Readings

Today's For Today:
..."I need only to look and see that all tings happen in their own time. The resolution of each problem has its own timetable. No amount of wishing, wringing of hands or raging will effect a change.
Acceptance is the simple act of going through what is presently facing me, be it pain, anger, despair, hopelessness or their opposites. When life as it really is becomes a fact that I accept [ouch!] as naturally as I breathe, events lose their power to throw me off balance or disturb the basic rhythm of my life.
For today: Acceptance also comes in its own time, and I do not berate myself for not having it on demand."
Oh. Okay.

Today's Voices of Recovery:

"I can't; God can' i think I'll let God!" OA 12 & 12 p. 19

"Before I came to OA, God showed me that I hurt my relationship with Him when I ate sweets. I was a glutton, and I couldn't eat junk food in moderation. I vowed that I would never eat these harmful substances again. Of course, I couldn't stick to my vow! I made the vow for the right reasons, knowing by then that my weight wasn't the main issue, but I was trying to keep the vow through my own strength. Thank God for OA, which brought the reality of Steps One, Two, and Three into my life. I now trust God to do for me what i have never been able to do for myself. I am powerless over food and the rest of my life. By God's grace, I am able to stay abstinent and live in His will 'one day at a time!"

Today's In This Moment:
..."At all times, Max [dog] knew how he felt. He lived in the moment, fully and completely. He was a role model for me..."

Today's Language of Letting Go

"Relationships
"If we are unhappy without a relationship, we'll probably be unhappy with one as well. A relationship doesn't begin our life; a relationship doesn't become our life. A relationship is a continuation of life." Beyond Codepencey [Oh! I REALLY needed to hear that now!]

"Relationships are the blessing and bane of recovery. Relationships are where we take our recovery show on the road.
Each day, we are faced with the prospect of functioning in several different relationships. Sometimes, we choose these relationships; sometimes, we don't. The one choice we usually have in our relationships concerns our own behavior. In recovery from codependence, our goal is to behave in ways that demonstrate responsibility for ourselves.
We're learning to acknowledge our power to take care of ourselves in our relationships. We're learning to be intimate with pepple when possible.
Do we need to detach from someone who we've been trying to control? Is there someone we need to talk to, even though what we have to say may be uncomfortable? Is there someone we've been avoiding because we're afraid to take care of ourselves with that person? Do we need to make an amend? Is there someone we need to reach out to, or show love?
Recovery is not done apart from our relationships. Recovery is done by learning to own OUR power and to take care of ourselves in relationships." [This all feels so hard.]

"Today, I will participate in my relationships to the best of my ability. I will make myself available for closeness and sharing with people I trust. I will ask for what I need and give what feels right."

Okay...