Jewel has had 2 days of training now. "Come here."
Summer just watched yesterday, but moved a little closer today. (And got rewarded).
*This is different than standing on my hand and eating millet. It is done with the hope that they will learn to come to me even when flighted: )
Monday, July 22, 2013
Special Day
because as some of grats say:
38. *****THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN 14 MONTHS I HAVE NO “EMERGENCIES’ HANGING OVER MY HEAD
39. Omg. What a feeling. And *I * am going to have a pina colada tonight to celebrate: )
40. And I have learned a MJOR lesson. One I ALWAYS knew, and have learned a little bit before but this time is HUGE. Because SO MUCH (mother stuff) has been hanging over my head and it all taps into my weakest weak points (counting its relation with the J stuff) and to have it DONE – my part – is SUCH a relief. I have not felt this way in like 7 years. Omg.
41. Tomorrow I can do just for ME.
42. And tonight – I can even JUST ENJOY
38. *****THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN 14 MONTHS I HAVE NO “EMERGENCIES’ HANGING OVER MY HEAD
39. Omg. What a feeling. And *I * am going to have a pina colada tonight to celebrate: )
40. And I have learned a MJOR lesson. One I ALWAYS knew, and have learned a little bit before but this time is HUGE. Because SO MUCH (mother stuff) has been hanging over my head and it all taps into my weakest weak points (counting its relation with the J stuff) and to have it DONE – my part – is SUCH a relief. I have not felt this way in like 7 years. Omg.
41. Tomorrow I can do just for ME.
42. And tonight – I can even JUST ENJOY
My 100 Gratitudes Today
I am grateful:
1. Great time yesterday
2. Saw MA
3. And ML
4. Had a pina colada
5. And lunch
6. With broccoli
7. And great talk with friends
8. Laughter
9. Tears
10. Honesty
11. Love
12. And ML said few time MUSTN’T wait so long (we used to do this frequently and don’t now)
13. And I was able to help MA with suggestions (her life is changing – ill – etc.)
14. Loving female friends. I didn’t used to appreciate but I do now
15. THAT I do now
16. And have for a while now
17. The Five Mindfulness Trainings
18. That M read them with me last night
19. The stream of positive fb posts I get in the mornings
20. All the pages I’ve “Liked”
21. EJ
22. Birdie
23. JJ
24. Kayleigh
25. M
26. MA
27. ML
28. L
29. A
30. St
31. Tv
32. Computer
33. books
34. that I can read again
35. and look forward to it
36. and bought a book light
37. cause can’t handle dealing with the den lighting at this point yet. But instead of putting self down, or suffering unable to read in here, got book light and can just enjoy: )
38. *****THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN 14 MONTHS I HAVE NO “EMERGENCIES’ HANGING OVER MY HEAD
39. Omg. What a feeling. And *I * am going to have a pina colada tonight to celebrate: )
40. And I have learned a MJOR lesson. One I ALWAYS knew, and have learned a little bit before but this time is HUGE. Because SO MUCH (mother stuff) has been hanging over my head and it all taps into my weakest weak points (counting its relation with the J stuff) and to have it DONE – my part – is SUCH a relief. I have not felt this way in like 7 years. Omg.
41. Tomorrow I can do just for ME.
42. And tonight – I can even JUST ENJOY
43. I saw MA today
44. I as busy all day and that was goo dfor me
45. ***Jewel has had 2 sessions of learning “Come here.” Summer is timidly watching and moving a LITTLE BIT closer (and getting rewarded). This is different than just walking on me for food. And should help for me to let their wings grow out and have them flying again : )
46. Thich Nhat Hanh saying, “You HAVE all the conditions for happiness.”
47. That I KNOW he is right
48. The nice nice pharmacy lady to my mother
49. The nice nice doctor’s office to my mother
50. I saw my principal today. And that was great too.
51. And T, who also said I looked great (as did principal)
52. I was able to copy a few things there
53. And mail from there
54. I am having a good dinner
55. I went to health food store.
56. And got organic green beans fresh
57. And organc baby kale fresh – good for me AND is birdies’ favorite : )
58. And good whole grain bread
59. And organic fake meat
60. And great broccoli rabe with garlic
61. And organic tomato sauce Italian
62. And water
63. I shall stop giving the birdies tap water because I read to in a source I trust
64. *****That FEELING when I was driving away from school today, knowing I was DONE. Omg how I’ve missed that feeling!
