Feelings Work

I feel: Grateful Healthy Overall good BUT - worried. About being SO behind. And L. not being interested in sex. Makes me think he is just not interested because he had hopes that this relationship with me would settle his problem and it didn't. So now he just sort of "does me" now and then out of goodness. I don't want favor sex! I mean, it's sweet. But I want to be wanted. AND I want it more OFTEN! Much! For the closeness! Even if it doesn't go there, and end in orgasm(s). And I feel not happy about later. I still haven't worked out a way to do all the things I have to do when I don't want to do them. Things I hate or am afraid of doing. But people (like my sponsor) have shared with me that they've gone, or go, through it too. And how they got/get through. And that helps. I feel: generally very grateful. I think it is because: Good - I ate veggies. Bad - I haven't been meditating. Next time I'll do differently: Be unafraid as I make a decision about whether to spend time/ho much time/whether to be exclusive with L. Sleep Eat veggies! meditate daily. Starting today. 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I don't eat animals. 2. I try to grow in compassion all the time 3. I try to eat better and move more and take better care of my body 4. I can play piano 5. I am a trustworthy friend to my friends!