My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful: 1. I am grateful that I heard from my mother’s aide M a few times yesterday. We love her. 2. And we can’t stand the other one. And M may be able to do more days instead of the icky one! I’ll hear tonight. 3. I’m glad I went out twice yesterday on my day off. I WANTED to stay in and in jammies all day. But as always, it was better for me to get out! 4. I’m still grateful for that hour and a half walk L and I took Sunday morning 5. I’m grateful that I’m DOING gratitudes this morning! It’s starting to change my mood a little already! 6. I am so grateful that S called me last night! I’d asked in an email, a question about L. He has always encouraged me to do this. And he didn’t answer. And I KNEW he’d checked email because he’d been emailing L. So I figured I was a pain in the butt and he wasn’t going to answer this. But he called. And I felt SO MUCH BETTER after talking with him! 7. And of course he put Jo on. And I liked talking to her too. Good. 8. And M called me last night. I’m sorry she was in a bad place, but glad she could call, and be herself with me. 9. That I knitted some yesterday. Maybe 4 – 5 inches of the sweater. 10. And that it looks nice. 11. “to realize that no other contribution will be just like our contribution. ”From today’s Each Day a New Beginning – nice. 12. May I be aware of my gifts and offer them and receive them thankfully. I really like that thought too. 13. “By Your light, may we see our irrational anxiety for what it is.” From today’s Food for Thought 14. Today’s Language of Letting Go: “We do not have to wait for others to come to our aid. We are not victims. We are not helpless.” 15. Having nice talk with L on the phone right now. 16. “Today, I will let go of the fears and self doubt that block me from taking assertive action in my best interest. I can take care of myself and let others do the same for themselves.” May I! From today’s Lang. of Letting Go 17. “What secret gift of kindness can I give today?” From Today’s Gift – I want to do this today. 18. And now it’s after school and I’m so grateful that I’m committed to finishing these! 19. I’m grateful for that class. It is THE nicest class I’ve EVER taught 20. And that I waited on sending the note to L. 21. And that I think I’ve revamped it enough and am ready to now, meaning tonight. 22. That I went to get my hair cut just now after school today. 23. That I am – we are all – so GRACIOUS about the extra temporary recess duty due to the after-effects of the storm 24. That I have heat in my house 25. The coziness of my house tonight. 26. That I have a fireplace 27. And I’m grateful for my toaster oven 28. And this jammy little glass of wine 29. And so grateful that I CAN enjoy a little wine. That I do not have an alcohol problem (as I have a food problem). 30. That I don’t even care to have it every day. 31. That I feel sort of ok about myself. Despite everything. 32. I am so grateful to and for God. 33. Grateful that I’m vegan 34. And for vegan cookbooks 35. And my new Vita-Mix 36. And my mother 37. And J helping her and me, still 38. And L. MAYBE we can work this out? 39. That my mother sounds great today 40. And the good aide may be able to do more time and we can get rid of the one we don’t like! (She’s not like abusive – I would never accept anything bit – she’s bossy and we find her unpalatable). 41. People who are honest with me. 42. That I see my mother more now 43. That prayers ARE answered, in some way. 44. Doggies 45. “Our” little precious doggie. 46. That maybe I’ll see her next weekend. Or Thanksgiving weekend. Because time does fly. 47. My hair is now color-freshened up 48. The friendly shampoo woman. 49. That I slept last night 50. My mattress pad (heated) 51. This laptop 52. My cozy den. The ceiling light went out and the floor lamp fell and died, so I moved in a little tabletop lamp. But it is nice! So cozy! 53. And maybe that’s more of that big lesson, in a little example, that sometimes something SEEMS bad but IS good or works out well at least! 54. I WILL have love in my life. I mean I DO – friends and mother. But I WILL have male partner love in my life. I believe that in this moment. 55. My breasts. They look good and they feel good. Like a feminine awareness of them, inside. Nice. 56. My feet 57. My eyes 58. My ears 59. My voice 60. My lungs and breathing 61. My hands 62. My kidneys 63. My liver 64. My heart 65. My tv 66. My winter hat 67. My earmuffs, that L. gave me. I NEED earmuffs! 68. Nice parents! (Of my students). 69. The amazing, loving, wonderful father I had: ) 70. Every boyfriend or husband kiss I’ve ever enjoyed. 71. That my house is still standing after the storm 72. And no one HERE was hurt. 73. My car 74. Gas in my car! 75. Electricity! 76. This blog 77. EVERYONE who reads it! 78. Other blogs I see 79. OA and other programs 80. Ph 81. Mo 82. Sh 83. That doggie is a Canine Good Citizen 84. That J did that for me. 85. He DID love me. He MUST have. 86. All the care I’ve given anyone. 87. All the care anyone has given me. 88. My glorious oak tree. 89. Poetry. 90. NYC great museums 91. The French language. I just find it so beautiful. 92. That I went to England! 93. Alone! 94. And loved it! 95. And am planning to go to Russia next summer! 96. With O! 97. MA 98. St. 99. And that St and I will probably be getting together soon. 100. Some movies that look good to me are coming out soon: Lincoln, Anna Karenina, and Les Mis