Slept very badly.
Can't find eyedrops. Didn't skip - used others last night. But must replace today and don't have backup which must.
Feel sick. No fever though. That's good.
Sick over Thanksgiving and J and what to do about my mother.
Pit of stomach stuff.
But I do think this is bottom for me. Emotional bottom.
It's like after someone dies and when the adrenaline eases and the people all leave and the emptiness consumes and you realize, this is it.
It's SO bad.
SO bad.
So all I can think of is:
Put one step in front of the other.
Do the next right thing.
Don't judge it just do it.
Do you work; do your eating well; do your program stuff.
Get through this one day.
God help me to.
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