depression sucks
i will start a page for the weekend of good posts
here is the first
Friday, May 31, 2013
i need these
silent streams of water tears running down my face for hours
depression sucks
i will start a page for the weekend of good posts
here is the first
depression sucks
i will start a page for the weekend of good posts
here is the first
My 100 Gratitudes Today
I am grateful:
1. _______
"A good life is when you smile often, dream big, laugh a lot and realize how blessed you are for what you have." ♥
~ Ritu Ghatourey ~
2. Life is short. Have some fun. – That thought
3. My birds this morning.
4. To get to see them first thing in the morning
5. That I had interesting dreams, and so, liked my night
6. And woke up
7. K saying yesterday, that someone had taught her, “When you first get up, first thing, before brushing your teeth or anything, ‘ESTABLISH your day.’”
8. I heard from another guy from online. I’n not really gonna be so interested in either of these two, it turns out, but it is nice to hear from, and to be nice, and tohat they seem nice too.
9. P. wrote. I do NOT like or trust HIM! But I’m glad he wrote.
10. Beautiful art works. The facebook page Catherine La Rose: The Poet of Painting
11. I am so lucky to be free
12. And to never have been persecuted because of my Christian faith
13. And to have practiced with Thich Nhat Hanh
14. JJ
15. EJ
16. Birdie
17. You
18. M
19. And her appreciation of me
20. And my supportiveness
21. And her appreciation of that
22. My dr
23. Eye drops
24. Friendships
25. O
26. M
27. MA
28. St
29. Girlfriends, oh yes. Remember Jo and other Jo
30. And guy friends too.
31. L
32. A
33. Polite work chat
34. Beautiful poetry
35. Native American poetry (I don’t know what term to use. I know a Lanape person who hates that term because she says she is NOT an “American.” “America wasn’t HERE when her people were here. But these people are not “Indians – not from India….” She says “Indians” is less offensive as at least it’s just a mistake…. She says always say the tribe name when know it. . . but this would be ACROSS the tribes…)
36. My use of the gorgeous local public library when I was in like gr. 7
“Hear blessings dropping their blossoms around you. “
~ Rumi ¬¬¬¬¬_______
Huge: There is only one moment in time when it is necessary to awaken. That moment is now.
— The Buddha _____
37. The religious objects I have
38. Branches
39. Trees
40. Earth
41. Dirt
42. Soil
43. Flowers
44. Grass
45. Oxygen
46. Sky
47. Clouds. All are miracles.
48. Children
49. Smiles
50. Meeting this afternoon – at least it’s air conditioned in that room
51. I caused children to smile yesterday. That’s cool.
52. Geese
53. Ducks
54. Swans
55. All birds. I love birds
56. And cats
57. This. ENJOY! http://femour.com/23-signs-youre-too-obsessed-with-your-person-this-post-is-for-cats-d/
58. Oprah has said many things that have helped me
59. And interviewed TNH, bringing him to much of the public
60. Martin Luther King
61. History books
62. Good books
63. Vegan cookbooks
64. J.
65. My oak tree
66. Vegan magazine
67. Vegetarian magazine
We are very good at preparing to live, but not very good at living. We know how to sacrifice ten years for a diploma, and we are willing to work very hard to get a job, a car, a house, and so on. But we have difficulty remembering that we are alive in the present moment, the only moment there is for us to be alive.
— Thich Nhat Hanh
68. My hair
69. My eyes
70. Even exactly as they are
71. Birdsong
72. That I have a job
73. Water
74. This light nightgown
75. I have a bed
76. A couch
77. A pillow
78. A roof
79. Tv news like magazine shows imo in the morning.
80. That there are other more serious news things for people who want that
81. That I am not alone
82. That I am not invalid
83. That I am not bedridden
84. That I am not homeless
85. That I am not dirt-poor
86. That I can walk
87. That I live near a nice big beautiful park
88. IM in mornings
89. Coffee
90. 3 kinds of organic kale in house right now
91. I have eaten some of it yay
92. And birdies have eaten as much lol
93. God
94. Thich Nhat Hanh
95. Buddha
96. Dali Lama
97. Inspirations
98. That I can read
99. That I help others (the children) to read better
100. This computer
101. US connecting through it
1. _______
"A good life is when you smile often, dream big, laugh a lot and realize how blessed you are for what you have." ♥~ Ritu Ghatourey ~
2. Life is short. Have some fun. – That thought
3. My birds this morning.
4. To get to see them first thing in the morning
5. That I had interesting dreams, and so, liked my night
6. And woke up
7. K saying yesterday, that someone had taught her, “When you first get up, first thing, before brushing your teeth or anything, ‘ESTABLISH your day.’”
8. I heard from another guy from online. I’n not really gonna be so interested in either of these two, it turns out, but it is nice to hear from, and to be nice, and tohat they seem nice too.
