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Miracles of the Day

Miracles of This Day

I think there are many millions of miracles every day. I am trying to notice and list some today.

Yup, it’s gratitudes, but just looking at it differently a bit.

It is a miracle that

1.    My birds are singing

2.    Summer is out free

3.    I am breathing

4.    Grass is outside

5.    Leaves are turning colors

6.    Breeze is blowing

7.    Sky is blue

8.    Children played outside

9.    I ate broccoli

10.                  With M at lunch just the two of us

11.                  My students are sweet

12.                  I am helping S

13.                  And R

14.                  And Ja

15.                  I drove

16.                  Twice

17.                  Safely

18.                  All the other cars around were safe too

19.                  I can see

20.                  I can see colors

21.                  I did “the breathing game” with the kiddies (2 minutes)

22.                  Most of them love it

23.                  I had nice chat with Je

24.                  I have water that comes out of my shower

25.                  And a beautiful organic beefsteak tomato

26.                  L sent me a list of ways out of depression, this weekend.

27.                  I heard from two nice guys on dating site

28.                  I think they’re both weird so probably won’t see. But nice and I did hear from them.

29.                  I had a little temporary help in the classroom today

30.                  My meeting this am went well

31.                  The parents are so open so far. Like they expect the best – not looking for trouble…

32.                  I had on a pretty new outfit today

33.                  And god compliments

34.                  Colors look good on me

35.                  A is my friend and is not bugging me for other stuff

36.                  I was strong last night. I spoke up after some negativity and spoke up for peace

37.                  And got a bunch of likes, which means others want it to, at least some

38.                  I had visit with mother yesterday

39.                  And did her shopping

40.                  And mine

41.                  I do have a second coffee filter, it turns out. J told me where

42.                  Really, when you think about it, no epilepsy attacks in class

43.                  Or stitches needed for anything

44.                  No one cried.

45.                  I was able to do M’s budget with/for her

46.                  I can read

47.                  And did a little theater with the kids

48.                  We talk about caring FOR each other

49.                  And they are into it

50.                  I had enough energy. Energy is a little miracle

51.                  I ate in the teacher’s room a few times lately

52.                  Even for 20 minutes, at least it’s a break and it’s social

53.                  I had a little pretty big of makeup on

54.                  I had enough money for what I needed today

55.                  I have a roof

56.                  I read GREAT books to kiddies lately. And they are LOVING them!

57.                  I am looking at Kandinsky print on my calendar

58.                  I was in London by myself and loved it just over a year ago

59.                  Phones

60.                  Cell phones

61.                  Computers

62.                  Laptops

63.                  SmarBoard

64.                  Document camera

65.                  Fresh organic dried Turkish fig

66.                  The kiddies are innocent

67.                  LRC teacher is helping me so much with materials for the special ed kid in my class (with no aide oy)

68.                  I love the students.

69.                  I am lucky to work with children

70.                  My classroom is much prettier than the past 4 years. And I changed it without J

71.                  I played Chopin for the kids and they loved it and they clapped

72.                  I’m not spending like I was

73.                  Lawyer stuff might be just about finished

74.                  I am calm. No wine. No valium. Calm

75.                  I like the Big Bang Theory

76.                  I don’t care as much. If A is an ass and W is scary weird (attic guy) and D is pushy… so what?

77.                  I got through the torture of Sunday’s eat-me-alive loneliness

78.                  Birdie responded

79.                  Wednesday. Chirping just started. Beautiful

80.                  Thich Nhat Hanh

81.                  J in my life for many years in good ways

82.                  Accessto coffee every morning

83.                  And bird food.

84.                  Sunrise

85.                  Sunset

86.                  Green leaves

87.                  Oak tree

88.                  Friendship

89.                  Smiles of the children

90.                  Enough money to live

91.                  Gas in my car

92.                  Eyesight is a miracle. But so is hearing

93.                  Garbage collection makes life convenient

94.                  Taps for water. not wells and buckets (although the other would be better for my muscles lol)

95.           EJ

96.           

97.

98. God
99. Prayer
100. Everything I do for my mother, although I wish it were more.

The loneliness

is consuming me.

I am doing GREAT at work. Thank God. I am *really* helping kids. And am the utmost professional. AND the bonus is that it is good for me to be there.

I am saying yes to invitations even though I find it hard to motivate myself.

I am doing more for my mother.

I am trying to go easier on myself.

But I hate despise loathe detest living alone. So much alone time. So much.
I am a people person; I didn't always know it.
I am a love person: that I did always know.

