Today's Reading - For Today

"Lying to ourselves is more deeply ingrained than lying rto others." Fyodor Dostoyevski I am with myself every minute of every day. I have no respite from my frailties, no leave of absence from myself. "It's hard to have to listen to that relentless inner voice forever pointing out my faults and mistakes. So I fall back on the familiar pattern of self-deception. In that never-never land, things are not what they really are; they are what I want them to be. As I work this program of recovery, I find better ways of seeking relief. I call time out to express my feelings, either verbally or in writing. Funny, how much more bearable the truth becomes when i can look at it openly and honestly, without having to be defensive about it. For today: To the extent that I take time to express my feelings, I can be comfortable with myself and learn something important at the same time.