Day 17
I am truly blessed to have the
possibility that my mother will leave a few dollars to me,
Because I, like most of us,
can use it. But whether she can or not, I am grateful that she scrimped and
saved to try to. Because of the love, because of the potential, and because
that is positive money energy being put into the Universe for me!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so happy and grateful for
her trust in me,
because I do do the
right thing, and it is nice to be appreciated and known for that!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am truly grateful for the
money that came to me for this little house,
because a bit was a gift about 30
years ago and all the majority of it I earned. And I have a home!
Thank you thank you thank you!
With all my heart, thank you
for the money I earn that provides food to me and to my birds,
because it is such a gift to
not ever have to worry about food!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am truly blessed to have had
such joy yesterday, a day which in advance did cause me a little anxiety but I
did not let it get out of hand!
Because I wound up in a state
of joy! I wanted to come and write the details of the joy in my blog but it was
late when I got home and I was very tired and MA called and needed to talk. I
do remember some of them. I am grateful that the day ended with joy and my
magic rock practice as always now.
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so happy and grateful for
the great visit I had with my mother and her aide M,
because all three of us liked
it so much. And I DID find the time for it!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am truly grateful for the
love in my life,
because I realized as I was
falling asleep, that I had the love of my mother, MA, J, and M. And it felt SO
good.
Thank you thank you thank you!
With all my heart, thank you
for my making the African Sweet Potato Peanut Stew yesterday,
Because I never have. J has
but I have not. And I’ve never really loved it although I could eat it. But it
is like his favorite. So I was going to make it for him. But I don’t know why
but this dish felt overwhelming to me. Making own p.b. (long story), ...he whole
thing. And I was putting it off. And then I said to myself, and this is
important because this part was not about him but about me: “I am not going to
be beaten by a pot of stew!” And I just made it.
Of course, I didn’t have one
ingredient I thought I had. Uh oh. But I went online and found substitute!
And I didn’t have another,
made up own substitute, but later realized I DID have it lol.
But other than rushing and
timing and a minor thumb injury, I enjoyed making it! And it smelled
so good! And I’m bringing some for lunch today!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so incredibly fortunate
and lucky and grateful for bringing 3 servings to J while still warm and he
actually called back after eating it, so grateful,
because I do care about him
and he is under a lot of stress - a lot - and I know he’s not eating
nutrients a lot of the time. And because I like our time together and I like
having him in my life.
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so incredibly fortunate
and lucky and grateful for little doggie!,
because I got to see and play
with her a little, as J was home and came outside with her! I had such a
nice little visit with both of them! Yay!
Thank you thank you thank you!
And then – and this is huge:
I felt, watching a little tv before sleep, I felt this! “I like
my life the way it is now. I don’t know if I would “forever” but I am not
thinking ahead I am liveing now. And now, I like living
alone but seeing J. I like that I can unwind and do things y own way and not be
“forced” (by self of course) into more “normalcy” like family dinners…. Can lie
on couch and watch tv, can sleep as long as I like, spend what I like, eat what
I like. Of course can if together also, but have put own paridgim
expectation restrictions on self in past, and so like this right now.
Have nice job, enough money, good food, birds, friends, mother, even a bit of
J, French, piano, needlecrafts. Have so much! Weather is beautiful and I can
walk…
Thank you thank you thank you!
Thank you thank you thank you
that I finally like my life!
Thank you thank you thank you!
And I will do the other part today too, although not here:)
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