of room for me (or me and a doggie). More than enough. I would even have less if it would mean everyone could have the same.
53. MA calling last night
54. M getting some relief last night.
55. Intestines that work
56. Eyesight
57. That I am physically able
58. That it is nice out today. Instead of constantly worrying about global warming, I can do what I can about it and about educating, and then enjoy a day. That’s a big difference in attitude.
59. I have a FEELING I’ll get to see MA and ML and maybe with O, before going back to school next Monday.
60. M taking my mother for lunch yesterday
61. And bringing her dinner last night.
62. Maybe I should reconsider this not telling her stuff. Maybe I could do more with her/for her if I weren’t constantly worried about her finding out.
63. I’m getting to the point where I don’t give a ___what others think of me, and that is good. Doing what I can, that is right, because it is right, not because of who will think what.
64. EJ’s beautiful words yesterday.
65. And the lovely dream about meeting someone like that, that I had last night.
66. And the beautiful mountains and nature in the dream.
67. And MA in the dream too.
68. Cosmetics that do not test on animals.
69. Same about perfumes
70. And soaps
71. And shampoos…
72. Countries that are at peace.
73. People who don’t hurt each other.
74. People who would never hurt each other.
75. I don’t have the family I’d like, but I’m grateful that some people do. I really am.
76. Reiki ability
77. Teaching ability
78. Tutoring ability
79. Piano ability
80. Painting not ability(!) but fun
81. Coloring
82. Embroidering
83. And that I find joy in the stitch.
84. And that so many people have commented on how neat my stitches are.
85. And that so many have said it would make them nervous. But I find it so relaxing. Long before I ever thought of doing meditation, I found such joy in the stitch. Not about the finished product – that’s a bonus. About the one stitch. Now that I know, I see how mindful that is!
86. Every pillowcase I’ve done.
87. Meeting new people
88. Old friends
89. My little house. It really needs work, but I’m glad I have it.
90. Relaxation. Every time I have it
91. That I am literate.
92. That I am educated. That’s lucky.
93. That I know how to work hard at things.
94. I am grateful to God for my brain.
95. And that it is not smarter. If it were, I think I would have become a real snob.
96. A gorgeous sunset picture on tv right now. Blue down to green, yellow, orange, and bright pink, over water across land.
97. Coats.
98. Desks.
99. A table. I hope I can eat at it again someday.
100. Stamps. I used to be afraid of getting them. Long, phobic story, doesn’t matter. But now I can get them pretty easily.
1. That I *want * to give service to others.
2. That I have opportunities to, including to the children
3. And possible tutor kids
4. And possible Reiki clients
5. And friends
6. And people suffering in program
7. And out of program, like here
8. My throat and lungs and been, have felt, so clear for a while now! I wonder if some of it could be psychological!
9. They did say to me in program (OA), “We will love you until you can love yourself.” Wow.
10. Louise Hayes
11. Melodie Beattie
12. That I practiced this morning, and it was fun (Still Monday)
13. A whole day off today. Ummm
14. Maybe my courage getting through this is helping B and/or M. I think it is.
15. Indian food.
16. And that England will have it too, for me: )
17. My little, just-right amount of prescribed Paxil.
18. That I don’t do, like, a Paxil and a Xanax and a valium and wine or stuff like that.
19. I got the garbage out (it’s Tuesday now)
20. Gave doggie her morning treat
21. She’s waggly : )
22. I’m glad I woke up
23. I’m so so glad I’m appreciating life. A lot of the reality way, which I am getting from my much-loved sponsor who lives in a way that is such a fantastic example for me.
24. That M called me in need of going to the ENT. I would rather her not be sick, and I would rather not have to go, but I’m glad she has me to call.
25. And that of course I will do it.
26. That today I shall write out one week’s worth of food and just follow it. I am ready to do that again. I used to do it, and it worked quite well for me. Phew.
27. All the love J had for me
28. And the wonderful ways he treated me when he was treating me wonderfully
29. I’m not so worried about money now.
30. I will get my bag of paper work done this week. Phew.
31. I did a load of dishes and I’m happy I did.
32. That dishwasher detergent work right, so I’ll give it back to M and buy more.
33. That I HAVE a dishwasher. My grandmother didn’t even have a washing machine until later in life. She literally washed clothes on a board!
