The Magic

September 29, now really 30, 2014

Count your blessings. Make a list of ten blessings. Write why you’re grateful. Reread your list, and at the end of each blessing say thank you, thank you, thank you, and feel as grateful for that blessing as you can.

I am truly blessed to have food and water

Because think of all I can do in the time I would otherwise have to use struggling for food and water.

Not to mention the sickness and even the emotional energy.

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am so happy and grateful for this feeling in my – abs? obliques?

Because it is an awareness of self. Of body. Of strength!

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am truly grateful for the exercise that brings this!

Because I never would have thought that I’d love exercise, or even DO it!

Thank you thank you thank you!

With all my heart, thank you for my book: Teach, Breathe, Learn

Because it is helping ME as well as my students! (Mindfulness)

Thank you thank you thank you!                                                                                                       

I am truly blessed to have had that Hay House day a week ago Saturday

Because it stays inside me and affects me positively. And I’ve shared it with MA, M, and Ma and L too.

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am so happy and grateful for my trip to England

Because I did it! And by myself! And I LOVED it! And I always have that inside me too!

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am truly grateful for my increasing patience.

Because it is keeping friendships for me

And good for others

Including students…

Thank you thank you thank you!

With all my heart, thank you for my time at the nail salon on Sunday

Because by accident I asked for a spa pedicure. And my skin on hands, legs and feet STILL feels good! A good accident!

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am so incredibly fortunate and lucky and grateful for whatEVER is helping me reduce cravings! Whether it’s Shakeology, or exercise, or mind-shift, or any combination, God, whatever!

Because I am making so many better decisions now!

Thank you thank you thank you!

I am so incredibly fortunate and lucky and grateful for my thick, pretty hair and for that gratitude -

Because it is a light silly thing to be grateful for and I need that too!

Thank you thank you thank you!

Thank you thank you thank you!

2. Remember The magic by counting the blessings of yesterday and writing them down. Ask yourself the question: What are the good things that happened yesterday? Scan the surface of yesterday until you feel satisfied that you’ve remembered and written down all the blessings of the day.

1.      Kids are great

2.      Nurse was with me for am. I love when she’s there instead of aide

3.      We gardened. Great.

4.      Exercised!

5.      It was great!

6.      Did the abs instead of pilates. HATE pilates. It makes me feel nauseous

7.      Fresh arugula. Bought it by accident. Another happy accident. Yum

8.      Got a lot done on my Option A paper for work

9.      Read some of Teach, Breathe, Learn. Loving it!

10.   Read some of Elizabeth book

11.   Did NOT get talked into a certain something that I didn’t want to do! Getting stronger!

J

1.      Thank you for being noble

2.      Thank you that we have a date soon

3.      Thank you for doing the taxes

4.      Thank you for taking such good care of your looks

5.      Thank you so much for still doing for my mother!

6.      Thank you for all the laughter we always had and still have

7.      Thank you for the great kissing all those years

8.      Thank you for the hugs currently

9.      Thank you for being good saving on money all those years

10.   Thank you for all the great vacations together!

Thank you thank you thank you!

Health

1.      Thank you for eyesight and improvemets even!

2.      Thank you for the Andres Lessman Ultimate Eye Support vitamins which I believe are helping!

3.      Thank you for the better eating, the weight loss happening, and all the greens, which are also helping, I’m sure!

4.      Thank you for my liver working without me even thinking about it!

5.      Thank you for my muscles! Gaining in strength daily! AND – they help metabolism and it becomes a cycle!

6.      Thank you for my ability to walk!

7.      Thank you for my ability to speak! I remember when I couldn’t for the better part of 8 months

8.      Thank you for my ability to smell. The scents of fall, of spring, of flowers, of cinnamon, of coffee, of chocolate, of puppies… : )

9.      Thank you for my ability to think and read and play piano – all these multiple systems thing!

10.   Thank you for my ability to hear!

Thank you thank you thank you!

What I Love about My Life RIGHT NOW!

1.    My dear birds. I am so grateful that I get to share my life with sweet birds! And that they are happy and healthy and chatting all day and dancing and playing and flying … And eevn cute xo

2.    My great dear students. They are truly their age, not like middle school girls in 7-year-old bodies!

3.    I am so happy to have found the 21 Day Fix! Or rather, that it found me! It showed up on my fb stream one day and wow, it is helping change my life.

4.    I am SO grateful for that Hay House day last Saturday! I will write later about specifically more of what I learned! Needed to “sleep on it,” needed for it to gel. Wow!

