Feeling Work (more readings after it - can't end on it - too painful)

I feel: Desperately in need of release. Miserable. Unhappy. Depressed. Crying. Down. Still grateful for some things. I think it is because: L is not the right person for me. And I don't want to face that. And I don't feel I could take being alone right now. I feel stuck. Dr so often unavailable. Don't know WHAT to do! Miss J. Next time I'll do differently: Try to follow my own sense? 5 Good Things about Me: Oy. Um. 1. I'm able to listen to the truth about myself, like from friends. 2. I am stronger than I ever thought 3. Despite what HE thinks and wants, I am a sexual person, and *I* think that's a GOOD thing. (So there lol). 4. I am smart 5. I am, people say, "a delight to be with."