I MUST try and let go the CRAP. And live IN THE MOMENT.
And GIVE.
And have FUN too.
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here I am feeling so bad about people thinking shit-sister does for mother. NOOOOO!
But -
here is MA's friend who fell TWICE. First time other day and broke shoulder 85 years old.
And last night again from bed and is now in hospital with fever too.
I don't know if this is an intrusion, but whenever I get black I have a few little things I try...thought I'd offer them.
ReplyDeleteChange the scenery -- even if that's just going into another room.
Find something to do, ANY distraction, even for a little bit, seems to help. And while you are doing the task, don't keep checking on your feelings, it's okay to be mindless for a while. Fold some clothes, do some dishes, sort thru a drawer -- something that has a finish and provides a small feeling of accomplishment.
Or conversely, do nothing and don't let it bother you that you aren't accomplishing anything...watch a bunch of movies or a tv marathon of some innocuous show, lay around and don't feel bad about it. Just let go for a little while...give yourself the day off.
Stop taking emotional temp constantly...that tends to spiral me downward. Sometimes turning off the mind helps change the direction...the progression of a downward turn.
It's difficult, but try not having a single expectation...not for how you should feel, for what you should do, for anything.
These are all MY ideas...might do you no good, that's okay...everyone is different...but decided to offer them anyway, just in case.
It's hard to turn the corner...anything that helps is worth it.
Again, hope this wasn't an intrusion. Hoping today is a good day...you deserve it!
An intrusion?
ReplyDeleteNever!
Thank you so much so much so much!
All perfect.
I will do
the not constant temperature taking will be the hardest. But you are totally right.
Thamk you a million times for the help, dear beautiful Kayleigh!