I am grateful for these things:
1. I didn't get up and eat last night, although I really wanted to.
2. I am thinking of what's good for me.
3. J. is planning to help me a little later.
4. Instant coffee came in handy this morning.
5. I stayed alive and got through yesterday. A very very hard day. But today is a new day.
6. Laptop
7. Readings
8. Friends
9. Water
10. I am grateful for all the times I've had flowers in the house.
11. And all the "pets" I've ever had.
12. For L. being there for me yesterday
13. That I have my "lesson plans" for today.
14. Dentists
15. My teeth
16. That my parents paid for those braces
17. That my stomach is sinking when I think of D and of A. That is a warning sign. And I should heed it.
18. Prayer.
19. I am grateful for Buddha
20. And my introduction thereof
21. The First of the Five Mindfulness Trainings: Reverence For Life
Aware of the suffering caused by the destruction of life, I am committed to cultivating the insight of interbeing and compassion and learning ways to protect the lives of people, animals, plants, and minerals. I am determined not to kill, not to let others kill, and not to support any act of killing in the world, in my thinking, or in my way of life. Seeing that harmful actions arise from anger, fear, greed, and intolerance, which in turn come from dualistic and discriminative thinking, I will cultivate openness, non-discrimination, and non-attachment to views in order to transform violence, fanaticism, and dogmatism in myself and in the world.
22. The Second of the Five Mindfulness Trainings: True Happiness
Aware of the suffering caused by exploitation, social injustice, stealing, and oppression, I am committed to practicing generosity in my thinking, speaking, and acting. I am determined not to steal and not to possess anything that should belong to others; and I will share my time, energy, and material resources with those who are in need. I will practice looking deeply to see that the happiness and suffering of others are not separate from my own happiness and suffering; that true happiness is not possible without understanding and compassion; and that running after wealth, fame, power and sensual pleasures can bring much suffering and despair. I am aware that happiness depends on my mental attitude and not on external conditions, and that I can live happily in the present moment simply by remembering that I already have more than enough conditions to be happy. I am committed to practicing Right Livelihood so that I can help reduce the suffering of living beings on Earth and reverse the process of global warming.
23. The Third of the Five Mindfulness Trainings: True Love
Aware of the suffering caused by sexual misconduct, I am committed to cultivating responsibility and learning ways to protect the safety and integrity of individuals, couples, families, and society. Knowing that sexual desire is not love, and that sexual activity motivated by craving always harms myself as well as others, I am determined not to engage in sexual relations without true love and a deep, long-term commitment made known to my family and friends. I will do everything in my power to protect children from sexual abuse and to prevent couples and families from being broken by sexual misconduct. Seeing that body and mind are one, I am committed to learning appropriate ways to take care of my sexual energy and cultivating loving kindness, compassion, joy and inclusiveness – which are the four basic elements of true love – for my greater happiness and the greater happiness of others. Practicing true love, we know that we will continue beautifully into the future.
24. The Fourth of the Five Mindfulness Trainings: Loving Speech and Deep Listening
Aware of the suffering caused by unmindful speech and the inability to listen to others, I am committed to cultivating loving speech and compassionate listening in order to relieve suffering and to promote reconciliation and peace in myself and among other people, ethnic and religious groups, and nations. Knowing that words can create happiness or suffering, I am committed to speaking truthfully using words that inspire confidence, joy, and hope. When anger is manifesting in me, I am determined not to speak. I will practice mindful breathing and walking in order to recognize and to look deeply into my anger. I know that the roots of anger can be found in my wrong perceptions and lack of understanding of the suffering in myself and in the other person. I will speak and listen in a way that can help myself and the other person to transform suffering and see the way out of difficult situations. I am determined not to spread news that I do not know to be certain and not to utter words that can cause division or discord. I will practice Right Diligence to nourish my capacity for understanding, love, joy, and inclusiveness, and gradually transform anger, violence, and fear that lie deep in my consciousness.
