CoDA

I feel:

Sad.
Alone.
Very very regretful.

Also useful and busy.

But - afraid.

I can't even figure out why, except for the J. stuff. And life kind of really settling in this way.

I don't know what to do differently right now except:
not do e-mails before spiritual work, as I run out of time for really intensive spiritual work

Uh oh
5 good things about me
I am nice to the children
I am always improving
I am starting to accept myself
I can still laugh and enjoy
I have some hope