Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Feelings Work

I feel: Ok in the big picture. So grateful to not have a dread disease or anything. And that I can see. Nervous about all I have to do, and Kind of resentful that I don't have more time. L teaches in a college, is FULL-TIME and works 2 days plus 2 hours on a third day, each week. Next semester - TWO DAYS A WEEK, period. I wish I had that... I WANT to do things for which I just don't have energy: reading practicing piano knitting all the stuff for my mother even some tv CD's I really want to listen to I have to do the bills I have to get to a bank I want some time with friends! and phone calls ... oy I think it is because: time energy work fat lack of enough exercise house got messy during storm - still catching up new needs of mother every day BUT JUST LIKE how I think ALL fear is irrational, isn't this too? There MUST be better ways to deal with it Like: Next Time I'll Do Differently: less tv! move more - it builds on itself, sort of fostering more energy 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I am - finally! - generally happy! 2. People irl say I cheer them up! 3. I am spiritual 4. I am empathetic - even empathic sometimes... 5. I am mostly authentic

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