65. T stopping at post office for me
66. My mother’s helpers
67. Meals on Wheels for her
68. My healthy skin
69. My strong feet
70. And hands
71. That I just played Chopin
72. And Mendelssohn
73. And Rachmaninov
74. And tomorrow I shall play Tchaikovsky
75. And Rachmaninov
76. And something else but I haven’t fully decided what yet
77. That I am 7 degrees of teacher separation from Beethoven himself!
78. My time with MA today
79. That my birdies love when I play piano
80. My eye drops
81. I have been loved by a number of men. I mean love. I’m not talking about sex, but love.
82. *****That I thanked God. So heartily. I mean really. When J first left, I used to lay prone on the floor and pray to God to help me so he would come back! Tonight – FIRST TIME EVER – I lay prone and said, God. I used to lay here and beg you for what I thought I needed. What I wanted. Now I lay here to say but one thing to you: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
83. That I was FORCED BY MY CIRCUMSTANCES to do the things that fucking scared me so! Because I will NEVER have to feel dependent IN THAT WAY again!
84. But that I am NOT adverse to taking HELP! Lol
85. That MA can AFFORD financially to do the things her health is leading her toward needing/ Phew on her behalf.
86. Birdsong, for which I was always grateful (outside) throughout my HOUSE now! What a thrill
87. Joy
88. My bamboo garden!
89. Shih tzus
90. The love I had for two
91. And the love I had FROM the two also
92. Smiles
93. Ability to enjoy anything I have the ability to enjoy
94. Inspirational people
95. “The only journey is the one within.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke_________
96. That I am free
97. That I can see
98. Poetry
99. Native poetry
100. Peace everywhere there is peace
101. Access to water
1. Great time yesterday
2. Saw MA
3. And ML
4. Had a pina colada
5. And lunch
6. With broccoli
7. And great talk with friends
8. Laughter
9. Tears
10. Honesty
11. Love
12. And ML said few time MUSTN’T wait so long (we used to do this frequently and don’t now)
13. And I was able to help MA with suggestions (her life is changing – ill – etc.)
14. Loving female friends. I didn’t used to appreciate but I do now
15. THAT I do now
16. And have for a while now
17. The Five Mindfulness Trainings
18. That M read them with me last night
19. The stream of positive fb posts I get in the mornings
20. All the pages I’ve “Liked”
21. EJ
22. Birdie
23. JJ
24. Kayleigh
25. M
26. MA
27. ML
28. L
29. A
30. St
31. Tv
32. Computer
33. books
34. that I can read again
35. and look forward to it
36. and bought a book light
37. cause can’t handle dealing with the den lighting at this point yet. But instead of putting self down, or suffering unable to read in here, got book light and can just enjoy: )
38. *****THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN 14 MONTHS I HAVE NO “EMERGENCIES’ HANGING OVER MY HEAD
39. Omg. What a feeling. And *I * am going to have a pina colada tonight to celebrate: )
40. And I have learned a MJOR lesson. One I ALWAYS knew, and have learned a little bit before but this time is HUGE. Because SO MUCH (mother stuff) has been hanging over my head and it all taps into my weakest weak points (counting its relation with the J stuff) and to have it DONE – my part – is SUCH a relief. I have not felt this way in like 7 years. Omg.
41. Tomorrow I can do just for ME.
42. And tonight – I can even JUST ENJOY
43. I saw MA today
44. I as busy all day and that was goo dfor me
45. ***Jewel has had 2 sessions of learning “Come here.” Summer is timidly watching and moving a LITTLE BIT closer (and getting rewarded). This is different than just walking on me for food. And should help for me to let their wings grow out and have them flying again : )
46. Thich Nhat Hanh saying, “You HAVE all the conditions for happiness.”
47. That I KNOW he is right
48. The nice nice pharmacy lady to my mother
49. The nice nice doctor’s office to my mother
50. I saw my principal today. And that was great too.
51. And T, who also said I looked great (as did principal)
52. I was able to copy a few things there
53. And mail from there
54. I am having a good dinner
55. I went to health food store.
56. And got organic green beans fresh
57. And organc baby kale fresh – good for me AND is birdies’ favorite : )
58. And good whole grain bread
59. And organic fake meat
60. And great broccoli rabe with garlic
61. And organic tomato sauce Italian
62. And water
63. I shall stop giving the birdies tap water because I read to in a source I trust
64. *****That FEELING when I was driving away from school today, knowing I was DONE. Omg how I’ve missed that feeling!
