My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful:

1. That after suffering so much yesterday through and especially after the financial meeting with my person, and going to lie down at like 5:30 or something, I had a few minutes of relief in the night.
2. And interesting dream. That I would NOT call nightmares. Just interesting.
3. Although I have a feeling I’m going to lose his friendship soon, because I will NOT have sex with him, I’m grateful for A’s kind words yesterday.
4. Ok. Now. Time for something WITHOUT an “although.” That my piano practice has been going well.
5. That I SHOULD be at least OKAY financially.
6. That maybe J. will NOT try to screw m.
7. That I am alive.
8. And able.
9. And have a working brain.
10. And 2 sweet birds
11. Who are chatting rig now
12. One is on the swing and one on the perch right next to him.
13. I am sitting here with all my limbs
14. In temperature comfortable home
15. With tv on
16. And a light on
17. And windows
18. And doors
19. A roof
20. Shelter
21. Wood floors
22. Coffee next to me
23. A working bathroom
24. And kitchen
25. My mother is alive
26. And doing well for the day
27. And I am taking her out to dinner after work
28. I have never been in a tornade
29. Or hurt in an earthquake (my house was, but just a little)
30. Or a fire
31. Or hurt in a flood
32. Or hit by lightning
33. I’m starting to lose weight again
34. Two people have said I’m getting better. EJ and A.
35. Oh. Plus my dr.
36. And MA
37. I have good hair
38. I have pillows
39. I sleep at night
40. I have chairs
41. Washing macine
42. Driyer
43. Stove
44. Oven
45. Fridge
46. That I am not one of the people who care about the mansions etc. of the few others. I just don’t care. Happy for them. Don’t envy it. Don’t need it. Don’t care
47. Weekend coming.
48. Can get some things in order
49. Make some difficult phone calls
50. Pay some difficult bills
51. But then it will be done
52. McKnight. I like his paintings.
53. And I have one (a print)
54. Koko the gorilla.
55. And the eyes and hearts she has opened
56. Hope
57. Water
58. I am employed
59. I can see
60. And hear
61. And move
62. And speak
63. I have trees outside my window(s)
64. I noticed some good things throughout the day yesterday. Would have started another gratitudes list but didn’t have my computer, or the legitimate time to do so. Glad and grateful that I noticed
65. I am not homeless
66. I have shoes
67. And sweaters
68. I did not have a coat this winter, but I will next year!
69. I am good for the children, overall, I think
70. Certainly not bad for them… I expect.
71. I am grateful that I know myself. I am self-aware and fearlessly honest with/about myself
72. That I have good friends.
73. Especially M
74. And MA
75. And O
76. And St
77. My dr. cares about me
78. I have the eye drops I need
79. I have always had whatever medicines I’ve needed
80. I know how to speak and write correctly (when I nedd to lol)
81. I felt like I felt God’s presence again last night.
82. I am grateful that I am not a violent person or a person with violent urges
83. I believe I shall have another nic relationship for a time one day
84. Maybe even pretty soon
85. Ji’s help all those years ago, with how desperately shy I was
86. Jung
87. Myers-Briggs
88. M’s divorce is finalized. This is good for her.
89. And she knows it. She initiated it. She is very happy about it.
90. Fresh whole foods.
91. That I am determined to eat more of them
92. Water. Access to plenty of water. This is so lucky
93. My mother’s love.
94. I will get through all the things I have to do today. I will.
95. That the birds came over 2 or 3 times yesterday, to their activity center.
96. I will change their toys this weekend! Brand new ones they’ve never seen. They’ll like that!
97. I will buy greens – for them and me(!) today
98. The responsibility I have for them.
99. Their blessed help with that. Thank God for “my” swet birds
100. That they have each other.