5.    I am grateful, very very grateful, for my health!

6.    And I am so happy to have Shakeology.

7.    I love M. and her girls and do SO appreciate them in my life!

8.    I am happy to be employed and doing something meaningful to me.

9.    That I have a home

10.                  That I do not have cancer

11.                  That I am not in an iron lung.

12.                  That I can read.

13.                  That I have so many positive things to read

14.                  That I play piano

15.                  That I have a piano

16.                  That I have a piano in my classroom even too

17.                  That I am smart

18.                  I am grateful for enough money to spend on foods and lots of good foods

19.                  I am so grateful for my improvements in strengths and abilities from the exercising so far already

20.                  And that AS OF LAST NIGHT, it is gelling that I am MORE interested in the feeling in my muscles than in overeating! That is first time ever!

21.                  I am grateful for positive people

22.                  And for hearing about being and allowing and expressing myself.

23.                  I am grateful for Vegetarian Times magazine, which should be coming any day now.

24.                  I am grateful for Barnes & Nobles

25.                  And for my Nook

26.                  And for my laptop

27.                  And for my tv

28.                  And for Cable

29.                  And for electricity

30.                  And for my heated mattress pad, which I’ll be using soon…

31.                  I am grateful that I came home (because ill feeling) yesterday. And lay in dark. With tv soft soft, and birds, and light breeze coming in from open window.

32.                  I am grateful for safety

33.                  That I can drive

34.                  And safely too

35.                  I am so grateful that A helped me today! Was sinking!

36.                  And that I helped L, who was starting to sink too!

37.                  I am grateful that white bean chili is inside cooking right now

38.                  I am grateful that people are noticing that I’m losing weight and getting tighter

39.                  And that I asked M to switch next Sun from 5 pm to 12 pm.

40.                  And she did! (I cannot get home at like 8 on a Sunday)

41.                  I am grateful that I did my mother’s shopping today

42.                  And mine

43.                  And for the hot spices and the artichoke hearts and the sweet potato that are in this stew

44.                  And the organic beefsteak tomatoes omg! That I wound up not having to even pay for (I would NOT have paid THAT price)

45.                  What delicious tomatoes!

46.                  I am grateful for the Sahkeology shake I’ve been having in the morning! Vegan chocolate Shakeology with frozen broccoli cuts and frozen strawberries and blueberries. So thick and icy I need a spoon and it tastes like it is chocolate ice cream with fruit blended in. But is so healthy!

47.                  I am SO GRATEFUL for access to fresh, frozen and canned vegetables and fruits

48.                  And nuts

49.                  And seeds

50.                  and coconut flakes

51.                  I am grateful for my friend in Ecuador, my friend in England, my friend in South Carolina, and so on!

52.                  I am grateful that I am helping children.

53.                  I am grateful for hope.

54.                  I am grateful for the beautiful sandwich I just had

55.                  And for water

56.                  And for coffee : )

57.                  I am grateful for garbage pickup

58.                  And for the laundry here in the cellar

59.                  I am grateful for growth and change

60.                  And for every minute of optimism I have

Today's Big Gratitude

is for
exercise and Shakeology

I just did Upper Fix (2nd day of 21 Day Fix dvds)
While I can still not do one pushup except on knees, and literally scream through the scissor-twists (modified!), I can now do a plank the official way for 50 seconds. Improvement noted!
And I am now enjoying the most amazing Shakeology: cold water, one green container of frozen broccoli, one purple container half full of frozen strawberries and half full of frozen blueberries, and vegan chocolate Shakeo. Omg! How can something for which I need a spoon(!), that feels and tastes like I'm eating blended chocolate ice cream with fruit, be so healthy!
I am very grateful!

Mostly, because it is affected my MOOD!
I am so FUCKING. SICK. OF DEPRESSION!!!!! AND FEAR!!!!
I have DECIDED to fight it and win!
Or to gentle it and win....

Very grateful.

IF YOU READ ONLY ONE THING! READ THE LAST PARAGRAPH!

From the Hay House day, last Saturday.

Last paragraph is after the last red part.

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From Wayne Dyer:

Every burning desire inside you was placed there by the same power that opens the rose.

This interiority of yours – wants to expand. It is not finite. It is infinite.

And anyone that tries to stop it, it resists.

“Once you label me, you negate me.”

***Just get into a state of awe about this universe that you live in that is infinite and so are you.

There can be no individuality if the same intelligence is in everything and everyone.

This divine intelligence that’s growing your fingernails. Just devote 1 hour a day to this impersonal self making it 1^st in your life.