65. T stopping at post office for me
66. My mother’s helpers
67. Meals on Wheels for her
68. My healthy skin
69. My strong feet
70. And hands
71. That I just played Chopin
72. And Mendelssohn
73. And Rachmaninov
74. And tomorrow I shall play Tchaikovsky
75. And Rachmaninov
76. And something else but I haven’t fully decided what yet
77. That I am 7 degrees of teacher separation from Beethoven himself!
78. My time with MA today
79. That my birdies love when I play piano
80. My eye drops
81. I have been loved by a number of men. I mean love. I’m not talking about sex, but love.
82. *****That I thanked God. So heartily. I mean really. When J first left, I used to lay prone on the floor and pray to God to help me so he would come back! Tonight – FIRST TIME EVER – I lay prone and said, God. I used to lay here and beg you for what I thought I needed. What I wanted. Now I lay here to say but one thing to you: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
83. That I was FORCED BY MY CIRCUMSTANCES to do the things that fucking scared me so! Because I will NEVER have to feel dependent IN THAT WAY again!
84. But that I am NOT adverse to taking HELP! Lol
85. That MA can AFFORD financially to do the things her health is leading her toward needing/ Phew on her behalf.
86. Birdsong, for which I was always grateful (outside) throughout my HOUSE now! What a thrill
87. Joy
88. My bamboo garden!
89. Shih tzus
90. The love I had for two
91. And the love I had FROM the two also
92. Smiles
93. Ability to enjoy anything I have the ability to enjoy
94. Inspirational people
95. “The only journey is the one within.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke_________
96. That I am free
97. That I can see
98. Poetry
99. Native poetry
100. Peace everywhere there is peace
101. Access to water
Sunday, July 21, 2013
100 Gratitudes Today
I am grateful:
1. _________
2. Life
3. Not suicidal
4. L
5. MA
6. ML
7. M
8. Thich Nhat Hanh
9. Summer
10. Jewel
11. EJ
12. JJ
13. Birdie
14. Kayleigh
15. My mother
16. Day off
17. Breathe
18. Lungs
19. Blood
20. Bones
21. Kidneys
22. Heart
23. Bain
24. Typing
25. Reading a book just a regular book (thanks to EJ)
26. Being so trustworthy. Never breaking a confidence ever.
27. Hot in Cleveland. Stupid little show. I like it
28. Big Bang Theory. Stupid little show. I like it
29. summer (the season – above was the bird: )
30. thoughtfulness
31. peace where there is peace
32. access to drinking water
33. and to organic vegetables
34. going out today
35. with MA
36. and ML
37. and will have broccoli
38. and then to bookstore. That vould be fun too
39. gift certificates
40. jewelry
41. my “new” Swarovski earrings
42. the bird store where I buy toys and stuff for the birdy boys
43. my feet
44. my legs
45. my hair
46. my eyes – eyesight
47. and that they are pretty
48. dragonflies
49. when I’m not itchy
50. my car
51. my little house all mine
52. flight cage for birdies
53. laughter
54. cheerful people
55. phones
56. electricity
57. a/c
58. heating
59. wood floors
60. job
61. job with time off!
62. Ezekial bread
63. Pomegranate juice – just now and then
64. Organic coconut milk yogurt
65. Vegan cheese. Now and then anyway
66. That when I go out I feel good
67. Driving
68. That I can, but also that I’ve been enjoying it so much
69. Buddhism
70. Mindfulness
71. Good books
72. Everything on this list makes me lucky
73. Presents
74. iPhone
75. lamps
76. yard
77. all the safety I’ve had in my life
78. no violence at all in my life at this time
79. I have been loved
80. Enjoyable movies
81. Comedians
82. Viers
83. Little patio
84. Stone
85. Brook over rocks at park nearby
86. Fresh white clean snow
87. The first time I had chocolate mousse. High school. With parents.
88. Because – French teacher had said “must” eat at French restaurant – my parents found this a little bit of a financial hardship, but did it! Because like “homework.”
89. I remember them telling me, “You should try the chocolate mousse. It is not moose. It is like pudding but whipped. You will like it.” Cute.
90. From Sparkle My Day fb page: “You used to KNOW you were One with the Universe… and you Owned your Sparkle. Children can see your Sparkle even if you can’t. It’s still there.”
