The Magic Day 15
I am truly blessed to have my
sister’s existence,
because without it, my dear
nephew would not exist!
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so happy and grateful for
her having my niece also,
because my niece is a patient
and loving and good mother, and without her her two innocent young ones
wouldn’t be here. Just as they are. Plus – who knows who will change the world…
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am truly grateful for all
the clothes and shoes and makeup and food I bought over the last two days!,
because I can feel good about
myself. And I can look good every day now. And I worked to earn those things.
Thank you thank you thank you!
With all my heart, thank you
for having made nice foods for my mother today,
because she asked me could we
stay there, and it was hard for me to hear that but I shopped and cooked and
prepared and it is all almost totally ready now. And delicious and healthy.
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am truly blessed to have J.
in my life right now,
because we are kind to each
other and we enjoy some time together and we are both thinking about maybe...
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
I never expected THIS anymore. What a miraculous surprise of the Universe!
I am so happy and grateful for
You, Jesus,
Because. You suffered and died
and rose. For us.
Thank you, thank you, thank
you, Lord.
I am truly grateful for safety
yesterday,
because the traffic was crazy,
and yet I was safe. A little extra time spent is not a big deal.
Thank you, thank you thank
you!
With all my heart, thank you
for this morning’s gratitudes and this whole practice,
because there were some rough
spots yesterday. Like a fight with A, and some sister stuff and nephew stuff,
and mother ill stuff, and there is all the stuff with the doctor : ( and mother
and J and MA and ML and money and house, and so much loss. And I did spend 5
minutes watching pictures a friend who is a 2-G (a child of parents who were
holocaust survivors) posted, of children of the holocaust. Oh Lord. It was so
painful. So painful. And I did have nightmares. And some nervousness about
today. So I awakened a bit nervous… BUT – as I walked to kitchen to brew
coffee, I started thinking: Wow! I’m so grateful to have awakened. And to be
breathing. And that I CAN walk across the house. And that I HAVE a house. And that
I can see. And that I HAVE a coffee maker. And coffee. And birds outside
awakened me with their singing, so sweetly. And birds inside are singing too…
And it turned it around! My life really IS sprinkled with magic!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
I am so incredibly fortunate
and lucky and grateful for M,
because although she is
Jewish, she called me this morning to wish me a Happy Easter. And we chatted
about lots. And the she said, “You are really a special person. I love you,
Lynn.” And then she said, “I want you to know something. I am working on being
a better listener. I know I jump around and I interrupt and I really am working
on it.” And she called me Sis. Wow.
Thank you thank you thank you!
I am so incredibly fortunate and
lucky and grateful for my car and my ability to drive, and the money for car
insurance,
because I will get to my
mother’s today, and I got to the stores this weekend, and I get to work every
day, and I get to fun things like French at the library and beaches and movies
and and and...
Thank you thank you thank you!
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Ok. And I am to list 10 things
I’m grateful for in a difficult, problematic, or broken relationship that I want
to improve. And it doesn’t matter if this person is currently in my life.
Ok it’s supposed to be the hot
coal that is burning my life.
They say think back to the way
things were before the relationship deteriorated.
Ok. Here goes.
1. J, I am so grateful for the
great sex we always enjoyed together for so long! It brought joy and heat and
happiness to us both. It was private and hot and romantic and ours!
Thank you thank you thank you!
2. J, I’m so grateful for you
leaving when you did. I have grown so much since then. It has been like being
pushed out of the nest. I never would have gone to London alone, or the retreat
alone. I never would have been so open to outside things, getting out as much,
taking French… I never would have played in the recitals. All of these were
good for me. And most of all, I would have stayed a dependent, phobic little
wimp! And a burden and a drain.
Thank you thank you thank you!
3. J, I’m so thankful for all
the time you apologized when we argued. That was so big of you. You
really did put in time trying!
Thank you thank you thank you!
4. J, I am so grateful to you
for that year or year and a half when you cooked every night and did really
everything around here. You made a beautiful, warm, inviting, lovely and loving
home for us. You did it for me I think. Thank you
Thank you thank you thank you!
5. J, I thank you so much for
the little and big presents and surprised. The basil parsley tomato garden omg.
The socks. The charms. The diamonds. The gold. The postcards. Evita at the
dinner theater. My birthday ring. The flowers. The baloney sandwiches and world
report tabloid thing hahah! The eggs with ginger ale. Disneyland.
Thank you thank you thank you!
6. J, thank you so much for
all the time you spent helping me to pick out a piano. Wow. The time, the
place, the energy, the thought, the support. They money. All of it. Thank you
so much!
Thank you thank you thank you!
7. J, every time I was sick
you were there for me. Even more than I would EVER ask now! Thank you SO MUCH
for that!
Thank you thank you thank you!
8. J, you always gave and
still give – so much – to my mother. I never forget the image of you holding up
her back for 40 minutes at a time in the hospital after her big heart event.
And a million other things. The food preps for holidays with her. The pills
still. The patience. The driving. All of it. And you used to say, “I do it for
you. It is us.
Oh John, thank you thank you
thank you!
9. Thank you so much, J, for
the walks. All of them. Botanical Gardens. Pound Ridge with Phoebe off leash.
Tibbetts. Glen Island. Orchard Beach and the path there. Hunts Woods. Ward
Acres. Scout Field and behind. McLean Avenue lol! All of them. The endless time talking and not
talking. The aquaduct. Ahhh.
Thank you thank you thank you!
10. Thank you for swimming
with me, Dear John. In the sound at Orchard Beach and Glen Island. In Barbados.
In pools indoors and out. (And some special fun we had in a few of those
instances oh my ; ) I loved every second
of being in the water with you every time. And oh –the time you were driving us
along a beautiful road and I said, “Now what is that body of water?” And
you said, “That? That’s the Pacific Ocean.” And I had to step in it. We stopped
and I walked right in a bit with my dress held up. So much water us together.
Thank you
Thank you thank you thank you!
11. They said do 10 but oh
thank you, J, for the laughter. The many many times a day for years that we
laughed! Funny, dark, absurd, light, all of it!
Thank you for the laughter. Thank
you thank you thank you!
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