Feelings Work

I'm going to start by seeing how I feel right now. Then I'll draw a line and see if I feel any differently after the spiritual work. I feel: Sad. Lonely. Nervous. Okay inside. Just very very lonely. And scared about my future. I think it is because: As time went by, I really did want this to work out with L. And I have spent every weekend with him, plus half of every week in the summer, since Feb 24. And I hate my inadequacies and what I've made of my life:( Next time I'll do differently: I don't know. Find a way to have more energy. Just do every daily thing whether I can get away with not doing, or not. 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I am pure-hearted 2. I try to do the right thing 3. I am literate 4. I love animals 5. I have compassion -- And so now, after all my other work. Let's see. Just honestly. I feel: Still tired and a little bit depressed and sad. Just want to go to bed. But okay. Okay. I think it is because: L. My need for closeness. My loneliness. My lack of belief in myself. I will work on it. Next time I'll do differently: Keep more of myself. 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I am a good friend to my friends. 2. I am a good reader. 3. I do gratitudes. 4. I look good in bright colors. 5. I am apparently funny. I'm told that in real life. ==