91. This pic – I love it_________
92. The Five Mindfulness Trainings. http://www.plumvillage.org/mindfulness-trainings/3-the-five-mindfulness-trainings.html
93. My four retreats with Thich Nhat Hanh. 2005, 2007, 2009, 2012
94. My prescription for Paxil is ready.
95. I will pick it up.
96. I am tapering down
97. My eye drops prescription is ready
98. I will pick it up too
99. That I did my mother’s shopping
100. That she has all she needs
Lucky
1. _________
2. Life
3. Not suicidal
4. L
5. MA
6. ML
7. M
8. Thich Nhat Hanh
9. Summer
10. Jewel
11. EJ
12. JJ
13. Birdie
14. Kayleigh
15. My mother
16. Day off
17. Breathe
18. Lungs
19. Blood
20. Bones
21. Kidneys
22. Heart
23. Bain
24. Typing
25. Reading a book just a regular book (thanks to EJ)
26. Being so trustworthy. Never breaking a confidence ever.
27. Hot in Cleveland. Stupid little show. I like it
28. Big Bang Theory. Stupid little show. I like it
29. summer (the season – above was the bird: )
30. thoughtfulness
31. peace where there is peace
32. access to drinking water
33. and to organic vegetables
34. going out today
35. with MA
36. and ML
37. and will have broccoli
38. and then to bookstore. That vould be fun too
39. gift certificates
40. jewelry
41. my “new” Swarovski earrings
42. the bird store where I buy toys and stuff for the birdy boys
43. my feet
44. my legs
45. my hair
46. my eyes – eyesight
47. and that they are pretty
48. dragonflies
49. when I’m not itchy
50. my car
51. my little house all mine
52. flight cage for birdies
53. laughter
54. cheerful people
55. phones
56. electricity
57. a/c
58. heating
59. wood floors
60. job
61. job with time off!
62. Ezekial bread
63. Pomegranate juice – just now and then
64. Organic coconut milk yogurt
65. Vegan cheese. Now and then anyway
66. That when I go out I feel good
67. Driving
68. That I can, but also that I’ve been enjoying it so much
69. Buddhism
70. Mindfulness
71. Good books
72. Everything on this list makes me lucky
73. Presents
74. iPhone
75. lamps
76. yard
77. all the safety I’ve had in my life
78. no violence at all in my life at this time
79. I have been loved
80. Enjoyable movies
81. Comedians
82. Viers
83. Little patio
84. Stone
85. Brook over rocks at park nearby
86. Fresh white clean snow
87. The first time I had chocolate mousse. High school. With parents.
88. Because – French teacher had said “must” eat at French restaurant – my parents found this a little bit of a financial hardship, but did it! Because like “homework.”
89. I remember them telling me, “You should try the chocolate mousse. It is not moose. It is like pudding but whipped. You will like it.” Cute.
90. From Sparkle My Day fb page: “You used to KNOW you were One with the Universe… and you Owned your Sparkle. Children can see your Sparkle even if you can’t. It’s still there.”
91. This pic – I love it_________
92. The Five Mindfulness Trainings. http://www.plumvillage.org/mindfulness-trainings/3-the-five-mindfulness-trainings.html
93. My four retreats with Thich Nhat Hanh. 2005, 2007, 2009, 2012
94. My prescription for Paxil is ready.
95. I will pick it up.
96. I am tapering down
97. My eye drops prescription is ready
98. I will pick it up too
99. That I did my mother’s shopping
100. That she has all she needs
Lucky
Saturday, July 20, 2013
81/100 Grats so far today
I am grateful:
1. EJ’s advice to just BE not always WORK ON BEING. So grateful.
2. Kayleigh saying something similar too
3. This day off. To do whatever the fuck I want! : )
4. Fb cheerful posts and beautiful posts and funny posts.
5. I just saw one, dog playing in snow “…”Yippee I am so glad I am me… oh boy oh boy oh boy me is good.” Makes me smile! So good. So cute