34. That I am here, this age, now. -- Wow that I could say that!
35. A deep breath just came.
36. Things I learned on Dr. Oz the last 2 shows I saw
37. Getting along nicely with J.
38. Vacation week. Vacation week vacation week vacation week.
39. And the next one – I’ll be in England!
40. Doggie is here.
41. I WILL do something for HER FUN today!
42. Access to healthy food.
43. Hot coffee this morning.
44. Inspirational people.
45. That Br called me back yesterday.
46. The exercise mat!
47. And that J brought it here for me
48. The exercise bands and DVD
49. The treadmill. What a luxury!
50. The balance thing too! I am so lucky
51. My little plants in the sunroom
52. My place is only about 1000 or 1100 square feet. But that is PLENTY of room for me (or me and a doggie). More than enough. I would even have less if it would mean everyone could have the same.
53. MA calling last night
54. M getting some relief last night.
55. Intestines that work
56. Eyesight
57. That I am physically able
58. That it is nice out today. Instead of constantly worrying about global warming, I can do what I can about it and about educating, and then enjoy a day. That’s a big difference in attitude.
59. I have a FEELING I’ll get to see MA and ML and maybe with O, before going back to school next Monday.
60. M taking my mother for lunch yesterday
61. And bringing her dinner last night.
62. Maybe I should reconsider this not telling her stuff. Maybe I could do more with her/for her if I weren’t constantly worried about her finding out.
63. I’m getting to the point where I don’t give a ___what others think of me, and that is good. Doing what I can, that is right, because it is right, not because of who will think what.
64. EJ’s beautiful words yesterday.
65. And the lovely dream about meeting someone like that, that I had last night.
66. And the beautiful mountains and nature in the dream.
67. And MA in the dream too.
68. Cosmetics that do not test on animals.
69. Same about perfumes
70. And soaps
71. And shampoos…
72. Countries that are at peace.
73. People who don’t hurt each other.
74. People who would never hurt each other.
75. I don’t have the family I’d like, but I’m grateful that some people do. I really am.
76. Reiki ability
77. Teaching ability
78. Tutoring ability
79. Piano ability
80. Painting not ability(!) but fun
81. Coloring
82. Embroidering
83. And that I find joy in the stitch.
84. And that so many people have commented on how neat my stitches are.
85. And that so many have said it would make them nervous. But I find it so relaxing. Long before I ever thought of doing meditation, I found such joy in the stitch. Not about the finished product – that’s a bonus. About the one stitch. Now that I know, I see how mindful that is!
86. Every pillowcase I’ve done.
87. Meeting new people
88. Old friends
89. My little house. It really needs work, but I’m glad I have it.
90. Relaxation. Every time I have it
91. That I am literate.
92. That I am educated. That’s lucky.
93. That I know how to work hard at things.
94. I am grateful to God for my brain.
95. And that it is not smarter. If it were, I think I would have become a real snob.
96. A gorgeous sunset picture on tv right now. Blue down to green, yellow, orange, and bright pink, over water across land.
97. Coats.
98. Desks.
99. A table. I hope I can eat at it again someday.
100. Stamps. I used to be afraid of getting them. Long, phobic story, doesn’t matter. But now I can get them pretty easily.
Monday, February 20, 2012
CoDA Morning Work Today
I feel:
Thrilled, with the changes in me. The miracle.
Awed by the miracle.
Sane. Or at least leaning toward sane :)
Gifted - learning - piano - languages - handling things
Unencumbered! Me! In many ways!
Valued - by M, and O, and MA and ML and S and St and N and G and D and J and L and sponsor and K and students and many parents and my mother and God and myself. Finally myself.
Empowered - because the more I do, the more I know I am able to do. Just "do the next right thing."
Hopeful. Hopeful hopeful hopeful hopeful
Grateful - for so much
Satisfied - with my life *right now*
Affirmed - by M, by JJ , by EJ, by Biride, by God, by self
Delighted - with new things - date, museum, French, piano, doggie, enjoyment! Good foods...
Optimistic - Yay!
healthy - because I am
Whole - because I am. I. Am!
Reflective - but in a good way. A nice way.
Vibrant. Live!
Alive. Yay
Forgiving. He did the best he could too.
