I just had a breakthrough in therapy. I realized that

when little,
was valued for my ACCOMPLISHMENTS,
while sister was valued for her JUST - BEING.
It explains SO MUCH!
That despite my feedback on accomplishments, I never felt as good or worthwhile, or even good enough.
That these years, I have so much TROUBLE with little things like keeping up the house (an accomplishment).
That I have NOT "registered" that I am of VALUE to others. BECAUSE - I have only seen my value through my accomplishments
But this is NOT what people who love me are saying.

Wow.



I
am
good enough

It is not ABOUT my accomplishments

What people who love me, love me for, is me.

"They admire you for your accomplishments.
They love you, for you."

Long story, doesn't matter.
But MAJOR breakthrough in therapy.
Major.

Right now, I FEEL that I don't have to accomplish, excuse my French, but, shit tonight. *I* am okay. *I* can just feel good.

Oh boy:)