9. P. wrote. I do NOT like or trust HIM! But I’m glad he wrote.
10. Beautiful art works. The facebook page Catherine La Rose: The Poet of Painting
11. I am so lucky to be free
12. And to never have been persecuted because of my Christian faith
13. And to have practiced with Thich Nhat Hanh
14. JJ
15. EJ
16. Birdie
17. You
18. M
19. And her appreciation of me
20. And my supportiveness
21. And her appreciation of that
22. My dr
23. Eye drops
24. Friendships
25. O
26. M
27. MA
28. St
29. Girlfriends, oh yes. Remember Jo and other Jo
30. And guy friends too.
31. L
32. A
33. Polite work chat
34. Beautiful poetry
35. Native American poetry (I don’t know what term to use. I know a Lanape person who hates that term because she says she is NOT an “American.” “America wasn’t HERE when her people were here. But these people are not “Indians – not from India….” She says “Indians” is less offensive as at least it’s just a mistake…. She says always say the tribe name when know it. . . but this would be ACROSS the tribes…)
36. My use of the gorgeous local public library when I was in like gr. 7
“Hear blessings dropping their blossoms around you. “
~ Rumi ¬¬¬¬¬_______
Huge: There is only one moment in time when it is necessary to awaken. That moment is now.
— The Buddha _____
37. The religious objects I have
38. Branches
39. Trees
40. Earth
41. Dirt
42. Soil
43. Flowers
44. Grass
45. Oxygen
46. Sky
47. Clouds. All are miracles.
48. Children
49. Smiles
50. Meeting this afternoon – at least it’s air conditioned in that room
51. I caused children to smile yesterday. That’s cool.
52. Geese
53. Ducks
54. Swans
55. All birds. I love birds
56. And cats
57. This. ENJOY! http://femour.com/23-signs-youre-too-obsessed-with-your-person-this-post-is-for-cats-d/
58. Oprah has said many things that have helped me
59. And interviewed TNH, bringing him to much of the public
60. Martin Luther King
61. History books
62. Good books
63. Vegan cookbooks
64. J.
65. My oak tree
66. Vegan magazine
67. Vegetarian magazine
We are very good at preparing to live, but not very good at living. We know how to sacrifice ten years for a diploma, and we are willing to work very hard to get a job, a car, a house, and so on. But we have difficulty remembering that we are alive in the present moment, the only moment there is for us to be alive.
— Thich Nhat Hanh
68. My hair
69. My eyes
70. Even exactly as they are
71. Birdsong
72. That I have a job
73. Water
74. This light nightgown
75. I have a bed
76. A couch
77. A pillow
78. A roof
79. Tv news like magazine shows imo in the morning.
80. That there are other more serious news things for people who want that
81. That I am not alone
82. That I am not invalid
83. That I am not bedridden
84. That I am not homeless
85. That I am not dirt-poor
86. That I can walk
87. That I live near a nice big beautiful park
88. IM in mornings
89. Coffee
90. 3 kinds of organic kale in house right now
91. I have eaten some of it yay
92. And birdies have eaten as much lol
93. God
94. Thich Nhat Hanh
95. Buddha
96. Dali Lama
97. Inspirations
98. That I can read
99. That I help others (the children) to read better
100. This computer
101. US connecting through it
Thursday, May 30, 2013
My 100 Gratitudes Today
I am determined to get back to the hundred. Never did yesterday.
I am grateful:
1. The CBS 6:00 morning show. Just cheerful=acting people. Good for me to put that on in the mornings, at least for now.
2. I am grateful that I am breathing
3. And for the fear I felt n April. Yes, I am grateful for that fear.
4. Because, on April 23, I decided – or realized – how much I DO want to live.
5. Thursday. Good. I THINK nothing horrible today. …
6. A reminding me that I am in the top luckiest of people.
7. That I AM sensitive to the plight of so many on this earth. Do what I can with education and voting and prayer…
8. Him reminding me that I am free
9. Own home
10. Got my health back
11. Also said I have a pretty smile
12. And so many people say that
13. M keeps saying how funny I am
14. So does MA
15. And her niece
16. And ML
17. And O too
18. He also said, “No more grief. Sadness. Anger.”
19. And “Someone cares.
20. “Many care
21. and “Push away bad feeling
22. “Makes steady progress toward goals
23. “U can do it.” Those were helpful
24. I thanked him and he said, “No need to that it’s the truth”
25. O said, “Happiness takes work. You have to do it every day…”
26. My feet
27. My legs
28. My skin
29. Yesterday morning’s challenge went well
30. And noon one too
31. Afternoon one not as well but PROBABLY will not be a problem
32. Weekend soon
33. I have my dear dear birds
34. I try to take the best care of them
35. And always will
36. I let them free about twice a day
37. For hours
38. Sing to them
39. Hand feed them millet
40. Give them fresh organic greens. Baby greens. Lots of their favorite: kale
41. Try different fruits
42. Guy from online site called me last night. I THINK I will not have chemistry with him. BUT he is a decent guy I think.
43. Jo Frost. I love her! (She was the “Supernanny” and now has a new show on Tuesdays called Family SOS or something).
44. Coffe
45. Water
46. 3 kinds of organic kale here right now
47. I had some last night
48. Birds will have some today
49. These students. Best ever
50. I am lucky to be sitting here in the morning
51. Sitting up
52. Able to walk through house
53. Make coffee
54. Drink
55. Swallow (I remember when my mother couldn’t)
56. I’m scared. I’m scared about the future. I’m scared of loss. And loneliness. And decrepitation… Money…. But the gratitude is that I am moving forward. Less scared than used to be. Just keep going
57. Smiles every day
58. My principal smiles so often.
59. Nature
60. Plants pushing their way up through asphalt…
61. That I have been more gracious lately
62. I looked good yesterday
63. People always say I have good hair
64. I am a professional
65. And I appreciate others who behave like one too
66. I have never been poisoned
67. Art
68. Museums
69. Piano. That when I practice, pretty much I cannot oworry about things
70. And what a great lesson this is about mindfulness
71. And there’s something about hands and brain together. Typing too. I look away from the comp. and just type so much, so quickly. It is good for me.