Sacred - God
Blessed - in countless ways, including ability to know it
Open - to whatever is to come. AND to living in the moment
Energized - for the things I have to do and the things I want to do
Cheerful - practicing it has made it so! (And, "Fake it til you make it" has worked for me!
Surprised - that my life could be so good with so much wrong - and my attitude could change - and I could and do really feel okay!
Vital. Yes! I am vital.
Fine. Thank God, I feel fine.
Brave. In so many ways. Doing the things. And facing the things.
Calm. Thank God, I feel calm. Oh, deep breath just now even typing that.
Heard. Somehow able to be myself and be heard and not so much caring who likes it and who doesn't! I exist!
Loved - by friends...
Proud - in a good way - of doing things
Worthy because God made us ALL - why would I not be worthy?
EFFECTIVE. After all that upbringing. All those years of feeling I have no impact, I find out that my actions ARE effective!
Free! And grateful for it!
Renewed. Why not?
Peacful. Thank God
Glorious. Wow.
Secure in a way. god
Upbeat
Powerless, willing and humble
And a little overwhelmed and uncomfortable too. A lot to do, not all of it comfortable.
But - I know I can.
Will do differently - report cards sooner this vaca.
Not rush or push self.
5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am there for my friends
2. I am funny
3. I am talented - acting
4. I can think on my feet in virtually or maybe totally any work situation
5. I have nice hair
6. I have nice eyes
7. I have sort of dimples
8. I have nice feet.
9. I have a nice smile.
10. And I use it.
Wow! That's 10 things!
Thrilled, with the changes in me. The miracle.
Awed by the miracle.
Sane. Or at least leaning toward sane :)
Gifted - learning - piano - languages - handling things
Unencumbered! Me! In many ways!
Valued - by M, and O, and MA and ML and S and St and N and G and D and J and L and sponsor and K and students and many parents and my mother and God and myself. Finally myself.
Empowered - because the more I do, the more I know I am able to do. Just "do the next right thing."
Hopeful. Hopeful hopeful hopeful hopeful
Grateful - for so much
Satisfied - with my life *right now*
Affirmed - by M, by JJ , by EJ, by Biride, by God, by self
Delighted - with new things - date, museum, French, piano, doggie, enjoyment! Good foods...
Optimistic - Yay!
healthy - because I am
Whole - because I am. I. Am!
Reflective - but in a good way. A nice way.
Vibrant. Live!
Alive. Yay
Forgiving. He did the best he could too.
Sacred - God
Blessed - in countless ways, including ability to know it
Open - to whatever is to come. AND to living in the moment
Energized - for the things I have to do and the things I want to do
Cheerful - practicing it has made it so! (And, "Fake it til you make it" has worked for me!
Surprised - that my life could be so good with so much wrong - and my attitude could change - and I could and do really feel okay!
Vital. Yes! I am vital.
Fine. Thank God, I feel fine.
Brave. In so many ways. Doing the things. And facing the things.
Calm. Thank God, I feel calm. Oh, deep breath just now even typing that.
Heard. Somehow able to be myself and be heard and not so much caring who likes it and who doesn't! I exist!
Loved - by friends...
Proud - in a good way - of doing things
Worthy because God made us ALL - why would I not be worthy?
EFFECTIVE. After all that upbringing. All those years of feeling I have no impact, I find out that my actions ARE effective!
Free! And grateful for it!
Renewed. Why not?
Peacful. Thank God
Glorious. Wow.
Secure in a way. god
Upbeat
Powerless, willing and humble
And a little overwhelmed and uncomfortable too. A lot to do, not all of it comfortable.
But - I know I can.
Will do differently - report cards sooner this vaca.
Not rush or push self.
5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am there for my friends
2. I am funny
3. I am talented - acting
4. I can think on my feet in virtually or maybe totally any work situation
5. I have nice hair
6. I have nice eyes
7. I have sort of dimples
8. I have nice feet.
9. I have a nice smile.
10. And I use it.
Wow! That's 10 things!
Readings
For Today:
"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." Helen Keller
"When I am troubled, I think my pain will last forever. Peace of mind appears to be gone for good, and the fact that I have faced and conquered problems in the past is forgotten.
Although yesterday's suffering may have little bearing on the present, I know that overcoming it gave me strength. My burdens today might seem greater than any I've ever had, but so is my ability to deal with them. I am not where I once was. I have learned in OA that when I can do nothing more to improve a situation, there is a process in which I can trust absolutely: let go and let God.
