CoDA Moning Work Today

I am to say it so:
Thank you, God, for this day.

I woke up and I feel:

Regretful, Sad, Lonely, Ill, Bewildered, Disturbed, Encumbered, Hindered, Bothered, Envious, Estranged, Burdened, Downtrodden, Alone, Disconnected, Jittery, Anxious, Worried
And
Defeated, willing
And
Grateful, Sacred, Blessed, Healthy, Recharged, Open

I think it is because:
First stuff: J, marriage situation, what I feel I've done to my life, fearful about my future, not liking the day, every day now
Second stuff: food. Have waved the white flag
Third stuff: Pill from dr. last night has helped raise the ocean floor. Plus I do know I have tons to be grateful for. And I am open to growth.

Thank you, Jesus, for help with these things.