did for mother and

only because
even i in my depression and selfishness
don't have the lack of heart to leave
my poor decrepitating elderly sick mother
in need

2 hours
and guess what
wound up being the
greatest therapy for ME

thank you God

keep chuggin
keep tryin
don't give up

and take EJ's advice (on email cause comments wouldn't come through from her device)
read a regular book not self-help
and Watch Roseanne, eat greens, take a walk, play with birdies. Read a wonderful book that isn't about healing but just about reading a wonderful book. East of Eden. The Good House. State of Wonder. The care and come out stronger the other side.
i am so grateful for her