My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful: 1. This thought: “I will open my heart, and I'll be joined to all that's around me.” I haven’t really been doing that lately. 2. That my class is so – naturally – quiet. I NEED the quiet right now : ) 3. That I slept last night. 4. That I had a nice chat with my mother yesterday. 5. This thought: “Since we are dependent on our environment to sustain us, we make life extremely difficult when we try to live a self-centered existence.” 6. “Letting go is the action part of faith.” 7. This: “Letting go is a spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical process, a sometimes mysterious metaphysical process of releasing to God and the Universe that which we are clinging to so tightly.” 8. And: “We let go of our grasp on people, outcomes, ideas, feelings, wants, needs, desires - everything. We let go of trying to control our progress in recovery. Yes, it's important to acknowledge and accept what we want and what we want to happen. But it's equally important to follow through by letting go.” 9. And this, can it really be true: “Letting go sets us free and connects us to our Source. Letting go creates the optimum environment for the best possible outcomes and solutions.” 10. Oh boy, and this: “Today, I will relax. I will let go of that which is upsetting me the most. I will trust that by letting go, I have started the wheels in motion for things to work out in the best possible way.” 11. Important! : “We can do the same. What others say or think is part of them and their lives, not ours. When we are wise enough to let go of things that don't belong to us, we will find our own treasures.” 12. I am grateful that I have a car 13. And that is has gas in it right now 14. And that my principal helped me with the Internet thing I needed yesterday. 15. And didn’t criticize me. 16. And that I was right about the timing of the other thing. When I wrote to the librarian, she said I was wrong. But then the other two teachers wrote (and one is her friend), and she realized it was SHE who was wrong. 17. I am grateful for M’s friendship and love. 18. And MA’s too. 19. And that today – just for today – I finish at 1:45! Yay! From 2:15 – 4:15 I’ll clean up around here, I hope. And throw in one load of laundry. Then I’ll collapse. Not so happy about collapsing, but need it right now. A little depressed maybe. 20. But I’m grateful that it makes sense that I’d be a little down and that is should be temporary. 21. Clocks 22. Electricity 23. Tv 24. Radio 25. CDs 26. DVDs 27. Videos 28. Books 29. My Nook 30. My laptop 31. My hands. So happy to have both my hands. 32. My bed 33. My pillow. I love my sobakowa (sp) pillow – not the one with the buckwheat hulls, which didn’t sit well with my allergies – but the one with little hollow plastic things inside or something 34. J. All the nice times with J. Sad, but grateful I had them. 35. That I have seen some pictures of P.C. which are ugly. I had thought she was beautiful in the way I’d always wanted to look! (One of the ones L. didn’t tell me about). 36. That I can see 37. That the kids seemed happy yesterday 38. The nice papers M gives me 39. Weather reports 40. Trees 41. Grass 42. Flowers 43. My amazing Christmas cactus in gorgeous bloom 44. The day I got it, with J, at Botanical Gardens 45. Children and their smiles 46. Smiles 47. The museum trip Saturday 48. I have a good IQ 49. Sunrise 50. The dark at night and the moon and stars that light it up a bit 51. My kitchen 52. That J put it in for me 53. My feet 54. My legs 55. My waist 56. My ears 57. My cute new earrings 58. The day at 12 years old, when my mother gave me like 12 dollars to buy jeans, and dropped me off. I walked around and saw a necklace in a jewelry store window. Called my mother and said, could you come and could you bring money – I’ll give up the jeans – I need this necklace. And she did! 59. Finally a smile, not sadness. Finally. 60. And the time at John Wanamakers when I saw the earrings – gold of course – I only used to buy real gold, and it was ridiculously affordable – and asked – yup – my mother – to come and bring money. She asked if they were dangly. I said a little. She said she would have to see them first. They passed and she paid and I got them. 61. Really smiling now. Thank goodness! Not about jewelry per se, or the like 12 or 30 dollars those things cost, but about the happiness. The joy. That I could – can? – enjoy things. 62. Piano 63. That when I practice, the time passes in a MINDFUL way. 64. Buddhism 65. Christianity. 66. Everyone’s religion 67. Atheists (like J) too. 68. When I was little, my mother used to pray for me during tests. And she would tell me she was going to. Like, “What time is your math test?” “10:00.” “I’ll pray for you.” Nice. 69. Garbage collection. I don’t always make it, but I’m glad we have it. 70. That I have a washer and dryer in the house. Don’t have to go to a Laundromat. 71. That I don’t use the dry cleaners anymore. 72. The way my mother always folded towels. So pretty. (Learned as a kid when she worked in a laundry place). 73. That I acted in plays in community theater. 74. Art 75. Shoes 76. That I’ve been warm enough so far this winter. I remember last year – or was it two years ago - even in October, I was freezing! 77. Coffee 78. My coffee maker. I’d bought it for J, at his request, but he didn’t take it with him. 79. I’m going to have the doggie this coming weekend!!! Yaaaayyy! 80. My dr. should come tomorrow. 81. The gorgeous outdoor shopping mall near me. When I was little and a teen and in my twenties, there was a GREAT one. It has changed: ( 82. On phone now with M 83. That I was able to be there for MA Sunday, even though I was overwhelmed myself. 84. Vegan mac and cheese. For sometimes lol. 85. Dancing. Even alone. Even with a dvd. Even in the l.r. or den. 86. That I own a treadmill. A good one. 87. That I have an iPod. 88. Green veggies 89. Salad 90. The 2-day fruit and veggie detox. Maybe I’ll do it soon. Maybe not lol. 91. Water. 92. I have never been in a fire. 93. I have had parties. 94. And I have been to parties. 95. My eyedrops. 96. I have done fine through my surgeries. 97. Mo, J’s and my first little precious – precious – doggie 98. All dogs 99. That I have seen giraffes in real life. I hate(!) zoos. But I’m glad I’ve seen giraffes in real life. 100. All the safety I’ve had in my life.