Readings

I also don't feel like doing these. But the morning work *daily* is so important!

For Today

Talks about he discomfort of not knowing what's coming.
And I don't feel that! Yay!

And it does go on to say this helpful thing:
"Beliefs I was sure about have turned out to be wrong. Foremost among them was the idea that if i took complete charge of my life, asking no help from any quarter, it would turn out the way I wanted. But it never did. It was only when I gave up being in charge that the reality of abstinence with peace of mind entered my life. All my progress toward sanity and balance come from that one magnificent change.
For today: I pray to be willing to give up more of my old, mistaken notiong that i cling to as absolute truths.

Today's Voices of Recovery:

"Recovery is a journey, and the Twelve-Step program is the road we travel together in OA." OA 12 & 12 p. 130

"My old way of thinking was that I was either an utter failure as a human being or I was a saint. I saw myself as an utter failure; my attempts at controlling my weight and my eating only strengthened my view of myself. I dreamt of a glorious change in me: a totally compassionate, intelligent, and, or course, thin person. The trouble was that there was no road between me, the miserable failure, and me, the thin saint. So I retreated to eating and daydreaming. I used to envision a sudden flip into a different me - as if by magic I would be transformed. Bu tOA has taught me that recovery requires patient and persistent commitment to a glorious, but hard, journey. OA has shown me the long road that leads away from failure. OA has taught me how to acknowledge my shortcomings and how, by working the Steps to change, I can drop the self-hate and humbly rely on my Higher Power. I am journeying to recovery with OA's Twelve Steps."

Oh, this is all so true for me!

Today's In This Moment:

"In This Moment, I know this pain will end.
I know there will be more occasions of pain in my life. i know there will be more occasions of happiness and joy.

Becoming an observer of my life helps me to see there will be both joy and pain. Recovery teaches me to work through the pain and to revel in the happiness. There WILL be both.

I learn from the pain and know I will be happy again."

Today's Language of Letting Go:

"Healthy Limits
Boundaries are vital to recovery. having and setting healthy limits is connected to all phases of recovery: growing in self-esteem, dealing with feelings, and learning to really love and value ourselves."
(Good - I need this with my mother).
"Boundaries emerge from deep within. They are connected to letting go of guilt and shame, and to changing our beliefs about what we deserve." (Oh yay!) "As our thinking about this becomes clearer, so will our boundaries.
Boundaries are also connected to a Higher Timing than our own. We'll set a limit when we're ready, and not a moment before. So will others.
There's something magical about reaching that point of becoming ready to set a limit. We know we mean what we say; others take us seriously too." (Yay!) "Things change, not because we're controlling others, but because we've changed.

Today, I will trust that I will learn, grow, and set the limits I need in my life at my own pace. This timing need only be right for me."