Hmmmmm

So after our talk last night, I felt so much better about us. Then tonight, it dawned on me: He's probably not going to the play alone! He's probably going with the female former colleague! I say this because: He didn't tell me her name, or that it was a female, and it was an obvious omission. So I asked, "Who?" He repeated, "A former colleague. Who's only in touch with me very rarely." That's when I knew it was a female. So I said, "What's their name?" And he told me, and it was a female name, of course. I said nothing about it. Figured it doesn't matter...He has 14 million female friends... Then, today, he texted me at like 4pm, "on way into town." Town? Broadway in Manhattan is into town? Anyway, I texted back. Then realized we're both on phones so might as well call him. Did. Wished him a great time... Something didn't seem quite right. I asked where he'd be eating; he said absolutely no idea. . . . Just seemed - evasive. Finally, I asked, where is the theater? He said, "In the Broadway area." I said, I know - I mean which one? He said, "I don't know." I said, "Well doesn't it say on the ticket?" He said, "I don't have the ticket - it's at the box office." I said Oh. A little while later I realized - how would you know which box office if you don't know what theater? So I asked that (text). He wrote back knows it's on one of two streets and the name of the show. Okay. But - I have a feeling he's eating and going to the show with this friend. And if so, I'm REALLY bothered. Because: 1. He had a chance to be with me, at any show of his choice tonight and said no because nothing he wanted to see. Then SUPPOSEDLY, although I don't know quite WHAT to believe anymore, this "former colleague" (one of his million former quasi-lovers perhaps?) called with this ONE ticket. 2. He said over and over that she only had the one ticket. 3. He also said that the reason he hadn't told me, and had lied to me TWICE - once about having "absolutely nothing to do," and the other about "possibly going out with E" that male friend of his - and he has since admitted both lies - was because he "thought I'd get mad that he was going without me." And that certainly implied also that he was going alone. Hmmmmm. Maybe he "thought I'd get mad because he was not only going without me, but with someone else. The thing is, I don't think for one minute that he's like, dating this woman! BUT: 1. He should NOT have lied to me! And again no less! and 2. If this is the case, then he DID indeed CHOOSE to be with someone else at the exact venue where he could have been with me, on his birthday. And although I've spent hundreds of dollars on his gifts which are sitting on my l.r. table right now, I think that if that is the case I will NOT see him tomorrow. I may even just say, "You CHOSE to be out with another woman instead of me, on your birthday. At the EXACT place you could have been with me. And you CHOSE to not tell me that. And even after I was CLEAR that we were in the NO BULLSHIT zone now! Call HER. Spend the day/ weekend with HER. I'm done. I don't get avoided. And I don't get lied to. There is another person or there are other people you'd rather be with than me; well every other man is one I'd rather be with than you right now, so I shall do the same. Goodbye, L." And IF that is the case, I am not happy about what he's done, or the reaction I describe above, of mine. But I don't know what else to do. And I' I'll be okay with it. Either I'll never see him again, or he'll learn better how to treat me. And if that is NOT the case, I have a lot of work to do with my therapist. The end