Today's Readings - Voices of Recovery

"The problem is with the control of food. Is one preoccupied with controlling food intake to the point that it's interfering with one's life? Just as being an alcoholic is not related to the amount one drinks, being a compulsive overeater is not related to the amount one weights." OA p. 230 The disease makes me preoccupied with food, body image, weight, and control issues. I spent years thinking that if I just looked a certain way, ate certain things, avoided eating certain things, I could be happy despite any problems life threw my way. I thought the reason I didn't have a life was because I was fat. Obsessing about these things however, kept me from having a life. The fat was only the physical manifestation of the cocoon I had built to isolate myself from the pain of living. What I really needed was a Higher Power to control my life and help me deal with my feelings, fears, and insecurities. It wasn't until I gave up trying to control what i ate that I noticed that I have a life to live, and it is a good one. Today I give my life to God, trusting Him to lead me toward what He wants me to do, be, and experience. I thank God for loving me and pray that He will help me love myself.