72. Water
73. Trees
74. Touching them
75. Holding them
76. Standing or SITTING rooted with them
77. That I used to just NATURALLY do that.
78. When you are feeling that you are on the receiving end of junk energy or destabilization or what you might call environmental imbalance; come back into your body for a few minutes and see if that improves it.
So let us explain how that would look.
You are feeling off. You have been feeling off for a while. You remember what we are suggesting and you place a hand or two on any part of your torso that feels good. It might be your stomach, it might be your heart center, it might be your shoulders, but you place hands, palms face down, onto your body in order to help you physically locate the area to which you are going to return your energy center.
And in that moment, you simply say, “I return to me. I return to the home within me.” And in doing this, you give your energy field at its most expanded state an opportunity to remember its center rather than its perimeter, where much of the focus will be.
You will not even be conscious of this, but you will be picking up on things in the edge of your environment, the edges of people around you, the edges of the energy of the world. So coming back into your body and saying, “I return to me. I return to myself” will be highly helpful at this time.
~ The Z's through Lee Harris
More at Gaia Speaks ♬♡♫:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Gaia-speaks/222440331172144
79. My college graduation day.
80. My father’s eyes tearing that day
81. My Masters graduation day. With J’s family there
82. This ____
83. The way I helped the kids in the heat today
84. The nice chat I had with K
85. I am home with no REQUIREMENTS TONIGHT
86. That I play piano
87. That I talked with my mother on the phone
88. The GREAT time we had for like 9 hours on Thanksgiving.
89. People who do their jobs well.
90. This
91. Fair people
92. My healthy skin
93. And that it’s pretty too
94. The little jewelry I bought when out with O Monday
95. And the mascara and w lipsticks too. I do NOT do these things. I bought 1 lipstick over a year ago!
96. My pretty pocketbook that is cheerful to look at, and was a gift from M. (I don’t do THAT either)
97. That I do have “enough.”
98. IT DOESN’T REALLY MATTER WHAT THE FUCK OTHERS THINK
99. Mindfulness
100. Exercise opportunities abounding.
101. That it is staying light later now.
I am grateful:
1. The CBS 6:00 morning show. Just cheerful=acting people. Good for me to put that on in the mornings, at least for now.
2. I am grateful that I am breathing
3. And for the fear I felt n April. Yes, I am grateful for that fear.
4. Because, on April 23, I decided – or realized – how much I DO want to live.
5. Thursday. Good. I THINK nothing horrible today. …
6. A reminding me that I am in the top luckiest of people.
7. That I AM sensitive to the plight of so many on this earth. Do what I can with education and voting and prayer…
8. Him reminding me that I am free
9. Own home
10. Got my health back
11. Also said I have a pretty smile
12. And so many people say that
13. M keeps saying how funny I am
14. So does MA
15. And her niece
16. And ML
17. And O too
18. He also said, “No more grief. Sadness. Anger.”
19. And “Someone cares.
20. “Many care
21. and “Push away bad feeling
22. “Makes steady progress toward goals
23. “U can do it.” Those were helpful
24. I thanked him and he said, “No need to that it’s the truth”
25. O said, “Happiness takes work. You have to do it every day…”
26. My feet
27. My legs
28. My skin
29. Yesterday morning’s challenge went well
30. And noon one too
31. Afternoon one not as well but PROBABLY will not be a problem
32. Weekend soon
33. I have my dear dear birds
34. I try to take the best care of them
35. And always will
36. I let them free about twice a day
37. For hours
38. Sing to them
39. Hand feed them millet
40. Give them fresh organic greens. Baby greens. Lots of their favorite: kale
41. Try different fruits
42. Guy from online site called me last night. I THINK I will not have chemistry with him. BUT he is a decent guy I think.
43. Jo Frost. I love her! (She was the “Supernanny” and now has a new show on Tuesdays called Family SOS or something).
44. Coffe
45. Water
46. 3 kinds of organic kale here right now
47. I had some last night
48. Birds will have some today
49. These students. Best ever
50. I am lucky to be sitting here in the morning
51. Sitting up
52. Able to walk through house
53. Make coffee
54. Drink
55. Swallow (I remember when my mother couldn’t)
56. I’m scared. I’m scared about the future. I’m scared of loss. And loneliness. And decrepitation… Money…. But the gratitude is that I am moving forward. Less scared than used to be. Just keep going
57. Smiles every day
58. My principal smiles so often.
59. Nature
60. Plants pushing their way up through asphalt…
61. That I have been more gracious lately
62. I looked good yesterday
63. People always say I have good hair
64. I am a professional
65. And I appreciate others who behave like one too
66. I have never been poisoned
67. Art
68. Museums
69. Piano. That when I practice, pretty much I cannot oworry about things
70. And what a great lesson this is about mindfulness
71. And there’s something about hands and brain together. Typing too. I look away from the comp. and just type so much, so quickly. It is good for me.
