Saturday, December 8, 2012

Hurting. Even Typing Slowly.

He says he loves me. I've been trying to think, and even spoke to shrink about it: should we try for a little while - should we date lightly - should we be friends. I have posed this to him. He said he was very interested in my idea. Still hasn't gotten back to me on any of it. Is working on work stuff that is due MONDAY, last night and today, while I am in pain and he supposedly loves and wants me but is doing nothing about it. Am I beating on a stone over and over screaming, "Give me blood! Give me blood!"? I hurt SO MUCH. Will try to do the fucking daily spiritual work and the terrifying banking crap and bill paying shit and take my mother to the store... Miserable!
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  1. JJDecember 8, 2012 at 9:59 AM

    If he were sincere in trying to win you back he would make more of an effort.

    He hurt you. I would expect him to work harder to make it up to you. This should be the time he's on his best behavior and he is not.

    Please be strong. Call someone (us) if you want/need to talk.

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