Feelings Work

I feel, and I think it is because: Oh boy. I feel okay. Physically good. And got SOME of the important weekend stuff done. And MUST SO WILL get rest done tonight or tomorrow. And have made a list for week, to do so much of the other rest (lol) each day. Very grateful for my job. When I THINK of the times I wasn't! Wow! Nervous about my place of importance being very high in L's heart but NOT high enough for me, in his - I don't know - certain KINDS of his actions. But I don't think that's an indication of him not feeling a LOT for me - just an indication of his inabilities. AND - I'm only looking for a LIGHT relationship - dr. approved - NOT to be totally intense and hooked in... Could be nice, fun, AND a learning experience. I feel a bit burdened by the responsibilities I don't feel secure about handling. And VERY grateful that THESE are my problems. All at once. Next Time I'll Do Differently: Keep up the daily spiritual work, DAILY! KEEP DOING FOR MY-SELF! Like cooking last night and twice today, and eating well today, and doing 3 loads of laundry today, and 2 piano practice sessions, and getting off the phone when L wanted to stay on constantly, were all GOOD - for ME. 5 Good Things about Me: 1. Recent events have reminded me: I'm very patient 2. And understanding. I am really able to see the other person's viewpoint. 3. I am brave. 4. I am attractive. 5. I am fun. !