72. Water
73. Trees
74. Touching them
75. Holding them
76. Standing or SITTING rooted with them
77. That I used to just NATURALLY do that.
78. When you are feeling that you are on the receiving end of junk energy or destabilization or what you might call environmental imbalance; come back into your body for a few minutes and see if that improves it.
So let us explain how that would look.
You are feeling off. You have been feeling off for a while. You remember what we are suggesting and you place a hand or two on any part of your torso that feels good. It might be your stomach, it might be your heart center, it might be your shoulders, but you place hands, palms face down, onto your body in order to help you physically locate the area to which you are going to return your energy center.
And in that moment, you simply say, “I return to me. I return to the home within me.” And in doing this, you give your energy field at its most expanded state an opportunity to remember its center rather than its perimeter, where much of the focus will be.
You will not even be conscious of this, but you will be picking up on things in the edge of your environment, the edges of people around you, the edges of the energy of the world. So coming back into your body and saying, “I return to me. I return to myself” will be highly helpful at this time.
~ The Z's through Lee Harris
More at Gaia Speaks ♬♡♫:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Gaia-speaks/222440331172144
79. My college graduation day.
80. My father’s eyes tearing that day
81. My Masters graduation day. With J’s family there
82. This ____
83. The way I helped the kids in the heat today
84. The nice chat I had with K
85. I am home with no REQUIREMENTS TONIGHT
86. That I play piano
87. That I talked with my mother on the phone
88. The GREAT time we had for like 9 hours on Thanksgiving.
89. People who do their jobs well.
90. This
91. Fair people
92. My healthy skin
93. And that it’s pretty too
94. The little jewelry I bought when out with O Monday
95. And the mascara and w lipsticks too. I do NOT do these things. I bought 1 lipstick over a year ago!
96. My pretty pocketbook that is cheerful to look at, and was a gift from M. (I don’t do THAT either)
97. That I do have “enough.”
98. IT DOESN’T REALLY MATTER WHAT THE FUCK OTHERS THINK
99. Mindfulness
100. Exercise opportunities abounding.
101. That it is staying light later now.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Look! 5 Bits of Bird Happiness
The first - who could be cuter?
Second - shows their colors better
Third - their little kissing game
Fourth and fifth - look like magic - the wings...
I love these birds
And
I remember when Birdie commented once, when I posted pics of other birds doing this from online and said, "These aren't my birds but look like." And she said, "Someday they WILL be your birds." And here ARE my birdy boys, doing JUST that! :) xoxoxo Summer and Jewel
_____
_____
_____
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Second - shows their colors better
Third - their little kissing game
Fourth and fifth - look like magic - the wings...
I love these birds
And
I remember when Birdie commented once, when I posted pics of other birds doing this from online and said, "These aren't my birds but look like." And she said, "Someday they WILL be your birds." And here ARE my birdy boys, doing JUST that! :) xoxoxo Summer and Jewel
_____
_____
_____
_____
grats
rushing to work today
must finish later
I am grateful:
1. the sleep I had last night
2. the dreams I had last night
3. that A didn’t harass me
4. coffee in the morning
5. that it helps my mood too
6. this morning, I woke up and the first word that came to me and slipped out of my mouth, was, “Fuck.” BUT I switched it immediately to God and prayed as I walked ab ut the house.
7. And I pray right now, ‘Thank you, God. For all ALL my blessing and gifts. Those I write here today and the many more that exist as well!
8. I am lucky to have enough food
9. And water
10. And heat
11. And shelter
12. And to have a job
13. And to work with people who mostly behave toward each other
14. And next door to my close friend
15. We (a few teachers) are giving a treat to kids today
16. This_____
17. Birds (outside)
18. My birds
19. That I can have them on my hand
20. I love love love the feel of their little feet on my hand
21. Innocence
22. My students. The best ever.
23. This________
must finish later
I am grateful:
1. the sleep I had last night
2. the dreams I had last night
3. that A didn’t harass me
4. coffee in the morning
5. that it helps my mood too
6. this morning, I woke up and the first word that came to me and slipped out of my mouth, was, “Fuck.” BUT I switched it immediately to God and prayed as I walked ab ut the house.
7. And I pray right now, ‘Thank you, God. For all ALL my blessing and gifts. Those I write here today and the many more that exist as well!
8. I am lucky to have enough food
9. And water
10. And heat
11. And shelter
12. And to have a job
13. And to work with people who mostly behave toward each other
14. And next door to my close friend
15. We (a few teachers) are giving a treat to kids today
16. This_____
17. Birds (outside)
18. My birds
19. That I can have them on my hand
20. I love love love the feel of their little feet on my hand
21. Innocence
22. My students. The best ever.
23. This________
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
My 100 Gratitudes Today
I am grateful: 
1. Breath
2. 1%. Who am I to complain about a thing? I am in the most fortunate 1% on the planet. No, I am not rich by any means. But I have
3. enough food
4. and medicine and shelter and a car
5. and some years enough clothes and shoes for work (I mean that very modestly – not a lot and not expensive)
