I am NOT incapable of affecting my environment. Just because I'm the child of a schizophrenic mother, I have grown up BELIEVING I am. But I am NOT!
Some proofs.
If my actions were incapable of affecting my environment, I couldn't have:
-gotten 3 degrees
-gotten a job, a second job, and a better first job, during the most difficult time of my life up until that date
-gotten a 4.0 in my Masters degree
-gotten tenure in one of the best districts in the world
-gotten so many glowing reviews
-forged and nurtured and kept so many wonderful relationships, ex. M, Mar, MA, ML, S, St, O, L, K, Jo, J, N, and so many others.
-supported myself for decades!
-bought a house by myself!
-supported someone else as well all these years!
-made loving relationships with non-human animals
-been called a bright light by so many people
-lost weight
-exercised
-done so much for my mother
-learned Reiki to Level 2
-taught meditation
-learned to play piano
-cleaned up the house
-closed down and reopened my own classroom last June and September without help
-found OA and CoDA, which help me
-stuck with my morning work
-made improvements in myself
-made so many others laugh
and there must be more!
You are a stranger on the internet who has made a difference in my world. I cherish your readings and the sharing of your life. It makes me think of my own and how best to handle the challenges in my life.
ReplyDeleteI cheer for you daily and am so inspired by watching you succeed. You provide hope. I can't remember when I first stumbled on to your blog, but you immediately drew me in with your honesty, humor and faith. I learn from you and you have made me a better person.
And that's just from being a stranger on the internet. Imagine how powerful you are in real life! You are an amazing person dear Lynn.
(sorry to ramble, I'm feeling a bit emotional tonight.)
Oh My Lord, thank you for JJ sharing this.
ReplyDeleteJJ, I actually love you.
And these words - these words have given me the courage I need to get through the day. I really felt I didn't have it and might even have to stay home!
But you have shored me up.
So much love to you, Dear Dear JJ.