My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful: 1. That I am not yesterday’s woman! (like beginning of today’s Each Day a New Beginning) 2. This, from same place: “I am becoming. And with the becoming, comes peace. I can sense it today. I know where I was yesterday.” 3. From today’s Language of Letting Go: “we must go on with our own life in the interim.” 4. And this: “That can be hard. It can feel natural to put our life on hold. That is when we get caught up in the codependent beliefs: That person can make me happy . . . I need that particular person to do a particular thing in order to be happy . . .” 5. And this: “What is something I could be doing now to take care of myself, make myself feel better, get my needs met in an appropriate, healthy way?” 6. And “How can I own my power to take care of myself, despite what the other person is or isn't doing?” 7. And “What will happen if I break the system and begin taking care of myself?” 8. And “Sometimes, things don't work out exactly the way we hoped. But they always work out for good, and often better than we expected.” 9. And this: “Today, I will force myself, if necessary, to live my own life. I will act in my own best interest, in a way that reflects self-love. If I have given power or control of my life to someone other than myself, and someone besides a Power greater than myself, I will take it back. I will begin acting in my own best interests, even if it feels awkward to do that.” 10. And I DID start doing that! Yesterday!! Last night. 11. And this, from Today’s Gift: “"When one is a stranger to oneself, then one is estranged from others, too." Anne Morrow Lindberg” 12. And “There's a person inside each of us just itching to be known and loved. But if we don't get to know and love that person, how can we expect anyone else to know us?” 13. Oh my goodness – and this! “That's why it's so important to spend time alone getting acquainted with ourselves. 14. “And how do we do that? 15. “We can sit quietly with ourselves, thinking and listening. 16. “Then we can write our thoughts in a journal, 17. “or we can draw 18. “or paint them. I 19. “f we play a musical instrument, we can put our thoughts and feelings into music. 20. And this: “When we make the time and effort to know ourselves, it encourages others to want to know us, too. 21. And “Since everything we do and feel begins inside us, we must feel good about ourselves in order to feel good about anything else. 22. Oh! And this! “What wonders we are, that we have all the power we need to make our world a happy one!” 23. So “How do I feel about myself today?” Cleaner. Better. 24. This, from today’s Touchstones: When we accept the difficult message that our feelings are ours to deal with and no one else's, self-improvement begins.” Yes. 25. “We begin to walk the difficult but self respecting path of spiritual awakening.” 26. And this: “We can do something about whatever hurts.” 27. This, from today’s Twenty Four Hours a Day: “I pray that I may strive to be the kind of a person that God would have me be. I pray that I may try to fulfill God's vision of what I could be.” 28. That I answered Jo’s email this morning 29. Nicely 30. And forwarded her a funny video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kO8x8eoU3L4 31. And 100 Jo gratitudes. (Which actually turned out to be more.) Because she was writing about her need for gratitudes. 32. And that I did see L. yesterday. 33. And felt good. Well, better. 34. But not like the spring. I’m not glad I couldn’t/can’t feel that anymore. But I’m grateful that I’m facing it. No choice for it not to be. Only choice to face it or not face it. And denial scares me! 35. Grateful for the Roseanne show reruns this morning. 36. And that I can type. 37. I do NOT want to go to M’s honor thing. But I am grateful that I am doing it, out of love for her. 38. And very very grateful that I’m looking forward to reading in bed later tonight!!!!! Other times of relationship loss, I could not read! Maybe this is good growth! 39. And that I dreamt about doggie last night. Like ME stuff! Without and separate from a guy. 40. And that maybe, probably even (?) someday I will be in a relationship again. 41. MAYBE even a good one. 42. And that I was kind to L. when breaking up with him. 43. And good to MA this morning. There for her. 44. And that I DID come home to my own house last night. 45. And that I wanted to! 46. Grateful that he heard me 47. And that I do believe he’ll be all right. 48. And that I’m getting through this weekend. 49. And that MA says she wants to help and have other friends help me with the TIME, time which was for over 9 months spent with L. All weekend every weekend. 50. Maybe, although I HATE that I have to go to M’s thing today, and then to take my mother shopping, maybe they’re the best things for me! Because I might have sunk if had nothing at all today but sit her in my jammies… 51. Doing the next right thing. 52. Spinach 53. Water 54. YOU! 55. That I drove to Manhattan yesterday. 56. And got there safely. 57. And made my way home too. 58. With a little directional advice from L. 59. And got here safely. 60. And did NOT go to sleep at his house last night, although I was ready to (bag in car and had been invited). 61. That for ONCE, I actually WANTED to be in my own little home. With myself. 62. That my piano practice is going so much better lately. 63. That M. came to my concert in July. 64. I’m grateful that I can see. 65. And walk 66. And talk. 67. And breathe on my own!!!! 68. And am not in a war 69. Or a concentration camp. 70. Or any kind of a prison. 71. That I am not, and have never been, a slave. I’m so fortunate. 72. Water. Access to plenty of fresh, clean water to drink. 73. From my faucets. 74. And bottled water. 75. And pools 76. And the ocean 77. And sound 78. And bay 79. And even lakes. 80. And even river. All for swimming. So many people without water. How lucky am I. 81. I ate a banana yesterday. Very lucky 82. Organic peanut butter. Lucky. 83. Broccoli. Lucky 84. Books 85. My Nook 86. That I can read. 87. And write. Am literate. 88. That I have the sense of taste 89. And smell 90. And touch 91. And hearing 92. That I have a job 93. And can do it 94. And enough energy to live my life and get through the day 95. That I have a tv 96. And electricity 97. And a microwave 98. And heat! 99. And “my” oak tree. 100. And salads.