6. and most years a coat
7. and gas for my car an heat for most of my house
8. and I get m hair cut
9. and colored
10. I am free
11. I have my birds
12. And a piano. That’s a luxury!
13. I can walk
14. And bend
15. And reach
16. I am told I have a pretty smile
17. Not in a war
18. Or a concentration camp
19. Or slavery
20. I am able to get through the days
21. I can exercise
22. Not victim of violent crime
23. Food for the birds
24. Veggies for me
25. And fruits
26. Water
27. Sofa
28. The foot bath thing I have
29. The 3 lb weights
30. Bubble bath
31. Soap
32. Shampoo and conditioner
33. Perfume
34. Fingernails. Really
35. Toenails. Really
36. Spent a little bit, frivolously, yesterday
37. I have mascara. This is NOT a necessity
38. I have lipstick. This is NOT a necessity
39. I have that face thing
40. And cream
41. That I don’t need to use often even because I have good young looking skin
42. I can see. Wow
43. I can see the flowers
44. And grasses
45. And trees
46. And sky
47. And children
48. And squirrels
49. And my birds
50. I can see my friends’ faces as we speak
51. This________
52. All I can do today, is what I can do today. AND THAT IS ENOUGH. It is ENOUGH.
53. Rocks
54. I have my health.
55. For today. AND I can do things to protect it, too
56. Dancing
57. This: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/luminita-daniela-saviuc/happiness-challenge_b_2573964.html
58. Facebook in the mornings.
59. The beautiful nature
60. and inspirational posts I get
61. And the art
62. And even some funny ones
63. And seeing friends there
This: Marianne Williamson
The only way to endure the insanity of the world is to become truly, deeply sane.
64. Mindfulness Meditation
65. This _____
66. Bananas
67. Grapes
68. Organic foods
69. L’s help about depression
70. Lambs
71. That I don’t eat animals
72. That I am compassionate
73. Everyone who is compassionate
74. The computer programs and skills my kids are learning
75. Phone
76. Answering machines
77. Reading
78. Books
79. My time with O yesterday
80. The 20 things about how my life is good, that A told me last night
81. “Abide”
82. Dudism. Really.
83. This _____
84. My mother’s love
85. I slept in the bed, not on the den sofa, last night
86. I do sleep
87. I have interesting dreams
88. I awakened before the alarm this morning
89. Playing piano. Something about the engagement of the mind and body together at once.
90. The baseball games I went to with J
91. How we would walk and talk for hours
92. The love he had for me. Yes, I am very grateful for it.
93. Hope
94. New beginnings
95. THIS was a cool find this morning! Because I remember VIVIDLY when I DID worry about this. And now, I don’t! So things DO change. That is PROOF! Yay.
96. This ____
97. Birds. Outside
98. Our colorful, beautiful world
99. Cool weather today
100. This _____
1. Breath
2. 1%. Who am I to complain about a thing? I am in the most fortunate 1% on the planet. No, I am not rich by any means. But I have
3. enough food
4. and medicine and shelter and a car
5. and some years enough clothes and shoes for work (I mean that very modestly – not a lot and not expensive)
6. and most years a coat
7. and gas for my car an heat for most of my house
8. and I get m hair cut
9. and colored
10. I am free
11. I have my birds
12. And a piano. That’s a luxury!
13. I can walk
14. And bend
15. And reach
16. I am told I have a pretty smile
17. Not in a war
18. Or a concentration camp
19. Or slavery
20. I am able to get through the days
21. I can exercise
22. Not victim of violent crime
23. Food for the birds
24. Veggies for me
25. And fruits
26. Water
27. Sofa
28. The foot bath thing I have
29. The 3 lb weights
30. Bubble bath
31. Soap
32. Shampoo and conditioner
33. Perfume
34. Fingernails. Really
35. Toenails. Really
36. Spent a little bit, frivolously, yesterday
37. I have mascara. This is NOT a necessity
38. I have lipstick. This is NOT a necessity
39. I have that face thing
40. And cream
41. That I don’t need to use often even because I have good young looking skin
42. I can see. Wow
43. I can see the flowers
44. And grasses
45. And trees
46. And sky
47. And children
48. And squirrels
49. And my birds
50. I can see my friends’ faces as we speak
51. This________
52. All I can do today, is what I can do today. AND THAT IS ENOUGH. It is ENOUGH.
53. Rocks
54. I have my health.
55. For today. AND I can do things to protect it, too
56. Dancing
57. This: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/luminita-daniela-saviuc/happiness-challenge_b_2573964.html
58. Facebook in the mornings.
59. The beautiful nature
60. and inspirational posts I get
61. And the art
62. And even some funny ones
63. And seeing friends there
This: Marianne Williamson
The only way to endure the insanity of the world is to become truly, deeply sane.
64. Mindfulness Meditation
65. This _____
66. Bananas
67. Grapes
68. Organic foods
69. L’s help about depression
70. Lambs
71. That I don’t eat animals
72. That I am compassionate
73. Everyone who is compassionate
74. The computer programs and skills my kids are learning
75. Phone
76. Answering machines
77. Reading
78. Books
79. My time with O yesterday
80. The 20 things about how my life is good, that A told me last night
81. “Abide”
82. Dudism. Really.
83. This _____
84. My mother’s love
85. I slept in the bed, not on the den sofa, last night
86. I do sleep
87. I have interesting dreams
88. I awakened before the alarm this morning
89. Playing piano. Something about the engagement of the mind and body together at once.
90. The baseball games I went to with J
91. How we would walk and talk for hours
92. The love he had for me. Yes, I am very grateful for it.
93. Hope
94. New beginnings
95. THIS was a cool find this morning! Because I remember VIVIDLY when I DID worry about this. And now, I don’t! So things DO change. That is PROOF! Yay.
