Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Feelings Work
I feel:
Ok in the big picture. So grateful to not have a dread disease or anything. And that I can see.
Nervous about all I have to do, and
Kind of resentful that I don't have more time.
L teaches in a college, is FULL-TIME and works 2 days plus 2 hours on a third day, each week. Next semester - TWO DAYS A WEEK, period. I wish I had that...
I WANT to do things for which I just don't have energy:
reading
practicing piano
knitting
all the stuff for my mother
even some tv
CD's I really want to listen to
I have to do the bills
I have to get to a bank
I want some time with friends!
and phone calls
...
oy
I think it is because:
time
energy
work
fat
lack of enough exercise
house got messy during storm - still catching up
new needs of mother every day
BUT
JUST LIKE how I think ALL fear is irrational, isn't this too? There MUST be better ways to deal with it
Like:
Next Time I'll Do Differently:
less tv!
move more - it builds on itself, sort of fostering more energy
5 Good Things about Me:
1. I am - finally! - generally happy!
2. People irl say I cheer them up!
3. I am spiritual
4. I am empathetic - even empathic sometimes...
5. I am mostly authentic
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