For today: Pain often comes from non-acceptance."
So true! So true! Back to text:
"Pain often comes from non-acceptance. if I find that i can neither change nor accept a certain reality, I let it go for now, knowing that it is the first step in overcoming my misery."
--
Voices of Recovery
"What we do have to offer is . . . a Fellowship in which we find and share the healing power of love." OA 12 & 12 p. ix
"When I entered the Twelve-Step program, I was broken, bleeding, discouraged, debauched, bloated, and hating myself. Then came my first ray of hope. 'We will love you until you can love yourself!' Yes (praise God), this miracle has come true. I love and respect myself today, I had been badly buffeted by life, including other compulsions and major illnesses. However, my health as a total person is much improved. Love from others in OA and from my Higher Power has healed me. I have learned to accept myself without judgment, as other OA members accept and love me. I, too, can now reach out in Overeaters Anonymous and let love pass through me to heal others. To every newcomer I say, 'We will love you until you can love yourself.'"
--
In This Moment
"In This Moment, I have spirituality.
My life was unmanageable. I had no goals, no insights. i struggled with decision-making. Before CoDA, I had religion. now, I have spirituality which sustains me on a daily basis. I have a higher Power to guide, support, and listen to me. My spirituality and Higher Power have lifted a great burden from my shoulders. i no longer have to do anything alone.
--
The Language of Letting Go:
"Setting Our Own Course
"We are powerless over other people's expectations of us. We cannot control what others want, what they expect, or what they want us to do and be.
We can control how we respond to other people's expectations.
During the course of any day, people may make demands on our time, talents, energy, money and emotions. We do not have to say yes to every request. We do not have to feel guilty if we say no. And we do not have to allow the barrage of demands to control the course of our life.
We do not have to spend our life reacting to others and to the course they would prefer we took with our life.
We can set boundaries, firm limits on how far we shall go with others. We can trust and listen to ourselves. We can set goals and direction for OUR life. We can place value on ourselves.
We can own our power with people.
buy some time. Think about what YOU want. Consider how responding to another's needs will affect the course of your life. We live or own life by not letting other people, their expectations, and their demands control the course of our life. We can let them have their demands and expectations; we can allow them to have their feelings. We can own our power tochoose the path that is right for us.
today, God, help me own my power by detaching, and peacefully choosing the course of action that is right for me. help me know I can detach from the expectations and wants of others. help me stop pleasing other people and start pleasing myself.
==
"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." Helen Keller
"When I am troubled, I think my pain will last forever. Peace of mind appears to be gone for good, and the fact that I have faced and conquered problems in the past is forgotten.
Although yesterday's suffering may have little bearing on the present, I know that overcoming it gave me strength. My burdens today might seem greater than any I've ever had, but so is my ability to deal with them. I am not where I once was. I have learned in OA that when I can do nothing more to improve a situation, there is a process in which I can trust absolutely: let go and let God.
For today: Pain often comes from non-acceptance."
So true! So true! Back to text:
"Pain often comes from non-acceptance. if I find that i can neither change nor accept a certain reality, I let it go for now, knowing that it is the first step in overcoming my misery."
--
Voices of Recovery
"What we do have to offer is . . . a Fellowship in which we find and share the healing power of love." OA 12 & 12 p. ix
"When I entered the Twelve-Step program, I was broken, bleeding, discouraged, debauched, bloated, and hating myself. Then came my first ray of hope. 'We will love you until you can love yourself!' Yes (praise God), this miracle has come true. I love and respect myself today, I had been badly buffeted by life, including other compulsions and major illnesses. However, my health as a total person is much improved. Love from others in OA and from my Higher Power has healed me. I have learned to accept myself without judgment, as other OA members accept and love me. I, too, can now reach out in Overeaters Anonymous and let love pass through me to heal others. To every newcomer I say, 'We will love you until you can love yourself.'"
--
In This Moment
"In This Moment, I have spirituality.
My life was unmanageable. I had no goals, no insights. i struggled with decision-making. Before CoDA, I had religion. now, I have spirituality which sustains me on a daily basis. I have a higher Power to guide, support, and listen to me. My spirituality and Higher Power have lifted a great burden from my shoulders. i no longer have to do anything alone.