96. This ____
97. Birds. Outside
98. Our colorful, beautiful world
99. Cool weather today
100. This _____
The 7 Day Happiness Challenge
I did day 1 and then forgot all about it. Starting again today.
Okay, here it is:
Day One: Practice Tolerance and Acceptance
Look around for things you find irritating, people who might act in nasty ways, events that might not be going as you would want them to go, and practice tolerance and acceptance toward them. Let them be as they are without trying to change them, without trying to interfere, and accept them completely.
"Acceptance of one's life has nothing to do with resignation; it does not mean running away from the struggle. On the contrary, it means accepting it as it comes, with all the handicaps of heredity, of suffering, of psychological complexes and injustices." -- Paul Tournier
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Okay, here it is:
Day One: Practice Tolerance and Acceptance
Look around for things you find irritating, people who might act in nasty ways, events that might not be going as you would want them to go, and practice tolerance and acceptance toward them. Let them be as they are without trying to change them, without trying to interfere, and accept them completely.
"Acceptance of one's life has nothing to do with resignation; it does not mean running away from the struggle. On the contrary, it means accepting it as it comes, with all the handicaps of heredity, of suffering, of psychological complexes and injustices." -- Paul Tournier
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Monday, May 27, 2013
My 100 Gratitudes Today
The truth is, I am more fortunate than about 90% of the people in the world. I want to stop complaining about feelings. My gosh, how many people would love the "luxury" of being able to focus on their feelings.
I am especially grateful that I am not suffering depression today.
And grateful for all those who have fought for our freedom. And of course grateful to all who have lost their lives, or their loved ones. People I've known and people I haven't known.
May we never forget them.
I am grateful:
1. The upcoming recital, in which I shall play
2. My friend O
3. I will spend much of the day with M today
4. A’s friendship
5. The earth
6. Goodness.
7. Trees
8. Bushes
9. Hedges
10. Plants
11. Flowers
12. Grasses
13. Sand
14. Water
15. Oceans
16. Rivers
17. Lkes
18. Brooks
19. Streams
20. Sky
21. Snow
22. Rain
23. Clouds
24. Air
25. Breezes
26. Salt water
27. And fresh too
28. Fish
29. Sharks
30. Whales
31. Dolphins
32. Seahorses
33. Horses
34. Wild horses
35. Dogs
36. Wolves
37. Leopards
38. Cheetahs
39. Pumas
40. Lions
41. Tigers
42. Yes bears lol
43. Polar bears
44. Birds. Of course birds birds birds
45. My salary
46. Sports fields
47. Woods
48. Forests
49. Jungles
50. Bicycles
51. Walking
52. Running
53. Jogging
54. Breathing on my own
55. Eyedrops
56. Heroes
57. Of all sorts
58. The fragrance of lilacs
59. And of hyacinth
60. The ong-lasting nature of marigolds
61. Tulips in indoor pots
62. And outdoors in large fields
63. Monkeys
64. Gorillas
65. Orangutans
66. People who avoid palm oil, on behalf of stopping the absolute torture of the orangutans
67. Puppies
68. Cats
69. Kittens
70. Summer and jewel
71. Movies
72. Concerts
73. Museums
74. Birdsong
75. “My” oak tree
76. my bamboo
77. my amazing maple tree I forget what it’s called and I can literally sit UNDER its canopy. I LOVE that.
78. that I do live within my means
79. and that I always have
80. today off
81. salads
82. artichokes
83. grapes
84. whole grain bread
85. whole grain pasta
86. water. drinking water
87. that I was SO fit.
88. Proving my body CAN do it.
89. And it DOES recover quicly…
90. Medicines when needed
91. That I don’t need many
92. That I have a car
93. And a home
94. I am grateful that I had great plans with M and was looking forward to a lighthearted day.
95. And I am grateful that I’m ok that she just had to cancel
96. That I am not depressed right now. That is a big gratitude in itself!
97. Rainbows
98. Jesus
99. Buddha
100. IMing
I am especially grateful that I am not suffering depression today.
And grateful for all those who have fought for our freedom. And of course grateful to all who have lost their lives, or their loved ones. People I've known and people I haven't known.
May we never forget them.
