Feelings Work

I feel: Scared. Miss J. and worried about my future. Also worried about my future state of mind with possible loneliness and depression. Also somewhat depressed over the loss of J. Also apprehensive about my future physical health and possible "decrepitation." Better than the last few days. I think it is because: Positive: sleep, two coffees, getting out and about Negatives: house a mess again. When it was so clean just one short week ago: ( Not doing all spiritual work every day. What I will do differently next time. TAKE CARE OF MYSELF FIRST! THEN, I could have the energy and wherewithal to do the daily things I need to do! 5 Good Things about Me: 1. I am generally friendly 2. I am open-minded 3. I am smart 4. I am even much smarter at math than I'd ever thought 5. I am fair (meaning just).