1.
Met with financial
person again yesterday
2.
It went well.
3.
A. helped me with
yet another idea, too.
4.
I will do it
today.
5.
My new routine is
get up, start the coffee brewing, change the birds’ greens, fill the
humidifier, drink coffee. Good 1st thing am routine.
6.
Sleep last night
and such interesting dreams!
7.
Have been ok for
over a week. Wow.
8.
Friday (tired lol)
9.
3 day weekend.
I’ll have one day with my mother and the other two to do stuff around here
10.
My class
11.
Teaching math
12.
That I can walk. I
know two people who basically can’t. I am very lucky that I can.
13.
This. One of only
2 passages of Shakespeare’s that I’ve ever memorized:
(from
the Merchant of Venice – part of Portia’s speech)
The quality of mercy is not strained;
It droppeth as the gentle rain from
heaven
Upon the place beneath.
It is twice blest; It blesseth him that
gives and him that takes:
'T is mightiest in the mightiest;
it becomes The throned monarch better
than his crown:
His sceptre shows the force of temporal
power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of
kings;
But mercy is above this sceptred sway;
It is enthronèd in the hearts of kings,
It is an attribute to God himself;
And earthly power doth then show likest
God's
When mercy seasons justice.
14.
That I shared it with
my principal today
15.
And that she
appreciated getting it
16.
That I really DID
start fresh Tuesday morning after our big meeting Monday afternoon.
17.
And every morning
now, really.
18.
The EPIPHANY last
Tues. at lunch! Like a actor who is “an overnight success,” it didn’t’ all
HAPPEN that day. But it all CLICKED that day. I became allowed (when
honestly, became AWARE that I’m allowed) to take the reigns over my own life!!
19.
And now it is
Saturdayl Huge. Huge huge huge hugge huge. So glad I saw this today! Living
the Law of Attraction / The Secret
What is it you really want? What is the
outcome you want? Your job is to hold to the outcome of what you want, and to
feel the outcome of what you want, and to feel the outcome as though it is here
now. That is your job. The HOW it will come about is the Universe’s work. So
many people trip up on this and try and work out the how. (The Secret Daily
Teachings)
20.
Plenty of sleep
Thursday night
21.
And last night
22.
Amazing dreams last
night
23.
Am awake this
morning.
24.
Was *super-teacher *
yesterday!
25.
With no aide no less!
26.
I can be anybody I
want (so can you). I can be the strongest person you’ve ever known.
27.
Fractals
28.
Art
29.
Digital art
30.
Online jigsaw
puzzles, especially on those 3 things, and on objects and close-ups and houses
too
31.
I am finding that I’m
taking weekends OFF. Doing stuff for ME. Like cleaning, laundry… AND –
RELAXING. Good!
32.
I. Start. French.
Lesson. This. Coming. Wednesday!
33.
My new budget. Yes I
love it. I can follow it. I can control
myself. I can eliminate worry this way too!
34.
I. Am. On. Day.
TWELVE. Of. Being. Okay. !!!!!!!!!
35.
I’m great. My whole
life has changed. Because my whole outlook has changed. I am not saying I won’t
feel sad or or or or – grief, fear, etc. I am saying they won’t DESTROY me.
36.
I’m not even obsessed
about my house anymore. It’s getting done. Should be nice by summer.
37.
And then – and then
- maybe I’ll only stay 3 years or so.
38.
Because - because – I CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!
39.
I can move to
Florida.
40.
Or Hawaii.
41.
Or 2 towns away from
where I am
42.
Or stay
43.
Move to a small
townhouse or apartment or coop…
44.
Substitute teach.
45.
Or not.
46.
Do Reiki
47.
Or on non-human
animals.
48.
Move to freakin
France if I want!
49.
Sunday. I am grateful
for this morning. And freedom this very morning
50.
Fresh brewed coffee!
Yay.
51.
My time with A
yesterday
52.
The laws of
attraction. Well, I elieve it was always
in fact. What I’m grateful for is actually knowing about it!
53.
Fresh vegetables.
54.
Frozen vegetables
55.
Canned organic green
beans which save me sometimes.
56.
For the FIRST TIME in
my life – I do not have extra, ridiculous, overage, reserve, portions of food!
I have a normal, human amount in my fridge and freezer and cabitnet (I don’t
have a pantry)
57.
And – I. FEEL. GOOD.
ABOUT HAVING THAT AMOUNT. This is truly
a first.
58.
Also, spent less on
food this week. And will continue to.
59.
And – having
“control” over my budget is helping me keep things in reign AND have hope.
60.
IMIng with dear L
right now. I’m glad we are friends (and glad we are nothing more!)
61.
Friends.
62.
That I have grown to
not so much expect them to be perfect or perfectly THER for me.
63.
Seeing Saving Mr. Banks
with my mother and her aide.
64.
Indian food together
too.
65.
I have looked online
to help mother’s aide with her loss of pet grief, as per her request. I hope my
info helps her.
66.
Books
67.
Libraries
68.
Wednesday is French!
69.
Posted pics of my
beloved boys today! (birds)
70.
That I TOOK this very
life-affirming step of taking them into my life.
71.
That I am so good to
THEM
72.
AND – kept them
together! They were so close! They very
likely would have been separated otherwise!
73.
Movies
74.
Indian food
75.
Water
76.
My homemade healthy
vegetable bean soup.
77.
That is is delicious
and comforting too.
78.
That I have a job
79.
Helping children
80.
Soon will get piano
tuned
81.
That I have earrings
82.
Especially my newest
(year?) pair, which I wear almost daily I love them so much.
83.
And that I don’t
VALUE this CRAP as measure of self-worth, as I used to!
84.
That Indian restaurants always have vegetarian
and vegan choices. Well almost always vegan. And if not, they have always
thrown something together for meJ
85.
The years I used to
walk on the Rockefeller estate. Before it was open to the public. Happy
Rockefeller lived there, and allowed this group of joggers to use her property,
not near the house, and it had 50 miles of trail! I would break off from the
group to walk. It was great! Then we would meet up.
86.
The time I got lost there!
But didn’t panic!
87.
And as I realized
hours were going by, and it could get dark – that I didn’t want – I got nervous
but not panicked. Just kept walking figuring eventually I will reach a road at
worst.
88.
And I did!
89.
And there was one
house
90.
And I rang bell and
they weren’t serial killers and I used their phone. Phew.
91.
How I used to listen
for the sound of the cows to guide my way! : ) (Except this time when I did
that, they were a different group of cows! That’s how I managed to get lost
lol)
92.
Humor
93.
That I can drive
94.
That my car works
95.
That I put gas in it
96.
My happy birdy boys
walking and flying and chatting and singing virtually all day yesterday and
already for hours this morning!
97.
MA. I may see her
tomorrow
98.
That I don’t take
being treated like shit anymore
99.
Chopin.
100. My singing with kids and piano yesterday, based on book SHE
had shared, and principal came in during : )
101. My piano
102. My tv
103. My laptop
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