I am grateful:
1. The upcoming recital, in which I shall play
2. My friend O
3. I will spend much of the day with M today
4. A’s friendship
5. The earth
6. Goodness.
7. Trees
8. Bushes
9. Hedges
10. Plants
11. Flowers
12. Grasses
13. Sand
14. Water
15. Oceans
16. Rivers
17. Lkes
18. Brooks
19. Streams
20. Sky
21. Snow
22. Rain
23. Clouds
24. Air
25. Breezes
26. Salt water
27. And fresh too
28. Fish
29. Sharks
30. Whales
31. Dolphins
32. Seahorses
33. Horses
34. Wild horses
35. Dogs
36. Wolves
37. Leopards
38. Cheetahs
39. Pumas
40. Lions
41. Tigers
42. Yes bears lol
43. Polar bears
44. Birds. Of course birds birds birds
45. My salary
46. Sports fields
47. Woods
48. Forests
49. Jungles
50. Bicycles
51. Walking
52. Running
53. Jogging
54. Breathing on my own
55. Eyedrops
56. Heroes
57. Of all sorts
58. The fragrance of lilacs
59. And of hyacinth
60. The ong-lasting nature of marigolds
61. Tulips in indoor pots
62. And outdoors in large fields
63. Monkeys
64. Gorillas
65. Orangutans
66. People who avoid palm oil, on behalf of stopping the absolute torture of the orangutans
67. Puppies
68. Cats
69. Kittens
70. Summer and jewel
71. Movies
72. Concerts
73. Museums
74. Birdsong
75. “My” oak tree
76. my bamboo
77. my amazing maple tree I forget what it’s called and I can literally sit UNDER its canopy. I LOVE that.
78. that I do live within my means
79. and that I always have
80. today off
81. salads
82. artichokes
83. grapes
84. whole grain bread
85. whole grain pasta
86. water. drinking water
87. that I was SO fit.
88. Proving my body CAN do it.
89. And it DOES recover quicly…
90. Medicines when needed
91. That I don’t need many
92. That I have a car
93. And a home
94. I am grateful that I had great plans with M and was looking forward to a lighthearted day.
95. And I am grateful that I’m ok that she just had to cancel
96. That I am not depressed right now. That is a big gratitude in itself!
97. Rainbows
98. Jesus
99. Buddha
100. IMing
Sunday, May 26, 2013
My 100 Gratitudes Today
I am grateful!
1. I woke up from that icky dream.
2. I am here and now.
3. A. said that I was his best friend.
4. That meant so much to me.
5. He tells me things he has never told anyone else.
6. It will only be friendship, ever. I am so happy for the friendship.
7. Flowers
8. These ________
9. So many of our dreams at first seems impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable. ~Christopher Reeve ___________
10. This _______
11. This ____
12. Facebook page Painting the World
13. Friendships
14. Tomorrow is day off
15. And I DO remember why. All those. All those.
16. Art
17. Modern art
18. MA calling yesterday
19. And M
20. Facebook page Believe
21. Health. Everything would change if (will change when) don’t have health. So lucky not worried about that today
22. ***April 23 of this year. When I decided I want to live. Realized how MUCH I want to live.
23. I have never been in a war
24. My father was in WWII and lived through it.
25. As did all my uncles.
26. Reiki
27. How fortunate I am just in terms of Reiki. I have a friend who is a Reiki master of the absolute highest integrity.
28. J found her for me when I couldn’t speak for the better part of 8 months.
29. She has given me Reiki.
30. A number of times
31. And whole-body-dimensional massage or whatever it’s called. More than massage. Spiritual…
32. And initiated me into Reiki Level I
33. And, as she was about to move away, including J. too. For less than half the price of one person, both of us
34. It took 9 hours. So good
35. And then years later, she initiated us both into Reiki Level II
36. That took 2 days (with meals and sleep of course)
37. We stayed overnight at the house where she was living. A small mansion. About a block from the ocean. **She does NOT have money. It belonged to someone else and she was caring for it for a few months.
38. And we spent a bit of time at the beach too.
39. And I can give Reiki to others.
40. For money even.
41. But I have never charged. I give it out of love. I am so happy about that.
42. And I have given Reiki to my lilac tree
43. And other plants in the ground
44. And rings
45. And a poor just dead animal in the woods
46. And myself. She always reminds me of the importance of THAT!
47. And I have given Reiki to L
48. More than once
49. And to A online
50. And to victims of a disaster long-range
51. My sunroom. I finally have it.
52. Heat will be put in. **I didn’t build it! Don’t have the money. It was there but unusable. It is finally usable. After decades. Has been for a couple of years now. Now just needs heat.
53. This_____If the stars should appear but one night every thousand years how we would marvel and stare. --Ralph Waldo Emerson
54. And this_______
55. Fb page Beyond the Veil Where the Angels Ascend
56. Poetry
57. A lighter heart than I used to have
58. Gorillas
59. The movie Gorillas in the Mist
60. Koko. And that wonderful book, “Koko’s Kitten.”
61. That my kiddies have loved Winnie the Pooh so much.
62. And Koko’s Kitten
63. The book The Secret Garden
64. Pellets organic – for the birds
65. And seed
66. And fresh baby organic greens for them too
67. Coffee for me
68. And fresh baby organic greens for ME too! Lol
69. Water. Always grateful for water
70. The beautiful markings on my birds’ backs, between their wings. Summer’s, like a purplish blue between white wings. Jewel’s a unique beautiful green between wings with a lot of yellow.
