My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful:

1. I am grateful that I don’t have ms
2. And that the birds have forgiven me for when I tried to get the in the box for wings clipped
3. That I can still try to do it without
4. That they are fine. Safe. Healthy
5. That they have each other
6. That I love them
7. That I do their food and water first thing every morning
8. All the material things I have. Including that water stirrer.
9. That A has been honest with me. If he had lied and tricked me, I’d be really fucked.
10. That it is not as bad as it could be. None of it is.
11. That I have paid sick day when need
12. That the birds are singing
13. That M is helping me today
14. That I have windows
15. And electricity
16. That I am not in a wheelchair
17. Not paralyzed
18. Inspirational fb posts
19. Artistic ones too
20. That anyone is reading my blog. I so don’t want to be alone in cyber-space
21. Relief. Every time I feel relief
22. Hope. Every time I feel hope.
23. Broccoli.
24. Collards
25. Spinach
26. Red hard
27. Kale
28. My book to help self with depression
29. My book to help self with eating
30. My Nook
31. My cell phone
32. Nature.
33. The park nearby. So near. So lucky.
34. I have so much. I have slippers
35. And I have breath. Those two alone. The ridiculous and the sublime…
36. Pillows
37. Phones
38. Friends
39. Toys for the birds
40. The dear birds themselves, thank God.
41. Ability to play Chopin on the piano
42. I have actually played on a piano on which he played.
43. And in teachers-students, am 7 degrees removed straight from Beethoven.
44. Livestream from Bankok I just listened to Thich Nhat Hanh
45. And to the monks and nuns chanting
46. Enough money for good food
47. Water. Access to water
48. Sleep
49. Ability to read
50. Kandinsky
51. Museums
52. Piano teacher
53. Mother having some better days
54. And going to physical therapy yesterday
55. She is not a complainer.
56. And is a very good example
57. As was my father
58. Organic peanut butter
59. Quiet right now. Is nice.
60. Wood floors
61. I am grateful for speech
62. And hearing
63. And trees
64. And leaves
65. And lilac tree beginning to bud
66. And forsythia too
67. I am grateful that I am free
68. And have hands
69. And feet
70. And hair
71. That I can think
72. My spine
73. And brain stem
74. My lungs
75. That I don’t smoke. I used to, years ago
76. That I don’t eat animals
77. London. I am so happy that I had that whole experience.
78. The flight to.
79. The TNH retreat
80. Trafalgar Square
81. The Tower
82. Kinsington Palace
83. Beans on toast
84. The Indian dinner out.
85. The vegan food at the retreat
86. The Italian dinner
87. The pedicure before coming home
88. Harrod’s
89. The tour buses
90. The tube
91. The practicing of no fear
92. The trip home
93. The seder that night
94. Going straight to L’s
95. J. helping my mother
96. Smiles. Especially when I have one now
97. Having been loved
98. MA
99. That I was there for her the other night
100. Toast and tea
101. Bread at Noni’s.