6. Doing for my mother yesterday. Getting off my frightened naval-gazing butt (mixed metaphor omg) and just doing
7. Then taking both a bath AND a shower. Felt good.
8. Then going for pedicure.
9. And – insisting it was too hot in there. I was very polite. But we the customers were sweating! This is a luxury item… So owner was saying things like, “New air conditioner. It works. Maybe is too small. But it is on. It is fine. Maybe too much window…” I said, politely and pleasantly, but clearly, “Jennifer, it kind of doesn’t really matter if it’s new or old, big or small, on high or low. If we are sweating, something ISN’T working!” And they cooled the place off : ) I used to be a wimp and would have sweated and gone home and had to take another shower. Not now
10. Then I went on “blind date.” 2nd one ever.
11. Got there fine
12. “Insisted” on meeting INSIDE public place and with each other’s cell phone numbers
13. And googled him first too
14. And gave his infor to M
15. Looked pretty enough
16. Felt good enough
17. Had decent enough time.
18. Got home safely
19. Might not see him again – might – but had decent time out and he is safe and cute and smart and well-spoken (we just might not have much in common) and it was living – not sitting around navel-gazing yay
20. Helping my mother, which I do out of unselfish reasons, always winds up helping me.
21. Birdies are singing right now.
22. All the deer I have seen irl
23. And the zillion squirrels, of different colors – including white!
24. Good books
25. Humor
26. Jokes
27. Cats. I can’t have am allergic (plus now have birds). But I appreciate cats.
28. The health of my birdies
29. That they eat millet from my hand
30. That I have an activity center for them
31. That I have toys for them
32. Practicing the Presence through Mind and Meditation"Beginning today..
Declare out loud to the Universe
that you are willing to let go of struggle
and eager to learn through Joy."
~ Sarah Ban Breathnach ~ This_________
33. This_______
34. My car. I lo
ve my car. Bought it used (first time ever) so got more features for less money.
35. Shiny silver
36. Mazda 6. Love it. Love it love it love it.
37. Nice chat with MA today
38. I will go to lunch with her and ML tomorrow! Yay!
39. Nice chat and laughs with my mom today
40. Nice chat with A
41. And L.
42. Whose call woke me. I LOVE that.
43. Organic ugly tomatoes
44. My large amethyst ring
45. My parents buying it for me for my 8th grade “graduation”
46. Me picking it out and actually saying to them, “will I still be able to wear it when I’m old? Like 25”
47. And I love wearing it NOW still. And frequently get compliments!
48. That I still have that receipt! Omg
49. This
50. Water
51. Hope
52. My principal
53. And one before her
54. And one before – all but one, actually. Wow. Good
55. Sandwiches. Healthy hearty sandwiches
56. This. Oh my gosh. 1 minutes and 16 seconds. So good! http://www.myamazingearth.com/2013/07/duck-cries-for-help-cops-rescue-her-babies/
57. Rivers in the Ocean
I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.
~ Joanne Harris
58. I’m reading Defending Jacob by William Landay. Liking it!
Practicing the Presence through Mind and Meditation
"Remember that your perception of the world is a reflection of your state of consciousness. You are not separate from it, and there is no objective world out there. Every moment,
your consciousness creates the world that you inhabit."
~ Eckhart Tolle _________
59. Watched a little Roseanne and crocheted. Felt good
60. Played some Chopin. Loved it.
61. The birds love it too!
62. They bring me joy
63. And I, them
64. Friendships.
65. L
66. M
67. MA
68. ML
69. St
70. A
71. Mother
72. EJ
73. Birdie
74. JJ
75. Kayleigh
76. Ma
77. The love I found at OA meetings
78. And gave too
79. London! That amazing fabulous week!
80. My wood floors.
81. MINE.
1. EJ’s advice to just BE not always WORK ON BEING. So grateful.
2. Kayleigh saying something similar too
3. This day off. To do whatever the fuck I want! : )
4. Fb cheerful posts and beautiful posts and funny posts.
5. I just saw one, dog playing in snow “…”Yippee I am so glad I am me… oh boy oh boy oh boy me is good.” Makes me smile! So good. So cute
6. Doing for my mother yesterday. Getting off my frightened naval-gazing butt (mixed metaphor omg) and just doing
7. Then taking both a bath AND a shower. Felt good.
8. Then going for pedicure.
9. And – insisting it was too hot in there. I was very polite. But we the customers were sweating! This is a luxury item… So owner was saying things like, “New air conditioner. It works. Maybe is too small. But it is on. It is fine. Maybe too much window…” I said, politely and pleasantly, but clearly, “Jennifer, it kind of doesn’t really matter if it’s new or old, big or small, on high or low. If we are sweating, something ISN’T working!” And they cooled the place off : ) I used to be a wimp and would have sweated and gone home and had to take another shower. Not now