71. I played AND practiced piano SO MUCH yesterday.
72. And some of it was well-done! Really!
73. IMing
74. Phones
75. Woods
76. Sand
77. Potting soil
78. Indoor house plants
79. Plants that are safe for parakeets
80. Grapes for them to try today
81. I felt like a full being last night for a while. Even though my feelings were hurt but something. That is good
82. I am able to turn things around unusually well. Everybody says it. Sees it. Knows it.
83. Health
84. Fitness
85. Strength
86. Mood. Although takes longer and more work lately
87. My good book, “Women Who Run with the Wolves.” Reading it VERY slowly. Liking it so far.
88. Flight.
89. Flight for my birdies
90. Lamps
91. Electricity
92. Heat
93. Wood floors
94. Colorful things
95. That I have been to the Tate Museum
96. Native American poetry.
97. The partial camping trip J and I took. It was fun.
98. The time Ji and I went to go camping, but went to the Hilton instead! Funny. In our twenties…
99. The park so near my house.
100. My friend has been waiting weeks for her special present to arrive at my house. The surprise. I just found out! I have had it all along!!!!!!! I thought I'd ordered it! It is a book. I thought I'd ordered it used. It has been hers for 20 years! What a treasure. And what a happy surprise.
1. I woke up from that icky dream.
2. I am here and now.
3. A. said that I was his best friend.
4. That meant so much to me.
5. He tells me things he has never told anyone else.
6. It will only be friendship, ever. I am so happy for the friendship.
7. Flowers
8. These ________
9. So many of our dreams at first seems impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable. ~Christopher Reeve ___________
10. This _______
11. This ____
12. Facebook page Painting the World
13. Friendships
14. Tomorrow is day off
15. And I DO remember why. All those. All those.
16. Art
17. Modern art
18. MA calling yesterday
19. And M
20. Facebook page Believe
21. Health. Everything would change if (will change when) don’t have health. So lucky not worried about that today
22. ***April 23 of this year. When I decided I want to live. Realized how MUCH I want to live.
23. I have never been in a war
24. My father was in WWII and lived through it.
25. As did all my uncles.
26. Reiki
27. How fortunate I am just in terms of Reiki. I have a friend who is a Reiki master of the absolute highest integrity.
28. J found her for me when I couldn’t speak for the better part of 8 months.
29. She has given me Reiki.
30. A number of times
31. And whole-body-dimensional massage or whatever it’s called. More than massage. Spiritual…
32. And initiated me into Reiki Level I
33. And, as she was about to move away, including J. too. For less than half the price of one person, both of us
34. It took 9 hours. So good
35. And then years later, she initiated us both into Reiki Level II
36. That took 2 days (with meals and sleep of course)
37. We stayed overnight at the house where she was living. A small mansion. About a block from the ocean. **She does NOT have money. It belonged to someone else and she was caring for it for a few months.
38. And we spent a bit of time at the beach too.
39. And I can give Reiki to others.
40. For money even.
41. But I have never charged. I give it out of love. I am so happy about that.
42. And I have given Reiki to my lilac tree
43. And other plants in the ground
44. And rings
45. And a poor just dead animal in the woods
46. And myself. She always reminds me of the importance of THAT!
47. And I have given Reiki to L
48. More than once
49. And to A online
50. And to victims of a disaster long-range
51. My sunroom. I finally have it.
52. Heat will be put in. **I didn’t build it! Don’t have the money. It was there but unusable. It is finally usable. After decades. Has been for a couple of years now. Now just needs heat.
53. This_____If the stars should appear but one night every thousand years how we would marvel and stare. --Ralph Waldo Emerson
54. And this_______
55. Fb page Beyond the Veil Where the Angels Ascend
56. Poetry
57. A lighter heart than I used to have
58. Gorillas
59. The movie Gorillas in the Mist
60. Koko. And that wonderful book, “Koko’s Kitten.”
61. That my kiddies have loved Winnie the Pooh so much.
62. And Koko’s Kitten
63. The book The Secret Garden
64. Pellets organic – for the birds
65. And seed
66. And fresh baby organic greens for them too
67. Coffee for me
68. And fresh baby organic greens for ME too! Lol
69. Water. Always grateful for water
70. The beautiful markings on my birds’ backs, between their wings. Summer’s, like a purplish blue between white wings. Jewel’s a unique beautiful green between wings with a lot of yellow.
71. I played AND practiced piano SO MUCH yesterday.
72. And some of it was well-done! Really!
73. IMing
74. Phones
75. Woods
76. Sand
77. Potting soil
78. Indoor house plants
79. Plants that are safe for parakeets
80. Grapes for them to try today
81. I felt like a full being last night for a while. Even though my feelings were hurt but something. That is good
82. I am able to turn things around unusually well. Everybody says it. Sees it. Knows it.
83. Health
84. Fitness
85. Strength
86. Mood. Although takes longer and more work lately
87. My good book, “Women Who Run with the Wolves.” Reading it VERY slowly. Liking it so far.
88. Flight.
89. Flight for my birdies
90. Lamps
91. Electricity
92. Heat
93. Wood floors
94. Colorful things
95. That I have been to the Tate Museum
96. Native American poetry.
97. The partial camping trip J and I took. It was fun.
98. The time Ji and I went to go camping, but went to the Hilton instead! Funny. In our twenties…
99. The park so near my house.
100. My friend has been waiting weeks for her special present to arrive at my house. The surprise. I just found out! I have had it all along!!!!!!! I thought I'd ordered it! It is a book. I thought I'd ordered it used. It has been hers for 20 years! What a treasure. And what a happy surprise.
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