and the quick story for after the other entry

a million years ago, 1st husband and i had a boat. 26 feet with cabin sleeps 4 indoor outdoor motor. wood.
one summer WE sanded and painted it ourselves!
he and i and one friend (male)

it was sweaty hot hot hot like over 100 degrees
blacktop at boat yard
hose off!
NO water source!
gas stations closed on sundays at that time!
we were dying!
got SO bad even threw SLUDGY river water (oily slick back at time) over selves because desperate! and rationed drinking water...

it was hard
gritty
sandy
gross
hot
physical labor
hours and hours and hours
by hand
not even a little sanding machine

i had never cared for the boat so much -
liked some things about having it -
didn't care much one way or other - was his thing

but
after that i loved that boat so much
for all the rest of the time!
i knew every inch of it and
had worked so hard on it!
loved it ever after

maybe that will happen with house.
and even with self.


the end