Journal Sun. Evening

Maybe because of inspirational words from friends,
maybe because of kick in the pants from friends,
maybe because of OA and CoDA today,
maybe because of sharing - getting it out,
maybe it's because of trying so hard today,
maybe it's a gift from God,
probably because of seeing my mother in such worse shape today,

at least I can say I do want to die.

And that's something.

And I'm ready to work my spirituality and programs better again.