My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful:

1. I just took a deep breath. Thank you, Lord
2. I can (and will) practice piano this morning.
3. All those lessons my parents paid for.
4. This day off.
5. I shall be able to do some cleaning.
6. I REALLY wanted to binge last night. A. gets it. I am NOT going to have sex with him. And I KNOW that is the right decision. BUT it worried me about possibly losing his friendship. And I felt loss… REALLY wanted to zone out into junk food and sleep. BUT DIDN’T I am SO grateful I didn’t! Just thought 3 things. 1 that it is June and I haven’t done that in June and would really like to get through the whole month that way. And 2 how I would feel today if I did and if I didn’t. And 3 how I would ACT today if I didn’t and if I didn’t.
7. That I slept
8. That I woke up
9. That I am still good friends with L. Now that the other complications are past, it really is the best thing.
10. That – I actually – feel good in myself!
11. I just wrote to M. And that documented it too.
12. Telling A for sure for sure, AND my big revelation in therapy, have done so much.
13. *As has this daily work
14. And waiting it out
15. FOR TODAY, I am fine. Thankfully thankfully thankfully fine.
16. And just now, I could really feel the enormous difference in A. And it does hurt. But I still feel ok
17. Coffee
18. My dear birds
19. The FEEL of my piano here
20. The TONE of my piano in my classroom
21. That I can even SAY those things. “here” = have a home
22. “my classroom” = have a classroom
23. that I can type
24. and think
25. No metal in any part of my boy.
26. And can speak
27. And see
28. And move fingers
29. And both arms (I know people who can’t)
30. Who knows what’s around the corner? I am grateful for THAT.
31. Hot in Cleveland. It’s a cheerful little show for me
32. I am so lucky to be a free person
33. And with choices
34. And a job
35. And hair
36. And healthy skin
37. And hearing
38. And eyesight
39. And ability to walk
40. And to drive
41. And to read
42. And to write. Literacy
43. And to teach
44. My parents paid for my college
45. I was a cheerleading
46. And a Girl Scout
47. I have ha 2 nice husbands
48. I have sex
49. And orgasms
50. And love
51. And kisses
52. And hugs
53. I have today
54. I have a future
55. I have a few (very few) dollars in the bank. But it’s better than owing.
56. My mortgage is almost paid
57. My car is
58. I have gas in my car
59. Food for my birds
60. My blog
61. That I can post pics on it
62. Turtles
63. Elephants
64. Hippos
65. Rhinos
66. Lions
67. Giraffes
68. Fish
69. All birds
70. Trees
71. Nature everywhere
72. Every tree
73. Every blade of grass
74. The stars
75. My maternal grandmother
76. My dear students
77. That I speak a little French
78. I am grateful for water
79. And faucets
80. And my driveway
81. My doors. Yes really
82. I shall get the bathroom fixed soon. Phew.
83. Windows
84. I am grateful that I have a healthy heart
85. And lungs
86. And liver
87. And kidneys
88. And brain
89. And stomach
90. And intestines
91. And my strong feet
92. That are pretty too
93. Lamps
94. Electricity
95. Vegetables
96. Organic food
97. Fruit
98. Canteloupe
99. Artichokes!
100. Every day without junk food