My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful: 1. About one of the results of the election. I won’t say which one here, because this is a blog and it is not about politics. But so many positions were voted for, and I’m grateful about at least one. 2. I’m grateful that I woke up today. I am so so so tired that I can - it is Thursday now and I don’t even know what I was about to say! 3. I am very very grateful that I made it home safely yesterday! 4. And that J helped me 5. And MA happened to think of me and feel she needed to call 6. AND – offered me to turn around and go back to her house (I couldn’t get there, but it was a nice offer!) 7. And M has said pack a bag and leave it there so if ever need… 8. I’m grateful that I conquered my phobia (long story) and got to the store and my mother’s Tuesday 9. And that I bought her the underwear 10. And that I got myself 2 really cheap pairs of pants 11. And wore one yesterday. I don’t like them, but I got a compliment 12. Grateful that have this day to do the stuff for my mother 13. So grateful that just saw that the plant is in bloom! It is called a “Christmas cactus” but mine blooms every November and April. 14. I got it at the Botanical Gardens. They have the most amazing plants! 15. This was free! At a party for members. 16. And – it was a little sprout maybe 4 inches long with a 2 inch one attached. 17. Now it is a gigantic plant! 18. And – another smaller one too! 19. I am grateful that M called 20. And that I made good sub plans 21. And that L called! : ) 22. I am grateful that I just practiced piano for 45 minutes! 23. And that I made fresh coffee. Too strong to taste good, but I have it! 24. And it helps not only my energy, but my mood. 25. And I keep it now in a glass container rather than it possibly corroding the stainless steel. 26. I am grateful for the Internet. 27. For Schubert 28. And for Mendelssohn 29. And for my book on Schubert, which came yesterday. 30. And my book on Mendelssohn, which came the other day. 31. And for Vegetarian Times magazine, which I love! 32. And my issue that was supposed to come a month ago, did finally come – the other day 33. And yesterday – yesterday – the newer one came! Such fortune 34. AND – so did my Vitamix!!!! Yay! 35. A nice cute pic email from S just now 36. How fortunate I am to have the people I have in my life. 37. M 38. MA 39. J 40. L 41. ML 42. St 43. O 44. JJ 45. EJ 46. Birdie 47. Jo 48. S 49. I am grateful that I have food in the house. 50. Lots of it 51. And healthy food! 52. And juice 53. And water 54. And electricity! 55. And heat in most of the house 56. And my breath. Oh, thank you God, for my breath. 57. And ginger tea that I’m sipping right now. 58. If I finish what I HAVE TO today, I have my Vegetarian Times and Vitamix as a reward 59. And maybe even a pedicure 60. Or tomorrow 61. That I am still alive 62. My skin 63. My nails 64. My eyesight! 65. My pharmacy delivers 66. And did the day before yesterday 67. My mother is not feeling an emergency need for me to switch her (bossy) day-aide, thank goodness. 68. I am grateful for my voice. I remember when I didn’t have it. 69. I am grateful on behalf of everyone who didn’t have a car accident yesterday. 70. Print books 71. And my Nook 72. And ebooks 73. My iPhone 74. Electrical chargers 75. My night light 76. MA having lent me that flashlight. 77. Batteries 78. This thought, from today’s Voices of Recovery: “I begin every day with prayer, quiet time, and meditation. This seems to help center and calm me so I can go about my day.” 79. And this, from Each Day a New Beginning: “My pain today is bringing me closer to the woman I'm meant to be. With each breath I'll remember that.” 80. J. Called. Offered me help in these phobically dreaded tasks today. I don’t want him to have to. But he is doing one of the store ones. And reaffirmed that he will be seeing my mother at least once a week to do her pills. I love him. The gratitude is not for the love, which hurts as it makes me want him back; the gratitude is for the help and that he gives it. And that he offers. 81. And that L. called. 82. And that I now have a determination to have a day to myself! Every week! Somehow! As much as I’ve loved my time with L, it’s too much to be working all week and there all weekend. I cannot go on this way. I literally, and ok Ill say it now, had an accident yesterday! Urine! And – the day before too! TOO MUCH STRESS and not enough good down time to rewind. I am a (Jungian – Myers-Briggs) INFP. I NEED that! 83. That I am doing the spiritual work today. 84. Today’s Language of Letting Go. Wow. I need that. That one will be a real job for me. 85. TNH’s idea about a “lazy day” every single week. 86. And that they all really take one. 87. And remind each other throughout, when they run into each other, too. 88. My blog 89. Everyone who ever looks at it. 90. Orgasms 91. Monday will be a day off 92. Substitutes 93. That I can read 94. That I practiced piano for over 45 minutes this morning. 95. And maybe WILL be able to be in that recital in Jan. Maybe. 96. Affirmations. 97. This site: http://www.vitalaffirmations.com/pool/affirmation-cards.htm#.UJvUkhhgPox 98. Work email is back up 99. I am about to make that call right now. 100. And pay the bills. 101. God help me. He will.