--
The Language of Letting Go:
"Setting Our Own Course
"We are powerless over other people's expectations of us. We cannot control what others want, what they expect, or what they want us to do and be.
We can control how we respond to other people's expectations.
During the course of any day, people may make demands on our time, talents, energy, money and emotions. We do not have to say yes to every request. We do not have to feel guilty if we say no. And we do not have to allow the barrage of demands to control the course of our life.
We do not have to spend our life reacting to others and to the course they would prefer we took with our life.
We can set boundaries, firm limits on how far we shall go with others. We can trust and listen to ourselves. We can set goals and direction for OUR life. We can place value on ourselves.
We can own our power with people.
buy some time. Think about what YOU want. Consider how responding to another's needs will affect the course of your life. We live or own life by not letting other people, their expectations, and their demands control the course of our life. We can let them have their demands and expectations; we can allow them to have their feelings. We can own our power tochoose the path that is right for us.
today, God, help me own my power by detaching, and peacefully choosing the course of action that is right for me. help me know I can detach from the expectations and wants of others. help me stop pleasing other people and start pleasing myself.
==
Grats
I am grateful:
1. That I did go to visit M last night
2. That she ordered Chinese food
3. And picked it up
4. Vegan for me, of course.
5. And even paid for it.
6. And got a movie for a $1.30
7. And we spread out on the huge sectional (in the family room that is more than half the size of my house. Literally)
8. And each had a comforter.
9. And we watched a light, fluffy, worthless, cute little movie.
10. Like girlfriend/sisters.
11. And she bought me a used dvd of Les Choristes! Which I’m supposed to watch!
12. And I shall watch it once with English subtitles
13. And once without!
14. And who knows how many more times.
15. And I shall find a way to hear more French too!
16. A week off!
17. My house is almost in order, and before today is over, it will be in order!
18. And I *will * get to those report cards
19. And this week I have a French lesson
20. And a therapy session
21. And a museum date
22. And the doggie!
23. Whose sweet little breath I felt on myself this morning.
24. And exercise.
25. And I’m going to buy a little dvd player thing to use on the treadmill: ) Because the other one is broken
26. And I now have the exercise mat too.
27. Nice talk on phone with L yesterday morning.
28. Another great talk with sponsor this morning.
29. Sponsor is SUCH an inspiration to me!
30. I can do all that I have to do today. I can.
31. And I can do it all without rushing!
32. I. Am. A. Person.
33. For a long time I wondered if I’d *ever * feel that. And I *do * know it now.
34. I have done the apply-for-a-passport-stuff.
35. Whitney Houston’s funeral being televised
36. And it was inspirational to me
37. Hope. Hope hope hope.
38. Life
39. Breath
40. Voice
41. Legs
42. Hands
43. Maybe I will wind up with enough money to live after all
44. That I finally offered my services at school for playing the Star Spangled Banner
45. Will probably get to talk to MA today.
46. ***WILL be gentle on/with myself today.
47. Will be good to self today.
48. Ahhhh.
49. Will see Thich Nhat Hahn and/or his monks and nuns soon. Oh my gosh.
50. Flossing
51. Brushing
52. Rheinhold
53. Bach
54. My hair
55. My eyes
56. My freedom
57. All my freedoms
58. I don’t live under anyone’s thumb, exactly
59. I will probably not be alone forever.
60. An amazing breakfast. I bought it. It has sweet potato, grated, and red bell pep, and raw walnuts, and raisins.
61. And I’m eating it in a human portion.
62. And it’s GOOD FOR ME.
63. And I have plenty of water for today
64. And I practiced Bach yesterday, and a little Rhienhold.
65. New starts
66. That I’ve done some things I used to be afraid I couldn’t do.
67. That that should continue
68. My spirituality
69. Oprah
70. Eleanor Roosevelt
71. Hellen keller
72. Victor Hugo
73. Mother Teresa
74. Elie Weisel
75. Mindfulness meditation (sitting)
76. Mindfulness walking meditation
77. Mindfulness eating meditation
78. All of mindfulness
79. I might do some painting this week
80. New Age
81. People who are truly, internally, accepting of their bodies
82. My deep easy breath I just took a second ago
83. Dr. Oz
84. I’m not here alone today, because of precious doggie
85. That J and I are so good about that
86. M is with her girls right now: )
87. I’ll probably be spending (innocent) time with like 3 – 5 different guys soon. And that’s good for me.
88. And good for J to “see” too
89. My phone therapist
90. *The Steps!
