Feelings Work

I Feel: uneasy / grateful / nervous / hopeful / physically and romantically in need / wanting to not have to be so patient / happy AND anxious about work tomorrow I Think It Is Because: want to stay up and not sleep - - want days off now that not dying of depression and house straightened and finally cleaned - - hopeful because God, New Year, good veggies, sleep, friends, M's love, DOING THE NEXT RIGHT THING, feel cozy in bed with heated mattress pad, love new iPad, had nice time with Stephani this eve, like new friendship with A, think I can keep up with house this time, but miss J, and wish were in love,... Next Time I'll Do Differently: NOT fall behind in the house keeping up! DON'T do the things I was doing before sank (lie around in sweats and not go out and let mess build up little by little and skip veggies and drink wine and chat with A in ways that don't make me proud (NOT HORRIBLE WAYS THOUGH!) Don't do THOSE things! 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I am kind to children 2. I try 3. I am trying to do for mother 4. I can knit 5. I am a very good friend to M.