I want to be more POSITIVE in
all my grats. Really focusing on how fortunate I truly am.
I am grateful:
1.
Sleeping at M’s
Friday night
2.
Waking up and
seeing all that color
3.
It is a whole 6
days later. But I am so grateful for feeling “in the moment” more. “In the
moment” I am always safe. I have been *aware * of feeling “in the moment” more!
Could it be those couple of minutes a day of meditation with the kids?
4.
Grateful that I
give that to *them. *
5.
That morning last
Sat with M. Together at her table, also sometimes doing our own thing.
6.
The huge lesson I
learned. When she left, and I had all the time I wanted to come and go as I
please, in her pretty house, from like 9:30 to 5. I like her house very much
and have felt I’d much rather live there than here. But – I realized – on way
out early to get hair cut – that HAD I stayed all day, I would have done ---
THE
SAME THING I’D HAVE DONE HERE! Sat on couch with computer on my lap! I would
NOT have been up and about with people in and out – standing, moving, kitchen,
d.r. in and out etc. as she, who lives near parents of her kids’ friends and is
an extrovcert and not a depressive does. I KNOW intellectually there is no such
thing as a “geographical cure!” But I FELT it. It helped me A LOT.
7.
I came home and
felt better about my home again and that *I * have to change. (GENTLY. Not
angrily at myself.)
8.
Then got hair cut
and colored
9.
And went for
pedi. Yay.
10.
I look nice every
day now. Showered, a bit of makeup, nice clothes. Not dowdy.
11.
Am there for my
mother. Love her.
12.
And she says to
me, “I love you so much.”
13.
Here aides. They
are so good. I’m so glad we have them.
14.
Her for saving
all those years, so she can afford this (for now… fingers crossed)
15.
That I have a
job.
16.
With health
insurance. Pay up front and HIGH co-pays but I HAVE it and am truly grateful
for it.
17.
Books
18.
The one I’m
reading now, for the book course. It’s called The Light between Oceans
19.
My very
professional and friendly working relationship with the parents
20.
Today will be
“Fun Friday.” We will do a little walking meditation (2 minutes)
21.
They will get
double stickers
22.
They will have a
little SORT OF free choice period (but I’ll make sure it is worthwhile)
23.
They will play
some educational math games
24.
We will go to the
library too.
25.
My principal
26.
The assembly yesterday.
Some teachers including me, on stage… Fun. Infectious energy in the room… The
best of its kind I’ve seen!
27.
My remembering –
that as “shy” as I’ve ALWAYS been – really – there are times I can’t even
speak(!) – that I have always been comfortable on stage omg! : )
28.
My legs that walk
29.
My arms that do
so much. Two arms. We take for granted but it is a real miracle.
30.
Awareness of the
miracles in and around me.
31.
A being a friend
and not pushing the other stuff
32.
Coffee in the
morning. Helps my mood to go up: )
33.
I put cinnamon in
it this morning. And intend to continue
34.
That I can read
35.
That I can help
others to too!
36.
J. might come for
dinner Sunday. Gulp. *Please no one comment negatively. Please. Thank you!
37.
My hands
38.
That I can type
39.
Tv. Yes.
40.
The Big Bang
Theory. Which cheers me up a bit.
41.
Dreams. I think I
have the most interesting dreams when I’m asleep, of anyone in the world! Lol
42.
Fb. I do NOT
prefer it to human companionship! But at 4:45 am, there isn’t any human
companionship around for me, and it helps me to not be lonely.
43.
Prayer
44.
When I pray for
others.
45.
That I am alive.
46.
That I AM
grateful to be alive!
47.
A stove.
48.
In this lovely
fall weather, the desire to use it lol
49.
And the slow
cooker too
50.
Lentil soup
51.
Vegetables
52.
Broccoli
yesterday at lunch
53.
And today too
54.
Friends. Oh,
thank God for friends.
55.
YOU!
56.
My dear birdies,
Summer and Jewel
57.
This weather
58.
My conversations
with L
59.
He is dating
someone. I am sorry to say I don’t have total faith in the long-term for them,
but I will try to not to put that energy out there. I am glad he is happy now.
60.
Maybe can go to
MA’s and read today after school
61.
Or come home and
sleep. Yes. Probably should not go there as her health is fragile
62.
My book group
63.
The anti-bullying
expert who is working with us this year
64.
It has already
helped the way I talk to the class
65.
And I think it
has helped the adults get along better
too. (Sad that needed, but is)
66.
Doing some
theater with my class!
67.
And music soon.
Singing.
68.
Played Chopin for
them. They loved it.
69.
M
70.
MA
71.
St
72.
My piano
73.
Affirmations
74.
Very positive fb
sites. Inspirational.
75.
That I smile more
now
76.
Maybe dating
soon. Some prospects.
77.
My earrings. That
is a luxury. I like my earrings.
78.
And my other
jewelry too.
79.
My jewelry
armoire.
80.
My pretty
freshly-painted bedroom.
81.
I think I will
sleep in it later today.
82.
The handyman I
think I can get to come here and do a few things. Trustworthy (M’s) and supposedly
a good price. Although her ideas of money and mine differ lol
83.
Laughter
84.
Word games
85.
My iPad
86.
My Nook
87.
My iPhone 4. Is
just fine for me!
88.
Computer teacher
helping me make a nice online newsletter
89.
This ______
90.
Buddhism
91.
Thich Nhat Hanh
92.
Weather reporter’s
light-hearted way in the morning
93.
My ears and
hearing
94.
Music
95.
Apples – organic –
honeycrisp, fuji, pink lady, …
96.
Banana apples!
Omg! Have only had like two in my life. They are amazing!
97.
Trees
98.
God
99.
Grass
100.
Sky
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