Update does NOT mean it's all good

It means he cares. He's tried to make it up to me. I believe this was all a stupid mistake. My dear MA says, "This was not about you and not about her, she's just a friend. This was about him acting like a little child who saw something shiny (those tickets) and did whatever, to get it." And she would NOT have had the problem with all this that I had. M, on other hand, was beyond horrified. So, different people... I am mostly over it. Because he did the 5 things on my make-it-up-to-me list INCLUDING thinking of one on his own (theater/B&B) PLUS sent me roses. The letter he wrote was beautiful, as were the phone calls. Thing is, he is not the be-all and end-all. And that's good. Better that I not be totally insane, as I was with J. And - he is probably not a "the one" and that is disappointing. But: I do not want to be alone right now. I do care for him and he for me. We do have very nice time together. I will keep working on mySELF and see. . . I THINK I'm wishing to be with him somewhat but maybe back up a little. Maybe even see others. And not be so attached at the hip.