10. Then I went on “blind date.” 2nd one ever.
11. Got there fine
12. “Insisted” on meeting INSIDE public place and with each other’s cell phone numbers
13. And googled him first too
14. And gave his infor to M
15. Looked pretty enough
16. Felt good enough
17. Had decent enough time.
18. Got home safely
19. Might not see him again – might – but had decent time out and he is safe and cute and smart and well-spoken (we just might not have much in common) and it was living – not sitting around navel-gazing yay
20. Helping my mother, which I do out of unselfish reasons, always winds up helping me.
21. Birdies are singing right now.
22. All the deer I have seen irl
23. And the zillion squirrels, of different colors – including white!
24. Good books
25. Humor
26. Jokes
27. Cats. I can’t have am allergic (plus now have birds). But I appreciate cats.
28. The health of my birdies
29. That they eat millet from my hand
30. That I have an activity center for them
31. That I have toys for them
32. Practicing the Presence through Mind and Meditation"Beginning today..
Declare out loud to the Universe
that you are willing to let go of struggle
and eager to learn through Joy."
~ Sarah Ban Breathnach ~ This_________
33. This_______
34. My car. I lo
ve my car. Bought it used (first time ever) so got more features for less money.35. Shiny silver
36. Mazda 6. Love it. Love it love it love it.
37. Nice chat with MA today
38. I will go to lunch with her and ML tomorrow! Yay!
39. Nice chat and laughs with my mom today
40. Nice chat with A
41. And L.
42. Whose call woke me. I LOVE that.
43. Organic ugly tomatoes
44. My large amethyst ring
45. My parents buying it for me for my 8th grade “graduation”
46. Me picking it out and actually saying to them, “will I still be able to wear it when I’m old? Like 25”
47. And I love wearing it NOW still. And frequently get compliments!
48. That I still have that receipt! Omg
49. This
50. Water
51. Hope
52. My principal
53. And one before her
54. And one before – all but one, actually. Wow. Good
55. Sandwiches. Healthy hearty sandwiches
56. This. Oh my gosh. 1 minutes and 16 seconds. So good! http://www.myamazingearth.com/2013/07/duck-cries-for-help-cops-rescue-her-babies/
57. Rivers in the Ocean
I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.
~ Joanne Harris
58. I’m reading Defending Jacob by William Landay. Liking it!
Practicing the Presence through Mind and Meditation
"Remember that your perception of the world is a reflection of your state of consciousness. You are not separate from it, and there is no objective world out there. Every moment,
your consciousness creates the world that you inhabit."
~ Eckhart Tolle _________
59. Watched a little Roseanne and crocheted. Felt good
60. Played some Chopin. Loved it.
61. The birds love it too!
62. They bring me joy
63. And I, them
64. Friendships.
65. L
66. M
67. MA
68. ML
69. St
70. A
71. Mother
72. EJ
73. Birdie
74. JJ
75. Kayleigh
76. Ma
77. The love I found at OA meetings
78. And gave too
79. London! That amazing fabulous week!
80. My wood floors.
81. MINE.
Today
I shall be "lazy"
in a good way
piano
birds
books
maybe a movie or mall to walk a bit
grats at some point
EJ's advice, and Kayliegh's
sinking in
I will still try
but I will just "be"
not constantly self-improving
and analyzing
this will be growth
oops
lol
Yesterday
I
did for mother
took bath AND shower
got pedicure ahhhh
and went on a date
my second blind date ever
had nice time
Today is anniversary of my wedding to J
but I am HERE and fine and enjoying THIS day
It is not ABOUT him
ahhh
in a good way
piano
birds
books
maybe a movie or mall to walk a bit
grats at some point
EJ's advice, and Kayliegh's
sinking in
I will still try
but I will just "be"
not constantly self-improving
and analyzing
this will be growth
oops
lol
Yesterday
I
did for mother
took bath AND shower
got pedicure ahhhh
and went on a date
my second blind date ever
had nice time
Today is anniversary of my wedding to J
but I am HERE and fine and enjoying THIS day
It is not ABOUT him
ahhh
Friday, July 19, 2013
did what had to for the
day
mother stuff
2 laundry
eat well
now will go out tonight for a little light fun
mother stuff
2 laundry
eat well
now will go out tonight for a little light fun
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