25. The Fifth of the Five Mindfulness Trainings: Nourishment and Healing
Aware of the suffering caused by unmindful consumption, I am committed to cultivating good health, both physical and mental, for myself, my family, and my society by practicing mindful eating, drinking, and consuming. I will practice looking deeply into how I consume the Four Kinds of Nutriments, namely edible foods, sense impressions, volition, and consciousness. I am determined not to gamble, or to use alcohol, drugs, or any other products which contain toxins, such as certain websites, electronic games, TV programs, films, magazines, books, and conversations. I will practice coming back to the present moment to be in touch with the refreshing, healing and nourishing elements in me and around me, not letting regrets and sorrow drag me back into the past nor letting anxieties, fear, or craving pull me out of the present moment. I am determined not to try to cover up loneliness, anxiety, or other suffering by losing myself in consumption. I will contemplate interbeing and consume in a way that preserves peace, joy, and well-being in my body and consciousness, and in the collective body and consciousness of my family, my society and the Earth.
26. The earlier forms, which were easier for me to understand and follow - I will find them again.
27. I am grateful that I have never been mugged.
28. That I have a gas station that will take care of my flat tire.
29. That my mother is ok after her fall yesterday.
30. Grateful that not all alone. Do have friends irl and online.
31. I am grateful for every safe car trip I've ever had
32. And for this day.
33. And for the KNOWLEDGE that what is wrong is really all just inside me. There's nothing horrible and deadly going on "out there" in MY life.
34. For hope.
35. For "the rooms." That helped someone I loved. And me, through the anons and through OA too.
36. That Thich Nhat Hanh says, "You have all the conditions for happiness." Right now.
35. I am grateful that I am a free person. Not a slave. Not in prison. Not a POW. Not in a concentration camp.
36. I am grateful that I've never been in a plane crash.
37. And that I haven't tried to commit suicide.
38. I am grateful for the children who have loved me.
39. And that I have an iPod which I think I shall give to J.
40. For healthy influences.
41. I am grateful for water.
42. And pomegranate juice.
43. And broccoli
44. Grateful for river stones.
45. And mindfulness bells.
46. weather reports
47. I'm grateful for connections to the outside world
48. and that I have to work for a living. it helps keep me out of my own head a bit
49. for the opportunity to meditate
50. that I can walk.
51. I am grateful that i don't have cancer.
52. And that i have all my own teeth.
53. And that I do not have a brain injury.
54. And that I have been introduced to the concepts of "The Secret."
55. Grateful for people who love me. So grateful for them. I need them.
56. Grateful that I see to help people too.
57. a bed
58. pillows
59. my flights to and from London
60. and to CA. to J.
61. cheerful people
62. funny people
63. kind people
65. sane people. I am scared from all these crazy people. Like my mother, when I was growing up. And L with his illness. Thank God he is sweet and kind for me and a compassionate person in my life. But I am scared of his illness. Not scared that he will hurt me or anything he's not violent. Just freaked out by it. I am grateful that there are some normal people.
66. that my lower digestive system works
67. and my upper digestive system
68. the gowns i wore to proms. in the days of gowns at proms lol
69. that men have asked me t marry them.
70. i am less crazy than i used to be maybe
71. that i did dishes yesterday
72. and laundry
73. and garbage things
74. i am grateful for greens
75. and hope.
76. and every second when i'm okay
77. my hands
78. that i will go in today
79. fair people
80. that i have a sofa i'm sitting on right now. that's pretty cushy
81. i am grateful that i think jo will pray for me tofday
82. and other jo too
83. and maybe j
84. and maybe L too
85. that i'm not schizophrenic.
86. that i can breathe on my own. really.
87. that i have seen barbados
88. and bermuda
89. and the LA zoo
90. and trafalgar square for a sit-in for peace with thich nhat hanh
91. for a. who gave me the ticket for free to tn in the city
92. and j. driving me there that time
93. that i can hold my own head up. physically. i know some people can't.
94. i am grateful for governments that are free and help freedoms without wars, if there are any
95. people who help non-human animals
96. that i don't eat animals
97. children
98. i am having trouble swallowing, eating. i am having diarrhea and nose running. but i am grateful for all the health i do have. that i can breathe. chew, etc. that these problems might well be temporary.
99. and that these emotional problems might well be temporary too
100. and that i AM grateful for many things.
101. words about living in the present moment and living the present moment.
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