Feelings Work

I feel, and I think it is because: Uh oh. Seeing J last night was so hard. I was hysterical. In front of him AND after he left. I feel depressed about that whole situation. and my mother's whole situation. Also, embarrassingly, jealous that she called the sister. But made aware again and more that she is her daughter too. And of course I will do the right thing. Of course. Shaky - because I have not been talking to sponsor or going to meetings? Much. Much more hopeful than last night. Because I slept. And because I had a great nice talk with L. And because I'm growing up. DETERMINED to take care of myself. Whatever it takes. Meetings, whatever. God help me. Next time: Sleep, pray, continue spiritual work, exercise soon as can (leg), do everything MUST each day (bills, garbage). Oy. 5 Good Things about Me: 1. Funny 2. Approachable 3. Don't give up 4. Understanding of others 5. Affectionate