I am checking out the dating sites.
i am open to meeting people.
I am not desperate for dates; in fact I'm probably not even ready.
But it doesn't hurt to go to dinner or a movie...

I am close with my girlfriends and at least once a weekend and spending a few hours - like 3 - with one of them.

Not being able to play piano (pain - temporary) for weeks is bad for me, I know.
And hating my current still-too-fat body doesn't help.
Although i bought some new clothes and that is good.

--
I've got the dr's advice about doing a bit and then STOPPING. To "catch up" little by little but not become overwhelmed and paralyzed.
I've got the DASH diet nutritional advice - and even on days when cannot follow it, at least having greens.
I've got L's sharing what helped him through his terrible depression (20 years worth!) which includes
getting out and being with people, especially jolly people
basking in sunshine a little each day abosorbing it on skin
museums
exercise
juicing a lot of greens (organic)
germanium supplements - which may be off the market now but ginseng too
listening to depressing classical music (and he names them). says although reinforces dark feelings, also is source of comfort knowing that others "had similar experiences in walking through the valley of darkness."
and homeopathic remedy "Natrum Muriaticum" (sp) BUT - that would put him in a comatose trance for hours although not a drug and he said released years of tension. That one scares me I don't think i will try it.

But I will try some of these other things.

Lord help me.

I would give anything for family here.

ADDENDUM:
I did take a 5 mg valium. It is prescribed. I don't take it often. It calmed me a lot.
And I remembered - I had to take it a bunch when J was here at one point, so that helped me remember he is not the answer.
Trying...

Zen to Zany

Up from the archives...but the truth is..once you make a decision, to change, to do something, to begin something...the Universe will conspire to make it happen. Your thoughts will manifest themselves as your reality, always...Positive, negative, happy, not happy,...your main focus will become your three dimension reality. Look around at everything you have...it all began with a thought and a decision.

If You See This,

could you pray for a very special intention of mine?
I will pray tonight for EVERYONE who has seen this (whether you do or not)

*If you don't believe in a "God," you can still pray, as some science shows it works - maybe because of electrical connections.....

Thank you.

Beginning of school very very busy - moreso than ever, and I shall have more time on weekend. Grats etc.

--- If you are suffering,
don't give up.
Breathe.
Stay in the moment.
We are pretty much always safe *in the moment.*

I Have Only This to Say Today, 9/11

so cool great affirmations

Lissa Rankin

I wanted to share with you the notes I took as I read Tosha Silver's Outrageous Openness. I tried to collect them together into helpful little prayers of surrender:

When you’re looking for love:
The perfect partner is already selected. He/she is arriving in the right way at the right time. I am so grateful to receive him/her.

When something you want isn’t happening as fast as you wish:
My life is unfolding in Divine timing. All delays are beneficial. I’m always at the right place at the right time.

When you’re looking for clients:
I’m now available to receive anyone who can benefit from my teaching. Let all who need me find me. Let me help relieve suffering. The Divine is my complete Source for all prosperity and will provide.

When things aren’t going well at work:
I call Divine Order into my work. In the right time, in the right way, let my offering become available for the good of all, to all who need to be guided to me and to know.

When stressed about travel:
Let every aspect of this journey unfold in harmony. Let Divine Order arrange and show me every detail. The right airline connection, lodging, and all else are already selected and I’ll be guided to them easily. I’ll follow the leads as they are shown.

When you feel an impulse to be of service:
Wherever I can be a force for Love, please guide me. Take me wherever you wish me to go. Let me do your bidding.

When struggling to get over the painful loss of a relationship:
This entire relationship now belongs to Divine Order. It is in God’s hands and I am open to a miracle of completion The situation now unfolds in the perfect way for the good of all. I needn’t fear letting go; my needs are always met.

When trying to decide about whether to do something you can’t quite afford but wish to do:
Please show me if you wish me to go. If you do, please bring a sign, and a miracle. Please show your Divine Will in this matter and send a clear sign that gives the proper direction. And if for some reason I’m about to head the wrong way, please, please stop me.

When dealing with writer’s block:
I ask that if I can be of service, and I this be God’s will, that the perfect chances will arrive to pulverize this damn writer’s block once and for all.

When dealing with a customer service cluster f*ck:
With every fiber of my being I invoke God as my Source and cast the burden of this mess. I pray that the perfect people who intercede on my behalf will come at the right moment.

When struggling to find the perfect apartment or just the right parking spot:

I am now being guided to the right apartment [or parking spot] at the right time. It’s already handled.

When unclear about what’s next:
My perfect new path is already selected and will arrive at the right time. I’ll be shown the steps to receive it.