91. The “Big Book”
92. Meetings. The miracle of meetings.
93. The miracle of what is changing within me from this daily work. Oh, thank God.
94. Prayer
95. The chance that I may be able to tutor soon
96. The chance that I may be able to give Reiki soon
97. Honesty
98. Not cheating on my taxes, ever.
99. That I have a checking account.
100. Online boggle
101. And so much more!
1. That I did go to visit M last night
2. That she ordered Chinese food
3. And picked it up
4. Vegan for me, of course.
5. And even paid for it.
6. And got a movie for a $1.30
7. And we spread out on the huge sectional (in the family room that is more than half the size of my house. Literally)
8. And each had a comforter.
9. And we watched a light, fluffy, worthless, cute little movie.
10. Like girlfriend/sisters.
11. And she bought me a used dvd of Les Choristes! Which I’m supposed to watch!
12. And I shall watch it once with English subtitles
13. And once without!
14. And who knows how many more times.
15. And I shall find a way to hear more French too!
16. A week off!
17. My house is almost in order, and before today is over, it will be in order!
18. And I *will * get to those report cards
19. And this week I have a French lesson
20. And a therapy session
21. And a museum date
22. And the doggie!
23. Whose sweet little breath I felt on myself this morning.
24. And exercise.
25. And I’m going to buy a little dvd player thing to use on the treadmill: ) Because the other one is broken
26. And I now have the exercise mat too.
27. Nice talk on phone with L yesterday morning.
28. Another great talk with sponsor this morning.
29. Sponsor is SUCH an inspiration to me!
30. I can do all that I have to do today. I can.
31. And I can do it all without rushing!
32. I. Am. A. Person.
33. For a long time I wondered if I’d *ever * feel that. And I *do * know it now.
34. I have done the apply-for-a-passport-stuff.
35. Whitney Houston’s funeral being televised
36. And it was inspirational to me
37. Hope. Hope hope hope.
38. Life
39. Breath
40. Voice
41. Legs
42. Hands
43. Maybe I will wind up with enough money to live after all
44. That I finally offered my services at school for playing the Star Spangled Banner
45. Will probably get to talk to MA today.
46. ***WILL be gentle on/with myself today.
47. Will be good to self today.
48. Ahhhh.
49. Will see Thich Nhat Hahn and/or his monks and nuns soon. Oh my gosh.
50. Flossing
51. Brushing
52. Rheinhold
53. Bach
54. My hair
55. My eyes
56. My freedom
57. All my freedoms
58. I don’t live under anyone’s thumb, exactly
59. I will probably not be alone forever.
60. An amazing breakfast. I bought it. It has sweet potato, grated, and red bell pep, and raw walnuts, and raisins.
61. And I’m eating it in a human portion.
62. And it’s GOOD FOR ME.
63. And I have plenty of water for today
64. And I practiced Bach yesterday, and a little Rhienhold.
65. New starts
66. That I’ve done some things I used to be afraid I couldn’t do.
67. That that should continue
68. My spirituality
69. Oprah
70. Eleanor Roosevelt
71. Hellen keller
72. Victor Hugo
73. Mother Teresa
74. Elie Weisel
75. Mindfulness meditation (sitting)
76. Mindfulness walking meditation
77. Mindfulness eating meditation
78. All of mindfulness
79. I might do some painting this week
80. New Age
81. People who are truly, internally, accepting of their bodies
82. My deep easy breath I just took a second ago
83. Dr. Oz
84. I’m not here alone today, because of precious doggie
85. That J and I are so good about that
86. M is with her girls right now: )
87. I’ll probably be spending (innocent) time with like 3 – 5 different guys soon. And that’s good for me.
88. And good for J to “see” too
89. My phone therapist
90. *The Steps!
91. The “Big Book”
92. Meetings. The miracle of meetings.
93. The miracle of what is changing within me from this daily work. Oh, thank God.
94. Prayer
95. The chance that I may be able to tutor soon
96. The chance that I may be able to give Reiki soon
97. Honesty
98. Not cheating on my taxes, ever.
99. That I have a checking account.
100. Online boggle
101. And so much more!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)