#27 is HUGE! HUGE!
1.
Went out already
this am
2.
It was dark
3.
And I loved it
4.
Sat in parking
lot of 7-11 and meditated
5.
Bought coffee
6.
2
7.
pumpkin spice
8.
and blueberry
9.
having now. Yum
10.
spoke with M on
phone already
11.
Phew that we’re
close again
12.
MA yesterday – I
offered reading date
13.
She couldn’t do,
and offered late (after my course) lunch, but I couldn’t do. But all was fie.
14.
That ride to
course in city yesterday.
15.
By self
16.
and easy
17.
and enjoyed
18.
And the little
walks too
19.
And the thought –
the feeling – that I shouldn’t WORRY about the future – like getting old and
sick and being alone
20.
As long as I have
my health I have everything
21.
And I have it
today.
22.
Enjoy today.
23.
And keep moving
and eating veggies and losing weight.
24.
And expect the
best (plan but that’s different)/
25.
And enjoy the DAY
26.
And meditation
helps with that
27.
***For many years
– decades really - I would get this really bad junk-food-binge-hangover. It was
horrible. But – I didn’t realize until now that it is gone, that there was
actually a fog over EVERYTHING. All the time. Ever since J went kind of crazy.
(long long before he left me). And the more it was there the more dependent I
became. And the more dependent I became, the more it grew and grew and grew. I
mean, I got to the point where I was nervous about 7-11. Afraid to use a stamp
machine. Thought J driving me to that same place where I went yesterday for my
course, was the only way I could get there. Because like he had some magic and
I didn’t have it. EVERYTHING had this haze. Every walk, every woods, ever
restaurant, every trip, every everything. Was like steeped in a haze and only
someone would the magic could get through it and I didn’t’ have the magic. Holy
moly! I didn’t know until now that it’s gone. And the point – the gratitude –
is – IT’S GONE! Oh my God, I am SO grateful!
28.
That if there’s
hope for me, there’s hope for anybody!
29.
And maybe
somebody reading this will be helped.
30.
Comedies
31.
Loving my book
that I must finish this weekend
32.
Summer not afraid
to come out now. Phew.
33.
Both are out
right now: )
34.
Singing
35.
Getting a little
exercise…
36.
That I have these
birds
37.
That I love these
birds
38.
That my stomach
is starting to settle down, after money talk with A. Uh oh. About MY financial
future: ( But settling down. Phew.
39.
My lungs
40.
My heart
41.
My breath. So
grateful for these things
42.
A day off today
43.
The great stuff I
learned yesterday
44.
Organic spelt
bread (although I expect I might give up wheat products soon…)
45.
Organic bananas
46.
Organic peanut
buter
47.
Jewel is bouncing
and appearing very happy right now! And playing: )
48.
And Summer seems
less afraid! Yay!
49.
The DASH diet.
Which I am starting again this weekend.
50.
I would really
like to eat that way for life.
51.
My health food
store
52.
My A & P
53.
My car
54.
That I can drive
55.
That I am able to
carry groceries up the stairs
56.
That I have a
fridge for them
57.
I have medicines
as needed. Am very lucky.
58.
That I am a very
good teacher. Very. Really.
59.
Must be MYSELF.
60.
Think am pretty
much ready to be
61.
Even the bird’s
cage looks so nice now. The toys etc.
62.
I will change
them in another week. Every TWO weeks seems to be good for my birdy boys.
63.
Honest people
64.
That I can see
65.
And speak
66.
And walk
67.
Both my hands
68.
And all my
fingers. So grateful. Yes
69.
Woods
70.
And parks
71.
And beaches
72.
Laughter
73.
Gonna have
breakfast soon.
74.
That never have
to worry about starving (although DO need to lose weight lol)
75.
This book: The
Dash Diet Action Plan. By Marla Heller, MS, RD
76.
This book: The
Light between Oceans. By M.L. Steman
77.
I am blessed to
be alive
78.
And to value the
counting my blessings
79.
And will do grats
(at appropriate level) with kiddies in November
80.
Chances
81.
Hope
82.
Enough money to
live
83.
A kind of sister
in M
84.
Kandinsky
85.
Beautiful jewel-covered
falling leaves
86.
That I realized
that that guy from match . com was a scammer! Realized in time. Phew
87.
Dr says do NOT
get involved with W. Even as a friend. Okay then
88.
That I SAW dr.
After six WEEKS of not!
89.
That I can
swallow fine. When my mother couldn’t it was such a hard life for her!
90.
Clever posts like
this one: ________
91.
Honest people
92.
People who help
animals.
93.
You, if you are
reading this!
94.
Ethiopian food
yesterday
95.
Good breakfast
today
96.
Inspirational
posts
97.
IMing (sometimes:
)
98.
Electricity
99.
Lights
100.
My piano
101.
My piano in the
classroom
102.
Music
103.
Classical composers
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