CoDA

I feel:

Nervous about farm trip today.
Disappointed that J loving me dream was just a dream.
But happy I had it.
Better because of today's readings.
And the connection between Program and Buddhism.
Anxious about mother, who called asking for J at like 6:20 am. Oy.
Desirous of living in the moment. Breathing. Doing the mindfulness meditation.
Sorry but can't wait for this day (farm trip - vegan's nightmare) to be over.
Prayerful and sacred.

Next time:
Maybe not do this trip.
Or, prepare self emotionally in advance. Like few nights of 5 minutes a night thinking of what god might come out of it, meditating daily, ...

5 good things about me
Sensitive
Funny
Kind of fun with kids
Becoming much more able to think of the nice things to do
While starting to accept self