I am grateful:
1.
For the book,
“The Power.”
2.
That it is not
even pretending we can someone ELSE.
3.
Nor do I believe
that! (A was afraid that’s what I thought – it isn’t and I’m grateful it isn’t
– or that would be some kind of delusion).
4.
That my new
decision is NOT a delusion at ALL. Rather, a decision that if I want something
so much, I should give it my all once! Not split myself between dating sites,
meeting men, constantly telling myself, “I have to be ok alone,” and all the
while wishing to be with J. Rather, I
will BELIEVE I CAN be with J. This will affect all my decisions and actions.
Then I’ll have a CHANCE. Meanwhile, I’ll BE getting stronger and better on my
own and continuing to grow. I am VERY happy with my decision. I feel MUCH more
positive. NOT delusional, I PROMISE!
5.
The decision
also, to concentrate on the POSITIVES. To give MORE energy to saying THEM,
thinking of THEM!
6.
Birdy boys are
singing right now. Well I guess it’s chirping not literally singing. But a
little loud (NOT squawking) and happy!
7.
They will be only
MORE and more free as time continues. Yay!
8.
That that is ALSO
from the Law of Attraction and my beliefs affecting my decision and actions.
9.
Because of his
way of thinking, my immediate feeling pissed over a work email from someone who
I have found troublesome (and everyone else has too), turned to understanding.
Softness. Compassion. DIFFERENT than being walked on. But compassion. Yay!
10.
Tomorrow is book
course. Yay. I am excited to discuss our book (The Light between Oceans).
11.
And to select our
next one.
12.
AND – it’s an
hour/ hour and a half of not lonely time; connecting with colleagues; chatting.
13.
Today is a
meeting at another school for an hour and a half. Something good to put my head
in also.
14.
Today I will
start the new script with the students.
15.
My breath is so
good. So strong. So clean. I am SO grateful for that!
16.
Reiki. My belief
in it. My practice with it. K giving me Reiki all the times. Me giving it to L.
and a little to J I think. And to myself. And to animals, minerals, plants.
17.
To my lilac tree
bush when it was moved.
18.
And how it has
thrived since!
19.
My vision seemed
a little better when I first opened my eyes this morning.
20.
And I felt good
about waking up! VERY different from, “Oh fuck,” or “I’m ready to die.” Thank
you for this, God.
21.
The lovely dish I
cooked yesterday.
22.
The woman from
online who gave me the recipe.
23.
The recipe:
3 garlic cloves
2 T olive oil
1/3 bunch spinach (I use
more)
1 T oregano
a little salt
1 package firm tofu
In food processor.
Mixed with whole grain pasta.
(Sometimes I make a nice
lasagna from it too. It was originally for stuffed shells. And next time I’m
going to make a lasagna and add veggies – I’m thinking double the recipe above,
add fried peps, olives, broccoli or cauliflower and more spinach or kale in
layers)
24.
I skipped lunch
yesterday. No, this should not be a daily practice for me, and is not the way
to lose weight, but for yesterday it was good.
25.
Walked around.
Mmm.
26.
Mall so nice. All
redone. Mmm.
27.
In the beautiful
weather. Mmm.
28.
I shouldn’t know
but I do, that friend and spouse had sex last night. And I’m NO jealous! Yay.
So some people are having right now and I’m not. So what!
29.
Piano. Oh thank
you, God, for piano.
30.
All those lessons
my parents paid for
31.
All those rides
over
32.
All the patience
of my 3 teacers.
33.
Miss U
34.
Mrs. B
35.
And O.
36.
My 8:15 meeting
this am was cancelled.
37.
I’m glad for Li
as well as for me.
38.
That I AM excited
about my teaching.
39.
And DETERMINED to
help THESE kids!
40.
And I WILL do it!
41.
AM doing it!
42.
Halloween is this
Thursday
43.
We have some nice
things planned for the kiddies at school
44.
