My 100 Gratitudes Today

I am grateful: 1. Such a beautiful day yesterday 2. Weather perfect 3. Gardens gorgeous 4. L. so nice 5. Great dinner – veggies veggies veggies 6. And good wine 7. I am NOT saying he’s “the one”, or it’s all perfect…I’m saying I’m grateful for a wonderful (though too expensive: ( day 8. My dr. says enjoy for 3 months or so; see how you feel, makes sense 9. I love that Shakespeare quote in today’s For Today, “The path is smooth that leadeth us to danger.” 10. I am grateful for the movie we saw about the artist 11. And the gorgeous paintings 12. And the amazing flowers 13. And the fabulous atmosphere at the restaurant 14. And that wonderful people there (patrons) 15. And waitstaff – so good! 16. And the freshness of the food 17. And that L thought it was delicious 18. Just sitting here alone this am in my sunroom 19. With the branches dancing in the cool autumn breeze. So lovely 20. I’m so grateful that I have trees. 21. My coffee this morning tastes pretty good. (Bad the last few days). 22. I am so grateful for this ring I bought from my Reiki teacher. It is an anchor for me. 23. And for meditation. Mindfulness meditation. 24. An the Five Mindfulness Trainings. 25. This fabulous toast I am having right now! 26. Organic (!) whole wheat bread 27. With organic (lucky me!) peanut butter. So delicious. 28. "The only way to do meditation wrong is not to do it at all." From today’s Voices of Recovery 29. I am grateful for that part about no recriminations, too. 30. And oh my -! – for today’s In This Moment. The anti-judgment zone! I needed that. 31. I am so grateful that I saw my mother in the hospital yesterday. 32. And that we had such a nice visit. 33. And that L. came too! That meant a lot to me 34. I’m grateful it’s not last weekend! 35. Or even the week before: the week-of-lies 36. 37. "There was a time in y life when i felt so afraid of and overwhelmed by the very act of living that I actually wanted to make out a schedule for each day of my life for the next five years. I wanted to include all the chores I had to do, when I would do them, even when i would schedule relaxation. I wanted to get some order into what felt overwhelming. I wanted to feel like I was in control." From today’s Language of Letting – Wow – this was me! (This was I). 38. I am grateful for this company now that he is up, across the table from me: me doing my spiritual work and him doing his test correcting and having breakfast. 39. I am grateful for this table! 40. And these chairs! Really I am. 41. And the gorgeous – gorgeous window treatment in this dining room. J picked it out. Called me at work. Said, “I am looking at window treatment. 2000 dollars for the two windows. These were custom-made and customer didn’t take them. They fit our windows. Instead of 2000. 00, we can get them for 200. I know you will love them. Should I? And described them. Oh my gosh they are glorious! 42. Cuteness. In everybody. 43. The thing that little girl said to me. It was hysterical. A little frightening – I hope not really – but so funny. Halloween story writing – she made a “sheep pie” – knew that would gross me out – I of course made the expected facer and said, “Eww.” She was giggling and jumping up and down – in her white and pink tulle dress no less, and said – she actually said – giggling hysterically, “You’re lucky it’s not teacher pie!” Oh my gosh! Halloween sillies. Wow. 44. I’m grateful that I am teaching them the Cat Came Back song. And: 45. That I changed the words in some places! Too scary! No violence! Just cute – ghosties etc. 46. And that I am about to meditate after all this. With or, more likely without, him! 47. “For the abundance and endless creativity of the universe as represented by the astonishing variety of plants and flowers we saw at the botanical gardens. Somme secret of the universe was revealed there yesterday. About nature’s creativity.” From L. But I concur! 48. That aquatic plants rain forest room where the breathing is so awesome. 49. That I am a member again! Haven’t been since last December. 50. My hope chest. 51. That my grandmother gave my mother when she was getting married. 52. And she had taken the engagement time to fill it with stuff! 53. And it is cedar lined 54. And I use it 55. And sometimes, when I go to bed at night, the linens smell like cedar – they smell like Noni’s house. Nice. 56. I am grateful for organic bananas. 57. And organic grapes. 58. I am grateful for free online affirmations. 59. I am grateful for my favorite date I had with L. The one where we spent over 3 hours here in the morning, lying on the living room floor together caressing, him sharing music with me. 60. And for ALL the amazing times I’ve had with J. 61. And that S is sending emails from his vacation with J. And that means they still like me. 62. And I’m glad they’re having such fun. 63. Laughter 64. Lighthearted moments 65. Sex. When I get to have some lol. 66. Thich Nhat Hanh 67. God 68. The Buddhist monks and nuns 69. Skeeball – I enjoy it 70. That I’ve bowled (badly!) a few times 71. Swimming! I love it so much! I’ve SO bad at it – but I enjoy it SO MUCH! 72. My students who take swimming lessons and are so competent at it. It is good for them. 73. Picture day Friday. We all behave(d) better when dressed up. 74. I am grateful that I have that drawer of treats for L. 75. And that he is in it now, enjoying himself with them. 76. And that I have brussels sprouts here, from my hfs. 77. And that I do love them. 78. I am grateful that there is nice, 20th century classical music on right now. 79. Health 80. Life 81. Waking up happy, not depressed about having awakened! 82. That I am beginning to learn: say something little, right away; don’t let things build. 83. That I have realized this coffee is too strong. I must experiment. Maybe mix it half and half with decaf. 84. That I am having this morning with L. 85. That I WILL do laundry later 86. And cook that chili! 87. And maybe cook macs and veggies and protein too! 88. And freeze some grapes. 89. My Nook! 90. Books! 91. My (cheap, little) stereo 92. And that L. hooked it up for me 93. That we are using the d.r. table this morning 94. The trees outside THESE windows too 95. That maybe our new techie person WILL be of some help. 96. That the socks came! My new (on sale!) socks 97. And the surprise pair that I bought for Je 98. And the surprise pair that I bought for Ji 99. MA 100. M