I am grateful:
1. That I went to Sp’s yesterday
2. And, believe it or not, that we didn’t finish Step Five.
3. That I couldn’t breathe during the resentment parts about my mother
4. Because we had to stop
5. And Sp talked a lot and I got stuff out of it (foggy now but I did)
6. And then Sp showed me the Big Books has and the imagery was good for me. The importance of that book.
7. And the importance of reading it. Line by line. Or at the very least paragraph by paragraph.
8. In today’s For Today: “All I can do today is try to carry out God’s will for me as I see it.” Good.
9. Yesterday’s Voices of Recovery: “Abstinence means freedom from the bondage of compulsive eating.”
10. Today’s Voices of Recover: “Live and let live.” Program slogan. Okay then.
11. I will go out of my way to get more program slogans. Look them up or ask at the meeting where I saw so many at the anniversary. Ask Sp, or that person who mentioned them last week at a meeting. I’m grateful for them.
12. And it says, ”No matter how I try to change others, they have their own uniqueness.”
13. And, “If they need to change, God will do the changing.”
14. And, “Showing love and respect for others as they make their decisions in their life’s journey leaves me free to make better choices in living my own life.”
15. And, “My relationships will improve if I can love myself enough to let other people be responsible for their decisions.”
16. And, “’Live and let live ‘will free me from the compulsion to criticize, judge, condemn, and retaliate.”
17. And, ‘Only then can I focus on the useful things in my life.”
18. Reading on my meditation thread, “"It all works out in the end, and if it hasn't worked out yet, then it's not the end."
19. Freefalling having shared this thought: Totally hopeless situations are merely the prelude to miracles.
20. And this one: When you've lost everything you have, what's left is everything you never had.
21. I am grateful for the 12 steps of oa
22. And I am grateful that I hear that at every meeting.
23. I am grateful for each one: We admitted we were powerless over food – that our lives had become unmanageable.
24. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanit.
25. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
26. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
27. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
28. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
29. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
30. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
31. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
32. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
33. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
34. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to compulsive overeaters, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
35. And I am grateful for the 12 traditions of oa, which keep us going and healthy as groups. Each of them.
36. Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends upon OA unity.
37. For our group purpose there is but one ultimate authority – a loving God as He may express himself in our group conscience. Our leaders are but trusted servants; they do not govern.
38. The only requirement for OA membership is a desire to stop eating compulsively.
39. Each group should b autonomous except in matters affecting other groups or OA as a whole.
40. Each group has but one primary purpose – to carry its message to the compulsive overeater who still suffers.
41. An OA group ought never endorse, finance or lend the OA name to any related facility or outside enterprise, lest problems of money, property and prestige divert us from our primary purpose.
42. Every OA group ought to be fully self-supporting, declining outside contributions.
43. Overeater anonymous should remain forever non-professional, but our service centers may employ special workers.
44. OA, as such, ought never be organized; but we may create service boards or committees directly responsible to those they serve.
45. Overeaters Anonymous has no opinion on outside issues; hence the OA name ought never be drawn into public controversy.
46. Our public relations policy is based on attraction rather than promotion; we need always maintain personal anonymity at the level of press, radio, films, television, and other public media of communication.
47. Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all these traditions, every reminding us to place principles before personalities.
48. I am grateful that I managed to get myself into the city the other day, even with the terrorism thread stuff.
49. And that M did call me back last night.
50. And that I did take both pills (allowed)
51. And that they helped.
52. But were very strong, which means I’m not developing a tolerance. And I certainly don’t want to.
53. And that I’ve decided to go to the meeting today.
54. And will call J from car, so stronger.
55. And ask about Ph
56. And remember the Heartguard
57. And ask about Mother’s Day.
58. And the birds have started singing (that I could hear) while I was typing the 12 steps.
59. And that I didn’t type those 12 steps and 12 traditions just to fill space, but because I really am grateful. And am grateful for the CoDA ones too.
60. We admitted we were powerless over other – that our lives had become unmanageable.
61. Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
62. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care O God as we understood God.
63. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
64. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
65. Were entirely read to have God remove all these defects of character.
66. Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.
67. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
68. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do wo would inure them or others.
69. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
70. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.
71. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other codependents, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
72. And I am grateful for the 12 traditions of CoDA, which keep us going as groups.
73. Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends upon CoDA unity.
74. For our group purpose there is but one ultimate authority – a loving Higher Power as expressed to our group conscience. Our leaders are but trusted servants; they do not govern..
75. The only requirement for membership in CoDA is a desire for health and loving relationships.
76. Each group should remain autonomous except in matters affecting other groups or CoDA as a whole.
77. Each group has but one primary purpose – to carry its message to other codependents who still suffer.
78. A CoDA group ought never endorse, finance, or lend the CoDA name to any related facility or outside enterprise, lest problems of money, property, and prestige divert us from our primary spiritual aim.
79. Every CoDA group ought to be fully self-supporting, declining outside contributions.
80. Co-Dependents Anonymous should remain forever nonprofessional, but our service centers may employ special workers.
81. CoDA, as such, ought never be organized; but we may create service boards or committees directly responsible to those they serve.
82. CoDA has no opinion on outside issues; hence, the CoDA name ought never be drawn ino pulic controversy.
83. Our public relations policy is based on attraction rather than promotion; we need always maintain personal anonymity at the level of press, radio, and films.
84. Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.
85. I am grateful that I typed all of those out.
86. And for the half promises in the Big Book, which OA Sp pointed out to me (changing word alcohol to word food here): “And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone – even food. For by this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in food. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see that our new attitude toward food has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. It just comes! That is the miracle of it. We are not fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality – safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us. We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is our experience. That is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition.”
87. And for the promises. “If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through.
88. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
89. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
90. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
91. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
92. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
93. We will lose interest in selfish things and again interest in our fellows.
94. Self-seeking will slip away.
95. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
96. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
97. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
98. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
99. Are these extravagant promises? We think not.
100. They are being fulfilled among us – sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
101. They will always materialize if we work for them.
I am grateful that I typed these all out too.
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