I will wear my
funky wig thing. Cute enough – NO money spent…
45.
I will give out
coins here, I think.
46.
My grocery
shopping yesterday.
47.
The fresh organic
honeycrisp apples – what a TREAT!
48.
The fresh organic
tomatoes. I’m gonna have tomato salad tonight! : )
49.
The organic tofu
50.
NOT buying the
organic peanut butter at the supermarket – I saw that it used palm oil, and I
don’t know the source! (Orangutans are brutally tortured and killed as their
habitat is destroyed for palm oil. Brutal. I can’t even bring up the pics to
put the link here).
51.
The energy I have
through the days now.
52.
Soon I think it
will start lasting longer in the day too!
53.
The resources on
the site from the university from which we get our professional development.
Wow. So much there!
54.
Gonna do the
song, “This Pretty Planet soon.
55.
Some ladder games
word play today.
56.
Will find a way
to fit in Journal and share.
57.
I’m presenting at
the faculty meeting next week. Oh boy.
58.
And will bring
some treats (it is our turn.)
59.
Indian food. I
still have some. Yay.
60.
Books!
61.
Positive morning.
62.
Not as dark
either here this am, or so it seems.
63.
Compliments on my
ahir yesterday.
64.
And my shoes.
65.
Washing machine
in the house.
66.
Just HAVING a
washing machine.
67.
And electricity
68.
And water
69.
And detergent
70.
And right here in
the house! I remember when still lucky, but was in apartment and had to wheel
it over and that thing on the back and boom how it would crash to the floor,
and hook it up to the sink and wheel it back…
71.
And having no
place to dry the stuff
72.
The little
electric dryer. And hanging and draping things all over the apartment
73.
Now I can hang
things downstairs. That is a luxury.
74.
I PAY for this
house. That caused a smile. I feel good about myself.
75.
J’s sister B
working full-time for now.
76.
And that it’s
been better for her self-esteem.
77.
Yesterday, my
mother’s wonderful aide gave me like 4 packages of EmergenC. That was SO nice
of her. So generous.
78.
The stuff I
bought for my mother.
79.
Including the
chopped chicken livers (ick! Lol)
80.
And the
sauerkraut
81.
Whole grain
pastas I bought yesterday
82.
On a good sale!
83.
And organic
sauces – 2 jars
84.
Sitting with
coffee and plain soy milk and cinnamon right now.
85.
I have made my
decision about South Korea. Not going. Because not realistic for me to do the
hosting for 2 weeks in Jan (at my little one bathroom, one bed house/ while I’m
falling asleep so early every night/ while I don’t cook daily and would be
responsible for that person’s breakfast and dinner daily/ AND running around NYC
for two weekends taking her everywhere: Top of the Rock, Times Square, Statue
of Liberty… So, no. Decision made. Good.
86.
Such relief at
being off the dating sites. While used to be sporadic I was checking like 3
every time I came on the computer and it was affecting my brain. Sort of an
altered state almost. Really. So glad off now.
87.
Fresh organic
greens for the boys (birdies) daily: )
88.
And for me lol
89.
Water on sale at
corner store. 2 large bottles for 2 dollars.
90.
Will start just
that filter thing on tap water soon.
91.
That I have a
piano in my classroom. I am so grateful for that.
92.
The two-minutes
breathing (meditation) with the kids each morning
93.
That M read with
me the 5 Mindfulness Trainings aloud the other day. I am so lucky to always
have someone with whom to do this.
94.
All is well. All
is okay. “You have all the conditions for happiness:” Thich Nhat Hanh
95.
That I am a
non-violent person.
96.
Phones
97.
Great and long
visit with mother yesterday
98.
Stretching is so
good for us and I do it now. Didn’t even REALIZE is good for ARTERIES til heard
Dr Oz say it last week. Wow.
99.
Prayer and the
connected consciousness it brings.
100.
People wishing
well for each other.
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