And it WILL become conscious. And before long!

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Kris Carr:

FEEL your feelings

Don’t push things down!

She had put things on hold even though they were moving forward.

She had put her dreams on hold even though things were moving forward.

Every time you remember the bad, you relive it all.

Her: “I stopped after 9 years, doing things for cancer, for love, approval, relationship,… and tumors for FIRST TIME – SHRANK!

When fear risks, no potential for huge breakthroughs

NOW – DO IT!! There is NOTHING to lose!

Have a green drink every day!

Recipes: Juice: cucumber, lemon, kale, celery, apple or pear/

Kale salad: Lemon on washed kale. Massage it.  Add avocado.

Smoothie: Avocado, cucumber, banana, blueberries, spinach.

Acceptance means not abandoning yourSELF.

And not criticizing yourself

The PURPOSE for you life is joy. EVERY DAY!

***AT THIS POINT I WROTE in my little journal,

“I

am a wonderful

bright pretty funny

sexy smart compassionate

trustworthy fun person

A great guy WILL

Love me

  If he doesn’t (J) SO WHAT!

--

Nancy Levin

Your greatest gift is giving voice to your truth

And when you do there is no wrong way to live your life

--

Anita Moorjani

Everything is dependent on how worthy you think you are

When you make the commitment to yourSELF that you are really gonna be there for yourSELF, then you are not afraid.

Because you always have yourself – accepting and caring for…

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While listening to the For the Sender singer/songwriter, Alex Woodard, I jotted this:

I need to help save animals or foster children

Or something

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Dr. Christiane Northrup

The most important things you can do:

1.      Change the way you think

2.      Lower your blood sugar.

3.      Do that exercise (it was a little 20 second run in place with arms too, then rest then do, 8 x – even 3 times a week she said). (and the stand on one foot and close eyes and hold balance. Then other foot. Daily. And the sitting differently like all kinds of ways – butt out hands out – hands over head etc etc etc. and not sit SO MUCH)

The three things healthy happy active centegenarians have been found to have are:

1.      Exalted emotion

2.      Elevated cognition

3.      Righteous anger (as in standing up for someone else or yourself innocent)

Centeganarians: “I don’t go to doctors. They’re all dead.”

Live in a [sic] of agelessness

They also have boundaries – do NOT participate in co-dependent relationships!

Northrup says we must:

Take care of our own time

Put our own needs 1^st.

If we’re not for us, who is going to be

Elevated emotions:

Joy, compassion, revelry

We need a tribe with whom we can be ourselves and share ideas.

But all tribes wound their members (she quotes a book) in 3 ways:

Abandonment

Betrayal

Shame

This “People are dying – who are we to be happy” mentality has to stop

Be wildly joyous and happy for self!

(and it helps people)

(But we won’t fit in that original tribe)

We must have Rituals of Pleasure

Ad it can be anything: including good chocolate, a good drink…

You don’t have to finish it – the ritual is the point)

Everything is allowed if it is a high holy ritual of pleasure.

(hers is every evening rice cake with pb and 16 60% chocolate chips) and she uses the biomat.

A couple of meals a week we must “break bread” together. Not all meals alone.

Law of attraction

Now we have the whole world to choose from when picking your [sic] of agelessness in social media!

We:

Need to LEARN how to savor

Share our good feelings with others – including bragging like the tango -coming and going

At this point I wrote:

I have nothing to prove.

I.Am. Light. (which comes from Wayne Dyer’s meditation).

I am part of the sacred.

Everything about me is sacred.

I am sacred.

She ended by talking about her cat. And how a cat will scan a room and find the most luxurious surface and take that.

And how she holds the door for her cat for long times while cat is deciding, Do I want to go out? Yes. No. Maybe. No. Yes….

And she said, I’m standing there, 2 New York Times #1 bestsellers etc etc… doing it. Why?

Because her confidence (cat’s) is THAT big. I want YOU go out there and have THAT.

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Since 1984 I have been obsessed with J.

I feel now, that although I SO want to be with him, and SO wish it could work out,

I accept.

It is what it is.

If he doesn’t want me, I shall live anyway.

It has taken a LONG time and been a hard-working road to get to this.

I thought I never would.

I am so grateful.

Nervous a little, but grateful and very very hopeful!

Northrup:

“Thoughts and beliefs with a high, ecstatic vibration create a flourishing life and flourishing biology.” She went on to say that your BIOLOGY changes! Hormones – neurotransmitters.

    Start RIGHT NOW – FOCUSING on what is good and uplifting.

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