I AM free.
I FEEL free.
While I do WISH I could be with J, it is ONLY if he loved me AND felt better about himself.
And because that is unlikely,
I am ok to go ahead with the divorce.
It is whatever it is and will be whatever it will be.
Since last Tuesday, at lunchtime,
I. Am. Fine.
I have had moments... we all do - this is life. But I don't know if I can fall back into dependent depression ever again!
I think that some of it - a lot of it even - was that I was giving credit to J for MY life, MY abilities, MY accomplishments. I AM ok alone!
And grief takes a certain amount of time; "they" say 3 - 4 years for most people. So I am even on target. Phew.
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